4) You know you are Borderline when...

When you read others' posts here and relate well to all the feelings and emotions being expressed, like yep been there and there and there, etc.

You don't trust your new doctor.

I'm not sure... is all this really boarderline? I thought it was just me having an up and down day that lasted a life time! Never sticking to anything as I feel so inadequate that I stop doing the project or what ever it is that is in front of me, and then feel so guilty that I cannot complete it. I always told my self that I was a failure so why do I keep trying, or get so wrapped up in it that it becomes a chore instead of fun so I quit.

You get immobilized by your thoughts and end up sitting for minutes (or hours) not doing anything but thinking your weird/bad thoughts.

You were feeling worried and distressed this afternoon, circling the drain, threatening to fall into all-out depression over life and the stuff going on in it, and now you're relaxed and feeling okay this evening. All because the Tigers beat the Yankees and you had fun watching the game.

My life is still cray, but I feel better because of a baseball game, people. Oy.

When you post something meaningful (to you), and no one replies with at least hugs, to your post = you become instantly deflated, hopeless, lonely, and suicidal thoughts instantly take over your thoughts.

Yep...happened just the other day.

I hate when this happens, Hurts badly

When you're crazy.

When you feel like, "I'm not mentally ill, I simply am an emotional person and have empathy for everyone and everything, and life is just a roller coaster ride. I'm just more sensetive then others. Right?"

When you think you fit in one moment, and then then the next you think everyone is probably just tolerating you.

When you tell youself that you can stand on your own and be independent while starting to cling to someone at the same time.

Yes I so get this.

.....when everyone in your family thinks you're either "more aware" than other people, or just a total crazy, hot-tempered nutjob that they need to pity and make excuses for.

when your guy friend fancies someone else and you just want to rip out his heart and stomp on it a few times...to make it feel like it does for you

I have been reading this site now for nearly 16hrs. I thought I was just dealing with depression, but after reading what other peoples symptoms are and what symptoms to look out for, I looked more into BDP. Then after reading more into BPD I realized that it can't be that as I have mood swings at the drop of the hat, with no "set" time frame, either days weeks or months, usually I have several a day.

I know I shouldn't self-diagnose, I am trying to get an appointment with a Psychiatrist, but I know that there is something wrong and I have some of the same traits/symptoms of BPD, which a very close friend suffers from, but on a more frequent turn around. Today for example, I have been fluctuating between between depressed and not depressed 5 times that I can count. Yet I haven't had a manic or high, yet I can relate to almost all of the post's in the forum.

I'm confused!?!

Many of us were self-diagnosed before it was official. Don't completely discount what you think. My suggestion is to continue to do your research and to talk to us. Think of it this way: therapists come up with their diagnosis through observation, and don't we know ourselves better than they? Continue to research and talk to us. If you seem at home, you probably are. That doesn't mean to not make it official, but you can starting learning and working on yourself NOW. Welcome!

I'm am just recently self diagnosed, but what I'd say is:

When someone is your friend for many years, and they've done so much for you...but then they forget a smallest things (they are just human), and you feel like the whole world makes no sense because you would do anything for them, and yet they can't do such a small things... and if the world is like that it's not worth living in...

When, during one of your evening periods of loneliness and desperation, you contact someone and leave a message, but by the time they contact you back you barely remember why you contacted them in the first place.

Yep happens ALOT! lol

You still can't take criticism (esp criticism that catches you off balance) even if it's not the end of the world. You think you are the worst person on earth cause you can't do something perfectly or please everyone.

When you're in a good mood when something happens that you know is not your fault causes you to crash and burn.

When your terrified your girlfriend is going to leave because you are so unstable...

When things start to look up in your life and all you can do is worry about how you're going to mess it up anyway.

I can relate to these to SOOOOO much!!! Especially after last nights debacle of an attempt to be honest and open.