What song best describes you and your BPD?

I like K's Choice - Not An Addict for BP, and Nirvana - Lithium for BPD.

DISTURBED LYRICS - mistress

"To stand on the edge of the knife
Cutting through the nightmare from which
I just cannot awaken
Stand on the edge of the night
Living inside a moment
From which I will never awaken

Stand on the brink of my own demise
Fallen again for another
Mistress of burden
To idolize
Hoping that one of them will decide
To let me in

Look at what you've done to me
You've become my enemy
Poisoning the world for me
Take away my everything
Weakened as I am

Never awaken"

AFI "But home is nowhere"

I cannot leave here, I cannot stay,
Forever haunted, more than afraid,
Asphyxiate on words I would say,
I'm drawn to a blackened sky as I turn blue,

There are no flowers, no not this time,
There'll be no angels gracing the lines,
Just these stark words, I find,
I'd show a smile, but I'm too weak,
I'd share with you could I only speak,
Just how much this, hurts me,

I cannot stay here, I cannot leave,
Just like all I loved, I'm make-believe,
Imagined heart, I disappear,
Seems...no one will appear here and make me real,

There are no flowers, no, not this time,
There will be no angels gracing the lines,
Just these stark words I find,
I'd show a smile, but I'm too weak,
I'd share with you could I only speak,
Just how much this hurts me,

I'd tell you how it haunts me,
I'd tell you how it haunts me,
(cuts through my day, and sinks into my dreams)
I'd tell you that it haunts me,
(cuts through my day, and sinks into my dreams)
You don't care that it haunts me,

Oh!
There are no flowers, no, not this time,
There will be no angels gracing the lines,
Just these stark words I find,
I'd show a smile, but I'm too weak,
I'd share with you could I only speak,
Just how much this hurts me,
Just how much this hurts me,
Just how much you...

Creep -by Radiohead

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
And I wish I was special
You're so ****ing special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so ****ing special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out the door
She's running out
She's run, run, run, running out

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so ****ing special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't belong here

Laura,

That's a great song, it reminds me of my ex-husband though cuz he was so upset when I left

My BPD flares up really bad when I'm having relationship issues, that's why I think of this song...



Dancing by Elisa

Time is gonna take my mind
and carry it far away where I can fly
The depth of life will dim the temptation to live for you
If I were to be alone silence would rock my tears
'cause it's all about love and I know better
How life is a waving feather

So I put my arms around you around you
And I know that I'll be leaving soon

My eyes are on you they're on you
And you see that I can't stop shaking
No, I won't step back but I'll look down to hide from your eyes
'cause what I feel is so sweet and I'm scared that even my own breath
Oh could burst it if it were a bubble
And I'd better dream if I have to struggle

So I put my arms around you around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you they're on you
And I hope that you won't hurt me

I'm dancing in the room as if I was in the woods with you
No need for anything but music
Music's the reason why I know time still exists
Time still exists
Time still exists

So I put my arms around you around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you they're on you
And I hope that you won't hurt me
So I put my arms around you around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you they're on you
And I hope that you won't hurt me

white balloons-sick puppies


I'm holding onto white balloons
Up against a sky of doom
Tell me you see them
'Cause what's inside of me is invisible to most
Even in clear view
I'm sending out a signal to the possibility of you
'Cause right at this moment
I know you're connected to a part of me that I don't even know myself

The changes in me
Are likely to be like the weather
Stormy and clear strength into fear bound together

But I'll break my silence
If I believed that you and me could ever be
More than just what's been behind us
I tried and left, they came and went
I got rejected out again
But no one believes me
I've worn a hundred faces
Of the character replacements and now
Nobody sees me

The changes in me
Are likely to be like the weather
Cloudy at best...

Angels lift me
Are you with me?
I'm holding onto you like
I'm holding onto white balloons
Carry me away
I hope that you don't break
Angels lift me
Are you with me?
I'm holding onto you like
I'm holding onto white balloons
Carry me away
I hope that you don't break
I hope that you don't break
Don't break

'Cause what's inside of me is invisible to most
Even in clear view

Breathe Me by Sia or Grey Street by Dave Matthews.

Can You Hear Me by Cindy Morgan


Hey can You hear Me
Are You really out there
Oh I am trapped in the cages
Of the scars I must bear
And I can’t tell and I can’t speak
I can’t even repeat what it is

Hey can You see Me
See these hollowing eyes
Don’t You think something is missing
In My calm peaceful smile
But I can’t tell and I can’t speak
I can’t even repeat what is

Chorus:
Can You hear me
Hear the sound of My pain
Can You hear Me
Hear the words I don’t say

Hey what’s your problem
Can’t you hear what I said
I am here drowning in sorrow
While you sleep on your beds
And I can’t tell and I can’t speak
I can’t even repeat what it is, oh

Bridge: I get down on My knees
And I cry to You
Oh Lord give me all Your strength
Help Me make it through
I reach out to You

Oh can You hear Me, hear Me, yeah

‘Hey can You hear Me’
Someone whispered to Me
‘I understand all Your hurting
How You ache how You bleed
But the scars that You bear
Will one day make the whole world free
Satan is a liar down in the mire
But I can hear You
I hear the sound of Your pain
I can hear You oh yeah
I hear the words You don’t say
I can hear You, hear You
I can hear You, can You hear Me?
Can You hear Me?’

well, thurston moore's psychic hearts is a great song that touches me...not sure if it is bpd, but the girl he is singing about she may have it??

I know you have/you've had a ****ed up life
Growing up in a stupid town
Your mother was a mixed-up chick/chirp
And your father he just ****ed around
A little too much for his own good
I'd kill the bastard if I could
I'd kill all the boys with their ****ed up noise
And all the ******** they seem to enjoy
The kids at school call you slut, nothing but
And what the **** are they into, the/those stupid fools
Loser(s), asshole(s), suck all the luck
Out of the world, the world with you/and you
If I can get/give it back to you I will
And/I'll kick their asses all over town
All over town I'll/I'd turn it over
And I don't even know you that well
(But) what the hell, summer spell

What's it like going out
And/When no one knows what you're about
Abused and used and cut in two/into
The/By hollow man/men with nothing to do

(You) laugh all the time (and) try to get high
And try to hide behind thou lie/no lies

They ****ed your head up, that's for sure
Your heart is ripped now/and wrapped in fur
But you know that sex is pretty insane/pity and insane
And magic seems (fit) to kill the pain
And the things that go on inside your brain
Make(s) you seem to think that you're to blame
Don't think about it, grow/throw it out
Love ah-all/'em all and say it loud
Fight the scum( )bags that slap you around
Scream(,) you're/be crazy, lost and found
We don't have to tell you what is right
We have all the faith it was not right/in what's not right

Sadness is and sadness was
And sadness will always be because
Comfort comes around from the strangest of men

I got no time for sad songs baby
Don't need you to say I'm crazy
Stick your tongue and you look at me
And I will buy it obviously
Push you down onto your knees
Do you laugh away in sleaze

You're not the only girl in town
But you're the only one that's got me down
Psychic hearts go out to you
(A) psychic heart go round/arrives to you

(And) my prayer to you
Is that you do all the things you set out to do
(And) look/live your life the way you love
But will you remember one thing for me
I will always love you
I will always love you

I actually made a "Borderline's Playlist" awhile back and these are the songs I included:

1. Please Don’t Leave Me (Pink)
2. Down on Me (Janis Joplin, Live)
3. I Want You to Need Me (Celine Dion)
4. Rehab (Amy Winehouse)
5. Sour Cherry (The Kills)
6. “F**k You!” (Cee Lo Green)
7. Since I Fell For You (Nancy Wilson)
8. Bette Davis Eyes (Kim Carnes)
9. And I’m Telling You I’m Not Going (Jennifer Holliday)
10. Piece of My Heart (Janis Joplin, Live)
11. She Hates Me (Puddle of Mudd)
12. Be OK (Ingrid Michaelson)
13. Addicted to Love (Florence + The Machine)
14. Only Happen When It Rains (Garbage)
15. Somebody to Love (Glee Cast)

If you would like to listen to any of them, here's a link of the list with audio players under each song title: http://dysfunctionalpsychotherapy.wo...ines-playlist/

@ladymacbeth: I immediately searched out the song "Disturbed" after reading the lyrics you posted. Chill-ing.

Somewhere "over the rainbow"

Blurry - Puddle of Mudd. No idea why though :S

i'm having a bad night so here's another one i thought of:

a better son/daughter, rilo kiley

sometimes in the morning i am petrified and can't move
awake but cannot open my eyes
and the weight is crashing down on my lungs i know i can't breathe
and hope someone will save me this time
and your mother's still calling you insane and high
swearing it's different this time
and you tell her to give in to the demons that possess her
that god never blessed her inside
then you hang up the phone and feel badly for upsetting things
and crawl back to bed to dream of a time
when your heart was open wide and you loved things just because
like the sick and the dying

and sometimes when you're on, you're really ****ing on
and your friends they sing along and they love you
but the lows are so extreme that the good seems ****ing cheap
and it teases you for weeks in its absence
but you'll fight and you'll make it through
you'll fake it if you have to
and you'll show up for work with a smile
you'll be better, you'll be smarter
more grown up and a better daughter
or son and a real good friend

you'll be awake, you'll be alert
you'll be positive though it hurts
and you'll laugh and embrace all your friends
you'll be a real good listener, you'll be honest, you'll be brave
you'll be handsome and you'll be beautiful
you'll be happy

your ship may be coming in
you're weak but not giving in
to the cries and the wails of the valley below
your ship may be coming in
you're weak but not giving in
and you'll fight it
you'll go out fighting all of them

this never fails to make me cry - hell, i'm crying right now just hearing the song in my head as i type!

Good times - finger eleven


Something has stuck in underneath my skin
Eyes all looking in for something within
Somewhere in here

Now everything I say gives this all away
Senses deadened again
Nothing lives today
Not in here

Here in your head

Careful what you’re feeling on the inside
You should try to remember the good times and the high life
Are you feeling alright?

Felt that I belonged
And now I feel that gone
Where it all went wrong
I traced it all along
Back here again

There was something calling me to negativity
Dark covering me
Shrouding every scene I’m cast in


Careful, when you're feeling, out of your mind
You should try to remember
The storm lines, in the spotlight, till you're feeling, all right.

Please answer
I’m calling just to find out
If you could be here for me when I crack
The answer came
I found it buried in the trash there
I saw it stare ...


Nirvana's Lithium as someone already mentioned, and definately Dumb ....also by Nirvana

Skillet - Monster


The secret side of me, I never let you see
I keep it caged but I can't control it
So stay away from me, the beast is ugly
I feel the rage and I just can't hold it

It's scratching on the walls, in the closet, in the halls
It comes awake and I can't control it
Hiding under the bed, in my body, in my head
Why won't somebody come and save me from this, make it end?

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
I must confess that I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster

My secret side I keep hid under lock and key
I keep it caged but I can't control it
'Cause if I let him out he'll tear me up, break me down
Why won't somebody come and save me from this, make it end?

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
I must confess that I feel like a monster

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster

It's hiding in the dark, it's teeth are razor sharp
There's no escape for me, it wants my soul, it wants my heart
No one can hear me scream, maybe it's just a dream
Maybe it's inside of me, stop this monster

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
I must confess that I feel like a monster

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I've gotta lose control, he something radical
I must confess that I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster

No One Lives Forever by Oingo Boingo! I love this band, and this song inspires me to become better.

You worry too much / You make yourself sad
You can't change fate / But don't feel so bad
Enjoy it while you can / It's just like the weather
So quit complaining brother . . . . . . .
No one lives forever!!

Let's have a party there's a full moon in the sky
It's the hour of the wolf and I don't want to die

I'm so happy dancing while the grim reaper
cuts, cuts, cuts
But he can't get me (I'm as)
Clever as can be, and I'm very quick, but don't forget
we've only got so many tricks
No one lives forever!!!

You think you got it rough / What about your darling
doggy?
Ten short years / And he's getting old and groggy
I don't think it's very fair
Cold, chop, low, but it's all relative my friend
No one lives forever!!!
Let's have a party there's a full moon in the sky
It's the hour of the wolf and I
Don't want to die (but) . . .

I'm so happy dancing while the grim reaper
cuts, cuts, cuts
But he can't get me (I'm as)
Clever as can be, and I'm very quick, but don't forget
we've only got so many tricks
No one lives forever!!!

You worry too much / You make yourself sad
You can't change fate / But don't feel so bad
Enjoy it while you can / It's just like the weather
So quit complaining brother . . . . . . .
No one lives forever!!

Let's have a party there's a full moon in the sky
It's the hour of the wolf and I don't want to die

No one beats him at his game
For very long but just the same
Who cares, there's no place safe to hide
Nowhere to run--no time to cry
So celebrate while you still can
'Cause any second it may end.
And when it's all been said and done . . .
Better that you had some fun
Instead of hiding in a shell-Why make your life a living
hell?
So have a toast, and down the cup
And drink to bones that turn to dust ('cause) . . .
No one, no one, no one, no one . . . . . . . (etc.)
No one lives forever!! (Hey!)

Five For Fighting - Superman (It's Not Easy)

Meredith Brooks - Biatch

I know there's more but I can't think.

I don't have the lyrics---has anyone heard "Heartbreak Warfare"?

It basically talks about how we play games in relationships because we are afraid to just "say so".

I often feel like in my relationships I either have to tell people in a roundabout way what I want, make them read my mind or "feel my pain" but not tell them directly.

Or my partner will try to punish me by trying to make me feel bad to "feel his pain".

Billi

Leave Me Alone (I'm Lonely)---Pink

Go away
Give me a chance to miss you
Say goodbye
It'll make me want to kiss you
I love you so
Much more when you're not here
Watchin all the bad shows
Drinking all of my beer

I don't believe Adam and Eve
Spent every ******* day together
If you give me some room there will be room enough for two

Tonight
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely
I'm tired
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely tonight

I don't wanna wake up with another
But I don't wanna always wake up with you either
No you can't hop into my shower
All I ask for is one ***kin' hour
You taste so sweet
But I can't eat the same thing every day
Cuttin off the phone
Leave me the ***k alone
Tomorrow I'll be beggin' you to come home

Tonight
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely
I'm tired
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely tonight

Go away
Come back
Go away
Come back
Why can't I just have it both ways
Go away
Come back
Go away
Come back
I wish you knew the difference
Go away
Come back

Go away
Give me a chance to miss you
Say goodbye
It'll make me want to kiss you
Go away
Give me a chance to miss you
Say goodbye
It'll make me want to kiss you
Go away
Give me a chance to miss you
Say goodbye
It'll make me want to kiss you

Tonight
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely
I'm tired
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely tonight

Tonight
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely
I'm tired
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely tonight

Tonight
Go away
Give me a chance to miss you
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely
Say goodbye
It'll make me want to kiss you
I'm tired
Go away
Give me a chance to miss you
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely
Say goodbye
It'll make me want to kiss you
Tonight
Go away
Give me a chance to miss you
Say goodbye
It'll make me want to kiss you

my skin by natalie merchante

Behind Blue Eyes- Limp Bizkit

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be fated to telling only lies

[Chorus:]
But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like i do, and i blame you!
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through

[Chorus]

Discover l.i.m.p. say it [x4]
No one knows what its like
To be mistreated, to be defeated
Behind blue eyes
No one knows how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies

[Chorus]

No one knows what its like
To be the bad man, to be the sad man
Behind blue eyes.

MERIDITH BROOKS - IM A B I T C H LYRICS

I hate the world today.
You're so good to me,
I know but I can't change.
Tried to tell you,
But you look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath,
Innocent and sweet

Yesterday I cried.
You must have been relieved
To see the softer side,
I can understand how you'd be so confused,
I don't envy you.
I'm a little bit of everything
all rolled into one

[Chorus:]
I'm a b i t c h,
I'm a lover,
I'm a child,
I'm a mother,
I'm a sinner,
I'm a saint,
and I do not feel ashamed.
I'm your hell,
I'm your dream,
I'm nothing in between.
You know you wouldn't want it any other way.

So take me as I am,
This may mean you'll have to be a stronger man.
Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous,
And I'm going to extremes:
Tomorrow I will change,
And today won't mean a thing

[Repeat Chorus]

Just when you think you've got me figured out,
The season's already changin'.
I think it's cool you do what you do
And don't try to save me.

[Repeat Chorus]

I'm a b i t c h,
I'm a tease,
I'm a goddess on my knees.
When you hurt,
When you suffer,
I'm your angel undercover.
I've been numb,
I'm revived,
Can't say I'm not alive,
You know I wouldn't want it any other way.

Lithium by nirvana and suicide hotline by the insane clown posse would be my songs

OMG! I've never heard it before! I'm downloading it now. Thanks!