4) You know you are Borderline when...

when your best friend reads BPD traits and goes "oh my gosh" I think that is me

You have a long line of failed relationships, each of which leaves you with an indelible scar that never really heals.

You still feel and act like an effin 2 year old when things don't go your way.

me, too......

When a friend passes you on her bike and doesn't wave or say hello and you think that you must look so huge in the jeans you are wearing that she didn't recognize you. Then when you catch her up and she says she didn't think it was you because it didn't look like you, you are even more convinced

When someone doesn't respond to your text immediately and you think they're doing it on purpose to hurt you.

Ha! Been there.

Yep I do this way too much.

more hair-trigger rage.

so me.... just talked to T about anger management today

when my husband doesn't call me from work right when he get's there, I think he got distracted by having sex before work.

It's never enough. Nothing. No amount of reassurance, validation, affection, time, will ever fill that dark void at our core. We just take and take and take from our partners. The void never fills up. IT's an emotional black hole.

When the dark days/times and the times that look okay feel so different that they don't even seem connected; it's almost as though you have several different people running around inside your head.

Yep. For me this got so bad that I was almost diagnosed with DID coconcious.

I can disassociate bad, particularly when I get really upset. It's my mind's way of coping and I often cannot control it...but that's also a part of BPD. Gotta love it!

When your coworkers are complaining something smells and you worry that it's you that smells...

When you even feel ignored and hated on PC.

Your husband rushes out the door without really saying goodbye because he's running late for work and then calls a few minutes later and you rush to get the phone just to find out he wanted to talk to his mother, who's visiting, and the whole episode makes you feel unwanted and abandoned even though you've married for forever.

The slightest mistake on the part of someone close to you evokes a deep, resonating sense of betrayal, that you mat take ages to get over.

you get very angry and frustrated and then very sad when filling out an employment application.

You again catch yourself raging or whining at someone and they catch you and tell you that it's not a good time to talk to you. UGH. So embarrassing.

You feel like you've made a real breakthough in getting better and feel inspired and know you can do it...but the feeling doesn't last more than a few hours and then you're back at step 1 again...

When you feel like everyone hates you...no matter how many times they say they don't.

you question if you are borderline or not and think "no I'm just stupid and make huge mistakes repeatedly" then you realize that this too is part of being bpd.