Just canceled a date I was supposed to go on tonight because I am too anxious to go (it was a first date so I'll never get to actually meet this guy, unfortunately). This anxiety is just getting to be too much; I can't live my life around it.

Originally Posted by misskeena

Just canceled a date I was supposed to go on tonight because I am too anxious to go (it was a first date so I'll never get to actually meet this guy, unfortunately). This anxiety is just getting to be too much; I can't live my life around it.

Is it anxiety about the date or just general?

Originally Posted by s4ndm4n2006

Is it anxiety about the date or just general?

I'd say it's both, but I think it's mainly general. It's pretty pervasive, and much of the time I don't even know what's causing it. I'm anxious about damn near everything these days.

Originally Posted by misskeena

I'd say it's both, but I think it's mainly general. It's pretty pervasive, and much of the time I don't even know what's causing it. I'm anxious about damn near everything these days.

:/ I'm sorry to hear that. I know how that feels even though I don't have anxiety most of the time, when it hits I know how disruptive it can be.

Originally Posted by misskeena

I'd say it's both, but I think it's mainly general. It's pretty pervasive, and much of the time I don't even know what's causing it. I'm anxious about damn near everything these days.

The good thing I can say about it is that I don't have much of an appetite when I'm anxious, and I'm trying to lose weight as it is. I've lost 22lbs since February so...thanks anxiety for making me not want to eat so much. (I'm mostly being facetious. Mostly.)

Originally Posted by misskeena

The good thing I can say about it is that I don't have much of an appetite when I'm anxious, and I'm trying to lose weight as it is. I've lost 22lbs since February so...thanks anxiety for making me not want to eat so much. (I'm mostly being facetious. Mostly.)

hehe, facetious huh? it's ok it's a good thing to see the good in everything, even in adversity good things can result. Great perspective actually.

Originally Posted by s4ndm4n2006

hehe, facetious huh? it's ok it's a good thing to see the good in everything, even in adversity good things can result. Great perspective actually.

I'm trying to have some sort of decent perspective, here. Other than just feeling like this will never end.

[UnderTheRose]

was super excited to help a guy with his website, and now that I've started on it I dont want to work on it. Dropped out of my class I was taking yesterday because I was 4 assignments behind and for the life of me could NOT read the book we were using. I have no ability to read anymore. Slept past my alarm for the first time in a long time and as a result my 5 year old didnt go to kindergarten. Having a very off day.

[greentires4me]

I overdosed last night I puked up my guts in a pail they were black...it was gross...woke up this morning by nurses telling me to get up out of bed but I was like I have to go to the bathroom so nurse yanked all the cords off my body owe...and I had to wait in line to go...I went back to sleep the other nurse wakes me up and says its time for breaky so i eat a crumpet that had resemblance of cardboard then they released me...
meanwhile I went to 7/11 and got myself a slurpee my my bloody IV band aid falls off and I am like for the price of tea in china.

I just don't care everything is falling apart. my allgeries are at an all time high today so bloowing my nose scratchie eyes I feel like ****. And I told my mom I would go out with her today to NSA oh joy....

It depresses me when I see some people who can write paragraphs and paragraphs describing themselves and I'm struggling to write just a few sentences.

Fuming that yet another online website has been blocked at work. >.< It's ridiculous, anything related to outside resources or is remotely social gets blocked. I mean they expect people to work 8 hours a day sitting in their cubicle without any connections at all. Oh surprisingly gmail still works but they've been known to block that at times too. And yeah. I'm loving it here.

[kala83]

this week has been pretty much same as usual I am trying really, hard not to let my emotional self lead me around by my coat tails of things.

mostly having to do with the personal life I am trying really hard not to be overly flirtatious and sexual.

Which is highly common for me but there is a lot of self disgust with myself over it none the less.

this stuff seems to feed in a lil bit to my depression as well, since it almost ends up with me feeling really lowly and angry at myself for acting in such a way.

[greentires4me]

I have come to the conclusion I need a job but every job I apply for I get turned down for....

somewhere I can call home and not be kicked off the next bus home....

[UnderTheRose]

ate too much, yelled too much. On the plus side, bloodwork all came back good, so Dr can put me on the more liver damaging drugs if we decide to go that route.

Really, really angry today.

I've had a really rough day switching from high's back down to low's and a lot of anger though it hasn't been rage which is good as yesterday and Monday I was full of rage and that wasn't fun for anyone. : ( I am planning on seeing a different counselor beginning Friday so fingers crossed this works out. I've been switching back and fourth with counselors trying to find a good match and I really dislike having to tell my story over and over again. Ahhh!

[greentires4me]

I am feeling really depressed and anxious at the same time

[greentires4me]

today its hot in my apartment I have both fans going trying to cool it off...

I showered early now I feel bored as I ever will be...

[Luvmydog]

I'm not feeling anything today, just nothing.

I'm here, happy it's Friday.. working, whiling away the hours til I go home and get started on my weekend. Kind of edgy today but not unmanagably so. Hope everyone has a good weekend.

Feeling good today. Looking forward to tomorrow; going to hang out with my good guy friend at a local festival and then maybe go out in the evening as well. Haven't felt much anxiety the last few days which is excellent. It's like a vacation from myself... I'm hoping it stays away.

[UnderTheRose]

irritable and agitated all day. One minute hugging the kids, the next wanting to explode because there is pencil crayons all over the house. Every single thing set me off today, good AND bad. But couldnt get a thing done.

[Luvmydog]

Rough day yesterday, tried not to feel anything. Didn't work. Looks like another rough one today.

[UnderTheRose]

gah!
I work at the church doing janitorial and bulletins etc and was not told about a funeral happening today at 2pm. Not a biggie, I normally go in at noon and clean for an hour or so and then leave. But when there is a funeral i need to be there way in advance, set up and stay til its done and clean BUt ive got the whole freaking family coming for an early father's day dinner today, and i'm going mental trying to get my own house clean and ready. I literally freak out whenever I'm preparing for people come over and having a whole bunch is even worse. And now i find out im supposed to be at work instead? *sighs*

[shortandcute]