[Britneigh]

Feeling pretty good. Little anxious but over all positive mood. I've been doing a lot of mindfulness type stuff, trying to keep my anger under control. No self injury in a week hopefully I can keep this happy feeling going.

[Fuzzybear]

anxious and blaming self
had argument with so
why do I suck so much

[AngelWolf3]

totally hating myself today. Feeling discarded, used, and all that fun crap that goes along with the dip in today's rollercoaster ride. Yay me.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by AngelWolf3

totally hating myself today. Feeling discarded, used, and all that fun crap that goes along with the dip in today's rollercoaster ride. Yay me.

I am hating myself today.

[greentires4me]

sings: "I love myself today not like yesterday I am cool I am calm and I gonna dominate this world uh uha...."

I thought it was fitting since it seems like everyone is such a cheery mood of hating themselves today....

I went to the pharmacy I made some calls to potential employers I got an ear full with who I made my potential representatives for my character in the field. I didn't know I would be grilled for the people I choose to represent me to getting a job. I quit the job because they made me decide which job I preferred so I preferred one job and they pushed me out of the company because of that....how school yard is that...or how come when you were on WCB and you lost your job I don't know what to tell them

[BrokenNBeautiful]

****TRIGGER"""""""""



When will this end?

(I am safe; just how I feel right now)

When will I do something right?!

Got an early birthday present in the mail today. It was from an old high school friend whom I've grown close to over Facebook (of all things) and who lives 12 hours away. It's probably the only one I'll get. It made me happy.

[greentires4me]

Originally Posted by BrokenNBeautiful

****TRIGGER"""""""""



When will this end?

(I am safe; just how I feel right now)

When will I do something right?!

your doing something right...right this instance...

[greentires4me]

Originally Posted by misskeena

Got an early birthday present in the mail today. It was from an old high school friend whom I've grown close to over Facebook (of all things) and who lives 12 hours away. It's probably the only one I'll get. It made me happy.

congrats

Originally Posted by greentires4me

congrats

Thank you.

Person in BPD group yesterday got mad for seemingly nothing and said "**** you" to the group leader as she left. My Pdoc is in that group and she made me very suspicious, I feel like she's analyzing everything I say and she's going to find something that looks like a lie and then I will be done for. Going to T in 15 min and suspicious of him too. I think everyone wants me to disappear from PC.

[beautifulfreak]

Morning everyone. It's 11.00AM now and am unfortunately feeling pretty much same as yesterday when I posted here.

Had brief reprieve last night for couple hours and then just the same sea of emotional turmoil again.

Unfortunately, during night I used a destructive coping mechanism to deal with how I was feeling. Was so angry at that time.

Anyway, that's how I am feeling so far today.

Went to T. There's no point in trying anymore.

I'm up and not feeling to bad at the moment. I'm taking my mother-in-law to the drs this morning and have some important errands to run, which is probably good for me since I almost never leave the house anymore. I need to get out. Have a good day everyone!

dog still mia. still upset. she is such a beautiful sweet dog and i feel like such a horrible person for letting her get away or get stolen. the second is very likely. when she first showed up at the shelter before we adopted her, she had bite marks like she was a bait dog, or something. she has a torn ear. but we adopted her right before she was put down. we saved her, and now she's sick and gone and i just hope to God she's not being mistreated...

so i feel really bad right now. there's not much i can do except keep calling the pound. no car and ankle won't let me walk for long periods of time...feeling worthless...

[Shutt3rxbug]

I have lump in my throat from anixety over taking my every thought. First appt tomorrow with new Pdoc and i think thats why im freaking out...ahhh

[Britneigh]

Feeling crappy today. Having issues with scars...they are making me feel insecure...worried that people are judging because if them. I know most don't even notice but I'm still thinking people are not going to talk to me because I'm a freak with scars from cutting herself. No tht I think others are freaks because of it..just myself. But we are going to look at a new pony today, Bold and Heart are for sale and Sully is being rehomed because we have to switch barns. She's quite cute, super cheap. Her name is Zowey. That's my mood. Just merp

[greentires4me]

I laid in bed all day long before I got out of bed at 11 now I am trying anything to waste time before my GP appointment at 1:30 which I was 45mins early to being so now I am sitting here at McDonalds with an expensive smoothie a 3.45$ for a medium

Like I posted I was feeling kind of ambiguous about stuff. I'm excited now, looking at a car tonight and hopefully will strike a deal with him!

Feeling better. I need to stop letting my mind turn nonproblems in to big ones!

[BrokenNBeautiful]

***************READ AT YOUR OWN RISK; MY POSTS ARE OFTEN TRIGGERY****

(I am safe)




one day at a time.

My uncle sent my roommate some information about county mental health services. He has been scared about our situation. Our finances.

I warned my roommate to make it very clear to my uncle that he is not going to act on any bad feelings or thoughts. I don't want Bruce in the mental ward!

His back is bothering him now. He can't work for another while.

We do hope there is some money coming in from a broken deal he went thru last year with a tax helper.

I am hanging in there.

it's time for my fun annual dental apptmt. I hope there is nothing seriously wrong with my teeth now. I still can't believe I went thru 9 root canals and 4 exo's! In 2 years. I will not let my teeth go again. I am not so scared of the dentist now, but I am really afraid of more expenses. We can't do it.

Carol

Well. Today is my birthday, and it's a big one. I thought I would have a tough time with turning 35, but I've been mostly okay. So what if I'm not married, don't have kids, and haven't met the milestones I thought I'd meet by now? Whatever. I had a good day. I worked a 12 hour shift. My coworkers were great to me today. I got a couple packages in the mail I didn't expect. I got lots of well-wishes on Facebook and via email I didn't expect. I'm sitting here having a glass of wine and relaxing and will probably watch some Netflix before going to bed. Later in the week I will celebrate with a friend. All in all, it was a good birthday. I'm happy.

[greentires4me]

went to the doctor today he said my hand isn't broken but made some serious contusion injuries he said going to some physical therapy may do wonders and I said well I like my massage therapist better...so he said okay....

then I went to my Chiropractor that does NSA Network Spinal Anaylsis

after my mom was like don't take this the wrong way but you have a strong body odour...and I was like excuse me...haven't you ever heard if you don't say anything nice keep it to yourself...she was like hun your taking it the wrong way...and I was like no **** I am taking the right way...

[greentires4me]

Originally Posted by misskeena

Well. Today is my birthday, and it's a big one. I thought I would have a tough time with turning 35, but I've been mostly okay. So what if I'm not married, don't have kids, and haven't met the milestones I thought I'd meet by now? Whatever. I had a good day. I worked a 12 hour shift. My coworkers were great to me today. I got a couple packages in the mail I didn't expect. I got lots of well-wishes on Facebook and via email I didn't expect. I'm sitting here having a glass of wine and relaxing and will probably watch some Netflix before going to bed. Later in the week I will celebrate with a friend. All in all, it was a good birthday. I'm happy.

congrats!!! wway to hear that you are having a good one best of many more to come...