What song best describes you and your BPD?

Skrillex is good for boosting my mood and giving me a bit of an adrenaline rush when I'm feeling almost anything negative. Not in a bad way it tends to be un-emotional enough lyrically to keep me from diving into a hole of darkness if it's a tendency at the time. The Crystal Method is up there with it too

"The beast in me". The Jonny Cash version.

- Gareth Emery featuring Christuba Novelli

let me breathe you in,

and breathe the words in your mouth
inside your shivering,

the silence shouts so loud
i just want to,

i just want to stay around
and while my heart beats,

i promise i wont let you down.
if im somewhere else

it doesnt mean that i dont see
that you dont trust yourself,

thats why you dont trust me
it makes me crazy,

when youre crazy,

you dont speak
you think you know me,

but what you know is just skin deep
if you keep building these walls,

brick by brick towers so tall
soon i wont see you at all,

until the concrete angel falls
i knew how you were from the start,

but now i dont know who you are
soon there'll be nothing at all,

until the concrete angel falls

Linkin Park "Somewhere I Belong"

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Repeat Chorus]

I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today

[Repeat Chorus]

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

My personal favorite is Hurricane by MS MR (chvrches remix).

The chvrches remix gives it an upbeat sound and i absolutely love it when i am feeling like my mind is going into a bad place.

I highly suggest giving it a listen at soundcloud

Didn't know what this would be
But I knew I didn't see
what you thought you saw in me
I jumped the gun
so sure you'd split and run
ready for the worst
before the damage was done

Oho oho oho oh

The storm never came
or it never was
didn't know getting lost in the blue
it meant I wound up losing you

Welcome to the inner workings of my mind
so dark and foul I can't disguise
can't disguise
nights like this
I become afraid
of the darkness in my heart
hurricane

ohhoo oho

What's wrong with me
why not understand and see
I never saw
what you saw in me
keep my eyes open
my lips sealed
my heart closed
and my ears peeled

Welcome to the inner workings of my mind
so dark and foul I can't disguise
can't disguise
nights like this
I become afraid
of the darkness in my heart
hurricane

Make ash and leave the dust behind
Lady Diamond in the sky
wild light
glowing bright
to guide me
when I fall
I fall on tragedy

Welcome to the inner workings of my mind
so dark and foul I can't disguise
can't disguise
nights like this
I become afraid
of the darkness in my heart
hurricane

Burgundy Heart Shaped Medallion By David Wilcox

If I had a spell of magic
I would make this enchantment for you
A burgundy heart shaped medallion
With a window that you could look through
So that when all the mirrors are angry
With your faults and all you must do
You could peak through that heart shaped medallion
And see you from my point of view

My ex introduced me to David Wilcox , and to his music at a small venue. This is a very short song, but it is a very good description of how I see myself compared to how others see me ......

just was telling my best friend about this thread....
He was belly laughing so hard.... took a few minutes for him to even speak....
and says... sorry ... but all I could think was
"the wheels on the bus go round and round"
how true is that!!!!

Motionless in White - Burned at Both Ends

There's nothing left now that doesn't come from suffering
Victims of time, were defined by our history
Forever lost, and now I don't know who the f**k I have become
Where has my life gone?

I'm holding on to a life, I'll never get back
It's too hard to let go
I'm on the right train but the wrong tracks
Trying not to derail

Nothing is like it was before
I know not who I am anymore
Chasing something that's behind me
When will I be set free?

So what is left of this life that's in front of me?
Is there a future when you only see in memories?
When every loss, every beauty just reminds you of the past
How can you just let go?

I'm holding on to a life, I'll never get back
It's too hard to let go
I'm on the right train but the wrong tracks
Trying not to derail

Nothing is like it was before
I know not who I am anymore
Chasing something that's behind me
When will I be set free?

Broken promises left to mend
Burning the candle at both ends
No light to find my way back home
But I don't know where "home" is anymore
The sinking ship has washed ashore

This misery has got to end
What's done is done
The past is a strange place

Look, look at me now, just a fool with everything, but yet I'm still so hollow
Look, look at us now, no lights just struggling to find our way back home

I'm holding on to a life, I'll never get back
It's too hard to let go
I'm on the right train but the wrong tracks
Trying not to derail

Nothing is like it was before
I know not who I am anymore
Chasing something that's behind me
When will I be set free?

Broken promises left to mend
Burning the candle at both ends
No light to find my way back home
Cause' I don't know where "home" is
And without you, I'm hopeless

LINKIN PARK In The End

(It starts with one)
One thing I don't know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
(All I know)
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
(It’s so unreal)
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn’t even know
I wasted it all just to watch you go

I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to be will eventually be a memory of a time when...

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end

You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when...

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

Nobody likes me
Everybody hates me
Guess I'll eat some wer-er-worms

theme music from Criminal Minds
theme music from Law and Order

Invisibly Shaken by Rodney Adkins

My friends say they're proud of me
For takin our breakup so casually.
They don't see what lies beneath my smile.

It appears that I'm okay
That I moved on when you walked away
But the truth is, since you said goodbye:

I'm invisibly shaken.
Quietly breakin
Desperately takin one breath at a time
Beneath this composure
I know it's over
Baby I'm dyin 'cause you can't be mine
But I will never show the toll it's taken
Cause I'm invisibly shaken.

If it looks
Like I don't care
It not killin me seeing you here
Hearin you say you wanna try us again

Believe me. It ain't easy
Bein this cool
But too many times girl I've been your fool
But I know, I'd just end up here again

I'm invisibly shaken.
Quietly breakin
Desperately takin one breath at a time
Beneath this composure
I know it's over
Baby I'm dyin 'cause you can't be mine
But I will never show the toll it's taken
Cause I'm invisibly shaken.

Baby I'm dyin 'cause you can't be mine
But I will never show the toll it's taken
Cause I'm invisibly shaken.

Hers a new song I heard on the radio
"Beautiful" by pod

you stand with the gun in your hand
staring at the wall with a look so sad
thinking about who really cares
and will they even notice if I just disappeared
in one bang, blood rushed to the head
shed rather fly through the sky than walk with the dead
she stays high while the world goes by
just another day here waiting to die

but life is beautiful
share a little love with the whole wide world
every boy and girl sing along
when we sing why-o,
why-o

and she cries but her man denies
its funny how love comes with so many lies
he said he’d never do it again
so she puts on a smile and starts to pretend
and she hides all the pain inside
while filling up her arms with pretty little lines
she cuts with no intent to kill
this time she didn’t do it
but someday she will

but life is beautiful
so share a little love with the whole wide world
every boy and girl sing this song
when we sing why-o,
why-o
and hey, you’re beautiful
and there’s enough love for the whole wide world
every boy and girl sing along
when we sing why-o,
why-o
and hey,
I know that you can find a way
you’re beautiful to me
no matter what the people say
its all gonna be okay
you’re beautiful to me

too weak, too weary to try
too angry inside, well so am I
I’m all alone with nobody else
I’m so in need of help, I keep reminding myself

that life is beautiful
so share a little love with the whole wide world
every boy and girl sing along
when they sing why-o,
why-o
and hey, you’re beautiful
and there’s enough love for the whole wide world
every boy and girl sing the song
when they sing why-o,
why-o
and hey,
I know that you can find a way
you’re beautiful to me
no matter what the people say
it’s all gonna be okay
you’re beautiful to me
it’s all gonna end someday
it’s all gonna fade away
you’re beautiful to me
you’re beautiful to me
you’re beautiful to me
you’re beautiful to me
you’re beautiful to me

Love that song

The Smiths - How Soon Is Now ...

"Skyscraper", Demi Lovato


[Verse 1:]
Skies are crying, I am watching
Catching tear drops in my hands
Only silence as it's ending
Like we never had a chance
Do you have to make me feel like
There's nothing left of me?

[Chorus:]
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

[Verse 2:]
As the smoke clears, I awaken
And untangle you from me
Would it make you feel better
To watch me while I bleed?
All my windows still are broken
But I'm standing on my feet

[Chorus:]
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

[Bridge:]
Go run, run, run
I'm gonna stay right here,
Watch you disappear
Yeah, oh
Go run, run, run
Yeah, it's a long way down
But I am closer to the clouds up here

[Chorus:]
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Oh Oh
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

(Like a skyscraper)

Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

*this song always touches my heart.

I can't remember which song it is but there is one by the Smiths I used to listen to over and over... must go find it

I love POD.. Beautiful is a fav. Couple of Stabbing Westward songs used to describe me well, but I'm much (mostly) better now. *grins*

POD is way too hard for me.

Too hard as in like 'heavy' or 'emotional'? I find them to have the beat I need but with the spiritual backdrop I like. I find Beautiful to just be a really pretty song.

Though Im also guilty of putting on Party Rock Anthem by LMFAO when I really need a huge pick-me-up, or Great Big Sea

if you mean P.O.D. the only stuff I heard by them was hardcore punk rock really blasting stuff.

hmm, no they aren't punk, they have been often called nu-metal back in the 90's. But you can pop into youtube for a quick listen to Beautiful to see if they are the same band. (shameless promotion of a song i love, haha)

I'm talking about P.O.D (Payable on Death) is that who you mean? i can't youtube here so I can't look it up.

Yep that's them.
Maybe their style has just changed over the years...
I used to listen to a lot of punk like, Misfits, oldschool AFI, Black Halo's etc and just didn't really see POD as being in that genre.