What song best describes you and your BPD?

Also, depends on my mood at the time too what song I connect with most (go figure, ha).

Fix Me from 10 years is a very good one too:

It’s taken a lifetime to lose my way
A lifetime of yesterdays
All the wasted time on my hands
Turns to sand
And fades in the wind

Crossing lines
Small crimes
Taking back what is mine

I’m fine in the fire
I feed on the friction
I’m right where I should be
Don’t try and fix me
I’m fine in the fire
I feed on the friction
I’m right where I should be
Don’t try and fix me

So lost for so long
To find to my way
I failed to follow
I’m out of place

Crossing Lines
Small crimes
Taking back what is mine

I’m fine in the fire
I feed on the friction
I’m right where I should be
Don’t try and fix me

I’m fine in the fire
I feed on the friction
I’m right where I should be
Don’t try and fix me

I’m fine in the fire
I feed on the friction
I’m right I should be
Don’t try and fix me

I’m fine in the fire
I feed on the friction
I’m right where I should be
Don’t try and fix me

I'm new here but I just wanted to add my two cents. The first song that comes to mind is "Black Eyed" by Placebo. I think they actually say "Borderline" in the song. Others that I have identified with in the past:
Hurt - NIN
Razor - Foo Fighters
Grey Street - DMB
Sentimental - Porcupine Tree
Changes - 3 Doors Down
Unwell - Matchbox 20
Send the Pain Below - Chevelle
Coma White - Marilyn Manson

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BPD (recovering)
SI free 2yrs

I love this thread - saw a lot of music I want to check out.

I listen to Counting Crows a lot...they summarize me when I'm OK and when I'm struggling. When I'm struggling, I'll listen to Round Here and Perfect Blue Buildings for hours on repeat, especially the latter..

Just down the street from your hotel, baby
I stay at home with my disease
Ain't this position familiar, darling?
Well, all monkeys do what they see

Help me stay awake, I'm falling

Down on Virginia and La Loma
Where I got friends who'll care for me
You got an attitude of everything I ever wanted
I got an attitude of need

So help me stay awake, I'm falling

Asleep in perfect blue buildings
Beside the green apple sea
Gonna get me a little oblivion, baby
And try to keep myself away from me

It's 4:30 a.m. on a Tuesday
It doesn't get much worse than this
In beds in little rooms, in buildings in the middle
Of these lives which are completely meaningless

Help me stay awake, I'm falling

Asleep in perfect blue buildings
Beside the green apple sea
I wanna get me a little oblivion, baby
I'm tryin' to keep myself away from myself and me

Well, I got bones beneath my skin mister
There's a skeleton in every man's house
Beneath the dust and love and sweat that hangs on everybody
There's a dead man trying to get out

So please help me stay awake, I'm falling

Asleep in perfect blue buildings
Beside the green apple sea
I wanna get me a little oblivion, baby
I'm tryin' to keep myself away from myself and me

Perfect blue buildings
Beside the green apple sea
I wanna get me a little oblivion, baby
I'm tryin' to keep myself away from myself and me

Oh in a perfect blue building
Well I can't keep myself away from me
In a perfect blue building
So how am I gonna keep myself away?
How am I gonna keep myself away from me?
Keep myself away
How am I gonna keep myself away from me?
Keep myself away
How am I gonna keep myself away from me?

Testify by Amy Studt, however its more related to my SI past.

I've been cheating
Myself for too long
Living as if
I was going nowhere
And I know it's wrong

I've been fighting
Myself for too long
I tried, really tried
To keep my head up high

And I know it's wrong
And I should really know better
But it's been so long

I know, how I feel, but
I'm afraid to show it inside
It's so real, but no one else would know it
The whole truth, and no lies
Cutting deeper I can hear my soul cry
Come on, testify
Come on, testify

I've been lying
To myself for too long, silence
Was my only comfort
And I know it's wrong
But I can't change the weather
It's been too long

I know how I feel, but I'm
Afraid to show it inside
It's so real, but no one else would know it
The whole truth, and no lies
Cutting deeper I can hear my soul cry
Come on, testify
Come on, testify

To the friends that I've lost on the way
To the friends I've been pushing away
You could say that I've made
It, but I'm jaded
And inside I'm falling

I know, how I feel, but
I'm afraid to show it inside
It's so real, but no one else would know it
The whole truth, and no lies
Cutting deeper I can hear my soul cry
Come on, testify
Come on, testify

I've been fighting
Myself for too long
And I've been hating
Myself for too long

Or Monsters by Hurricane Bells...

Situation's all critical
You've got to look first before you go
If you wasn't too sure then now you know
The situation is all critical

Wait OK you've got to look before you go
Wait OK you've got to look before you go

Deep into the darkness where I hide
The monsters are burried down deep inside
You never know when they're satisfied
Buried down deep where the sun don't shine
The monsters are buried down deep inside but

Wait OK you've got to look before you go
You're wasting away
OK you've got to look before you go

Deep into the darkness where I hide
Deep into the darkness where I hide

Wait OK you've got to look before you go
Wait OK you've got to look before you go
You're wasting away
OK you've got to look before you go

Deep into the darkness where I hide
Deep into the darkness where I hide
Deep into the darkness

Breaking Sh**, by Limp Bizkit

Lazy Bones - Green Day

The only song I think I can really identify with now is "At Least I'm Not As Sad As I Used To Be" by fun. And only the second verse describes me.

And they said, HEY NATE!
"Yeah it's been a while"
"Are you gonna sing?"
Ha! I began to smile, I said
"Oh you should have seen me
A couple of years ago
I was laughing and drinking and smoking and singing" Oh

"Come on can you count all the loves that didn't last?"
It's such a gasp when you bring up the past

So I left, that is it, that's my life,
Nothing is sacred,
I don't keep friends, I keep acquainted
I'm not a prophet, but I'm here to profit
That's all, I'm gone! That's my life, nothing is sacred
I don't fall in love, I just fake it.
I don't fall in love, I don't fall in love.

I can identify with songs. Identify with songs that describe bpd, not so much. After all I am NOT my disorder so it is not my identity.

I can't believe that I forgot this one, "Another Sleep Song" by Graham Nash

All is need is someone to awaken me
Much of me has gone to sleep and I'm afraid to wake up
Shake me by the shoulder if I'm lying with you now

When I talk about the time I sleep away
When it's hard to face the day.
When I think of all the love that's taken me
How much do I get to keep and much should I give up?

Shake me by the shoulder if I'm lying to you now
I'm listening to the lies inside my head
Who can hurt you in your bed?
Fear of other people is a thing I hate

I travel in a bubble and I can't relate.
Something is happening to my head
I don't want to hurt you
But I never heard a word you said

Has this empty hollow heart forsaken me?
I wonder if I'll ever get to feel like I did
Before I grew up.
Shake me by the shoulder if I'm lying with you now

There is no time to waste another day
'Cause we watch them fly away.

(Too Late to) Apologize (dont remember who sings it)

Better Than Revenge by Taylor Swift

Both Sides Now Joni Mitchell

Dream On originally done by Aerosmith

My Own Prison by Creed

Drops of Jupiter
Old Man (Neil Young)
Because of You
Sounds of Silence (Simon and Garfunkel)
Big Bright Green Pleasure Machine (Simon & Garfunkel)
I'm in Love with a Big Blue Frog

Cinema Bizarre - Dysfunctional family

I'm a punk,
I'm a sinner,
I'm a lost new beginner.
I'm a threat to myself,
I'm a get Armageddon.
I'm a freak,
I'm a liar.
I'm a flirt,
I deny that I know it,
Then I mess it up.

And sometimes I feel like ,
I'm only one.
No wonder why I've become,
So dum so dum di dum di dum.

I get more and more strange,
I'm going insane.
I'm building it up,
Just to break it down.
You get what you see,
The product of a dysfunctional family.

Dysfunction,
Dysfunctional,
Dysfunctional family.

Dysfunction,
Dysfunctional,
Dysfunctional family.

I'm a bit suicidal,
I'm my own worst rival,
Train wreck, white trash, freak, maniac, psycho.
I'm a trouble making rebel,
Made a deal with the devil,
I'm way past ever coming back.

But sometimes I feel like,
I'm not the only one,
When I see why I've become,
So dum, so dum di dum di dum.

I get more and more strange,
I'm going insane.
I'm building it up,
Just to break it down.
You get what you see,
The product of a dysfunctional family.

Dysfunction,
Dysfunctional,
Dysfunctional family.

Dysfunction,
Dysfunctional,
Dysfunctional family.

I'm not anybody,
Don't you cry for me,
I'm just from a dysfunctional family.

Family, family, family, family, family, family,
family, family, family, family, family, family,
family, family, family, family, family.

I get more and more strange,
I'm going insane.
I'm building it up,
Just to break it down.
You get what you see,
The product of a dysfunctional family.

Dysfunction,
Dysfunctional,
Dysfunctional family.

Dysfunction,
Dysfunctional,
Dysfunctional family.

Dysfunctional family

Dysfunctional family

I can think of so many. Here's a couple by korn, right now and alone I break.

People Like Us
Catching My Breath

This is easy...

I don't know if I have one for me. Yet, my boyfriend picked "Happy Together" for us LOL

No, I'm picking "Diamonds" by Rihanna for us and "Life Happens" by Brandon & Leah.

Currently trying to not drink - so Fine Again by Seether.

Back in the day, anything by Stabbing Westward from Wither Blister Burn and Peel was pretty much dangerous to listen to when I was feeling abandoned and hurt.

For the most part i need to be careful with music. The songs I love best (old Marilyn Manson etc) really trigger a dark mood.. currently I stay safe with Skrillex haha

Oooh good song choice. I wish the depression forum had this thread.

I've always identified myself as the woman that he sings about in this song, "Crutch" by Matchbox 20

Crutch
------Matchbox 20

I don't want to be the crutch
One step away from down
I don't want to be the crutch
One step away from...

Man I feel like hell so come on over
Be a love machine and I could be your friend
Ain't no shame feel strong for one another
Make a real true color come end to end then
God damn, change of pace
I think there's still a piece of my heart on your face
It's a shame to let it waste
How does it taste? How does it taste?

Break it down in pieces, make it simple
'Cause you know damn well that I'm a simple man
All these things go changing like the weather
And they stay that way until the weather man says
One down, gone to waste
I think there's still a piece of that smile on your face
And I would like to see it erased
There ain't no two ways about it

no

I don't want to be the crutch
One step away from down
I don't want to be the crutch
One step away from down, down, down

Bring it on then gone, use a lover
Like a cigarette the way that lovers do
One sweet song that starts a little slow and
Then goes on and on and makes you want to
Move around the room in circles
Everybody wants to be you
Try to find my place up on the map
Of all men you've been through
Dig a little deeper and you'll realize
All I'm building up you're tearing down

I don't want to be the crutch
One step away from down
I don't want to be the crutch
One step away from down, down, down, down, down

All you needed was a crutch
One step away from down
I could never be your crutch
I could break you down

I don't want to be the crutch
I don't want to be the crutch
I don't want to be the crutch
One step away from...

angels to fly.....Ed Sheernan.......roxyanne1

That sounds great--can I steal that idea?

I can't say the same song always describes me, it changes with my moods, and phases in life. Right now though, this is a good song to describe where I am. It's a song from my youth and one I keep coming back to time and again. Not completely in a negative light either, necessarily.

"Here I Go Again", White Snake - 1987

I don't know where I'm going
But, I sure know where I've been
Hanging on the promises
In songs of yesterday
An' I've made up my mind,
I ain't wasting no more time
But, here I go again
Here I go again

Tho' I keep searching for an answer,
I never seem to find what I'm looking for
Oh Lord, I pray
You give me strength to carry on,
'Cos I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams

An' here I go again on my own
Goin' down the only road I've ever known,
Like a hobo* I was born to walk alone
An' I've made up my mind
I ain't wasting no more time

I'm just another heart in need of rescue,
Waiting on love's sweet charity
An' I'm gonna hold on
For the rest of my days,
'Cos I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams

An' here I go again on my own
Goin' down the only road I've ever known,
Like a hobo* I was born to walk alone
An' I've made up my mind
I ain't wasting no more time

But, here I go again,
Here I go again,
Here I go again,
Here I go...

An' I've made up my mind,
I ain't wasting no more time

An' here I go again on my own
Goin' down the only road I've ever known,
Like a hobo* I was born to walk alone
'Cos I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams

An' here I go again on my own
Goin' down the only road I've ever known,
Like a hobo* I was born to walk alone
An' I've made up my mind
I ain't wasting no more time...

But, here I go again,
Here I go again,
Here I go again,
Here I go,
Here I go again...