4) You know you are Borderline when...

When you're sure that the word "unstable" was invented for people like you.

when your in denial about your husband and even though he says things like"when you keep kicking an old dog in the teeth and they keep taking it, you keep kicking them."I take it personally meaning I know what's going on but I continue to be there. bittersweet.

You just don't know how to connect with these happy well adjusted types but you are envious and fascinated by them just the same.

Knowing that you can take steps to reclaim your life but resenting that you can never go back in time and reclaim what was lost.

omg that's so me.

Storm from X-Men! I so want to be her!

You know you are Borderline when you constantly second guess whether your own intentions are pure or not.

When you have to be away from someone you love for awhile and that aching hollow/empty feeling sets in immediately.

... you cry watching the Cars movie.

When u have a wardrobe for every possible scenerio, yet u don't have any place to go or people to c.

when you have a job interview and you think it went really well and you're so excited about it and then they don't email you back the next day so you think you must have bombed it and you will never trust your gut again.

I understand this perfectly. I have a ton of clothes for all different things, but I always end up wearing either scrubs (to work) or the same pair of jeans and rotating the same three shirts because I really only go to either the pharmacy, grocery store, or to my pdoc/T's office.

1) When i screwed up relationship because i'm afraid people will leave me.
2) when i'm holding a tear when people say "NO" to me.

... you can't wait for a certain person to visit and then when they get to your place you start counting down to when they will get out of your space and leave.....
... find something personal about someone else's mood changes (what did I do/say)

Yup that me also and I am not BPD.

Yup this is me also. I want people to come over but when they are here I feel crowded, territorial and I need to decompress.

Amen to that!

Do you mean beneficial to the other person or to you? I do not seem to do anything for anyone unless somehow it will benefit me in the long run or give me kudo points.

When you wake up in a decent mood and, by the end of the day, are sitting on your couch crying and thinking dark thoughts.

these are all so me

When a news story about someone with a condition similar to yours doing something terrible must mean that you're either just as bad or worse.

When someone starts to complain and says that life is harsh and their life is getting miserable and they are under so stress and depressed doesn't change your feelings but pisses you off.

Because you think that they are exaggerating over things while they have a good life, just because they didn't experience your daily unstable life.

When the first thought you have upon waking every morning is a horrible flashback of something you did or said like you need reminding...

When you want people to be understanding of you, and make exceptions for you, but when they do, you get mad because you want to be treated "like a normal person," and like "everybody else."

...when you feel like people only "see" or "understand" your disability when it benefits them--like when they want to take advantage of you or turn you against someone....

This! My journals about jealousy keep me angry for hours.