What song best describes you and your BPD?

Well not being into punk, maybe it's my misinterpretation of their style but what I'd heard was too hard at the time (possibly 7+ years ago)

@ s4ndm4n Music is art and I think it's totally likely that everyone gleans different things from different sounds, so that makes total sense.

absolutely.

This is off topic but helps me to describe my feelings right now...

Is this the one?

The Smiths / Morrissey
How soon is Now:

I am the son And the heir
Of a shyness that is criminally vulgar
I am the son and the heir
Of the nothing in particular

You shut your mouth
How can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am human and I need to be loved
Just like everybody else does

There's a club if you'd like to go
You could meet somebody who really loves you

So you going to stand on your own
And you leave on your own
And you go home and cry and you want to die

When you say it's going to happen now
Well when exactly do you mean?
See i have already waited too long
And all my hope is gone

You shut your mouth
How can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am human and I need to be loved
Just like everybody else does

(This song gives me the golden melancholy chills of truth & nostalgia)

NOt sure I have to hear it. it was the sound I remember, not the words

I'm singing it to you, but obviously you can't hear me through here .
You can't do YouTube right? It was their most played song. The album was called Meat is Murder, had it on vinyl & cassette when I was 10 - 30 yrs ago. They played it in that movie about the 3 Catholic school girls experimenting Wicca, can't remember the name of that movie darnit...

One in particularly I've noticed the past few days 'What Now - Rihanna'

No one song will always sum it/me up.. but definitely this one lately. The usual meaning of the songs that I can relate to are generally a totally different *actual* meaning, but I guess that's the point

Note - I don't normally listen to this but the radio has provided some gems lol.

The Craft *grins* -- can't say it was my fav movie, but the song was cool.

REMIND ME TONIGHT WHEN I'M AT HOME. I'LL LOOK FOR THE ONE i LIKE.

"Build Me Up, Break Me Down" by Dream Theater. It's where the quote in my signature comes from.

Awful film, great song...

"I Hate You, Don't Leave Me" - Demi Lovato

Hey, yeah yeah
I hate you, don’t leave me
I feel like I can’t breathe
Just hold me, don’t touch me
And I want you to love me
But I need you to trust me
Stay with me, set me free
But I can’t back down
No, I can’t deny
That I’m staying now
‘Cause I can’t decide
Confused and scared
I am terrified of you

I admit I’m in and out of my head
Don’t listen to a single word I’ve said
Just hear me out before you run away
‘Cause I can’t take this pain

I hate you, don’t leave me

I hate you, don’t leave me
‘Cause I love when you kiss me
I’m in pieces, you complete me
But I can’t back down
No, I can’t deny
That I’m staying now
‘Cause I can’t decide
Confused and scared
I am terrified of you

I admit I’m in and out of my head
Don’t listen to a single word I’ve said
Just hear me out before you run away
‘Cause I can’t take this pain, no

I’m addicted to the madness
I’m a daughter of the sadness
I’ve been here too many times before
Been abandoned and I’m scared now
I can’t handle another fall out
I’m fragile, just washed upon the shore

They forget me, don’t see me
When they love me, they leave me

I admit I’m in and out of my head
Don’t listen to a single word I’ve said
Just hear me out before you run away
‘Cause I can’t take this pain
No, I can’t take this pain
I hate you, don’t leave me
I hate you, please love me

This is a good one.
Because. Demi.

Manic - Plumb

(chorus)
Nothing I say will wash it away
I'm standing in the pouring rain
You say it won't happen again
You're manic, manic
There is a chemical in your brain
It's pouring sunshine and rage
You can never know what to expect
You're manic, manic

strong enough- sheryl crow

God, I feel like hell tonight
Tears of rage I cannot fight
I'd be the last to help you understand
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Nothing's true and nothing's right
So let me be alone tonight
Cause you can't change the way I am
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Lie to me
I promise I'll believe
Lie to me
But please don't leave

I have a face I cannot show
I make the rules up as I go
Just try and love me if you can
Are you strong enough to be my man?

When I've shown you that I just don't care
When I'm throwing punches in the air
When I'm broken down and I can't stand
Will you be man enough to be my man?

Lie to me
I promise I'll believe
Lie to me
But please don't leave

Skillet- Comatose

I hate feeling like this
I'm so tired of trying to fight this
I'm asleep and all I dream of

Is waking to you
Tell me that you will listen
Your touch is what I'm missing
And the more I hide I realize I'm slowly losing you

Comatose
I'll never wake up without an overdose of you

[Chorus:]
I don't wanna live
I don't wanna breathe
'les I feel you next to me
you take the pain I feel
waking up to you never felt so real
I don't wanna sleep
I don't wanna dream
'cause my dreams don't comfort me
The way you make me feel
Waking up to you never felt so real

I hate living without you
Dead wrong to ever doubt you
But my demons lay in waiting
Tempting me away
Oh how I adore you
Oh how I thirst for you
Oh how I need you

Comatose
I'll never wake up without an overdose of you

[Chorus]

Breathing life
Waking up
My eyes open up

Comatose
I’ll never wake up without an overdose of you

[Chorus]

Oh how I adore you
Waking up to you never felt so real
Oh how I thirst for you
Waking up to you never felt so real
Oh how I adore you, ohhhh
The way you make me feel
Waking up to you never felt so real

Everlast- Little Miss America

It's all been said, it's all been done
The war is over, the battle's won
Sour grapes, sweet revenge
Heaven starts right where hell ends
She was young, seventeen
She felt so soft she smelled so clean
Her aim was true, her heart was pure...
Until the day that her daddy walked out the door
She's lookin for a man and so much more
But her Uncle Sam sent him off to war

[Chorus]
And Little Miss America, in all of your glory
She love the paparazzi, she's tryin to sell her story
She's gonna write a movie, she wanna be a star
But Little Miss America, where did you get that scar?

Desert sun, blazin sand
Love in my heart, gun in my hand
Lost a leg, killed a man
in mortal combat, hand to hand
Saw men killed, watched men die
so many times that I can't cry
It's been eighteen months since I've seen home...
I get a purple heart, a good G.I. Loan
They say God blesses every child with his own
But we're all gonna die in the dark alone

[Chorus]

Back at home, it's kind of strange
Ain't nuttin happenin, ain't nuttin changed
Same old rules, same old game
Still I'm haunted by the names
of all the friends, left behind
They weigh so heavy on my mind
At night I miss goin out on patrol...
The desert went and turned my warm heart cold

[Chorus]

[Outro]
Where did you get the scar? [6x]

Hollywood Undead- Knife Called Lust

[J-dog:]
I look alive, I'm dead inside. My heart has holes and black blood flows.
We'll do some drugs, well fall in love and get ****ed up while the world just shrugs.
With no thought Logically.
Were wondering the streets so aimlessly.
I hate to see these kids just being put down so painlessly.
And people say you Dye your hair and wear tight jeans, that doesn't mean.
That you can't scream, or like loud noise, you got a choice, you have a voice.
And just because you showed no love and hate on us
you ****ed our trust.
Now watch we thrust this
Knife Called Lust into my Chest until it Bust.

[Chorus]
[Producer:]
This love, This Hate
Is burning me away
([Shady Jeff:] is burning me away)
It's hard to face that we're all the same
This love, This Hate
Is Burning me away
([Shady Jeff:] is burning me away)
It's harder times like these that never change
([Shady Jeff:] That never change)

[Charlie Scene:]
mad at the fact your dad is an addict, your friend takes pills he thinks it cures sadness,
I'm not here to attack or make you kids panic,
but i just think it's tragic the way these kids have it.
and everybody sins and it all begins, it goes back around, nobody ever wins.
and you stab yourself in the back, EVERYBODY JUST RELAX! it all just hits so close to home,
we all got friends but we stand alone, and your on your own from a broken home,
you keep the truth inside and it stays unknown. Nostalgia hit and its time to quit,
and everybody acts like it don't mean ****. a
and your friend will stab you just to **** some girl,
put your hands in the air and scream **** THE WORLD!!!

[Chorus]
[Producer:]
This love, This Hate
Is burning me away
([Shady Jeff:] is burning me away)
It's hard to face that we're all the same
This love, This Hate
Is Burning me away
([Shady Jeff:] is burning me away)
It's harder times like these that never change
([Shady Jeff:] That never change)

[Bridge:]
[Producer and Charlie Scene:] Let go
[Producer:] I'll bring you closer
[Producer and Charlie Scene:] Right now
[Charlie Scene:] I'll hold on tightly
[Producer and Charlie Scene:] Let go
[Producer:] We're going no where
[Producer and Charlie Scene:] Somewhere
[Charlie Scene:] And things aren't over
[Producer:] Harder times like these!
[Producer and Kurlzz and Shady Jeff:] Growing up on the streets!
[Producer:] Harder times like these!
[Producer, Kurlzz and Shady Jeff:] We'll put you back on your feet!

[Chorus]
[Producer:]
This love, This Hate
Is burning me away
([Shady Jeff:] is burning me away)
It's hard to face that we're all the same
This love, This Hate
Is Burning me away
([Shady Jeff:] is burning me away)
It's harder times like these that never change
([Shady Jeff:] That never change)

[Ending:]
[Charlie Scene:]
And I fall to the ground with my teardrops
And I get lost every time my heart stops
[Producer:]
This love this hate is burning me away
[Charlie Scene:]
And I fall to the ground with my teardrops
And I get lost every time my heart stops
[Producer:]
This love this hate is burning me away!

Killing Strangers
By Marilyn Manson

This world doesn't need no opera
We're here for the operation
We don't need a bigger knife (a bigger knife)
Cause we got guns, we got guns, we got guns (we got guns)
We got guns, you better run
(you better run, you better run, you better run)

We're killing strangers, we're killing strangers
We're killing strangers, so we don't kill the ones that we love
We're killing strangers, we're killing strangers
We're killing strangers, so we don't kill the ones that we love, love, love, love

We pack demolition, we can't pack emotion
Dynamite? We just might...
So blow us a kiss, blow us a kiss
Blow us a kiss, we'll blow you to pieces

We're killing strangers, we're killing strangers
We're killing strangers, so we don't kill the ones that we love
We got guns,
We got guns,

Mother****ers
better, better, better run
We got guns, we got guns
Mother****ers better run
We got guns, we got guns
Mother****ers better, better, better run
We got guns, we got guns
Mother****ers better run

We're killing strangers, we're killing strangers
We're killing strangers, so we don't kill the ones that we love
We're killing strangers, we're killing strangers
We're killing strangers, so we don't kill the ones that we love, love, love, love

You better run!
Cause we got guns! Cause we got guns! We got guns!