bad day please help

Hi,

I had a really bad day. All I could hear was that I wasn't good enough to do anything in my life by so many people. The pain was too much for me today so I took a razor and cut my face up. Now I have to see my nurse tomorrow and I am still not doing any better.

Why were people saying this? You shouldn't cut yourself! Do you have a therapist that you can talk to?

I see my nurse tomorrow.

I don't know why people said this to me. I heard it my entire childhood and then I heard again a few months ago and it really hurt.

Sorry you had a bad day

You said that's all you could hear but did anyone actually use those words? Sorry you feel this way whatever the case

thank you allme. Yes I have had all of those words used and some recently too. I wanted to be a pilot when I was a teenager and everytime I talked about it my Father told me I wasn't smart enough to be a pilot. I am been told I am not good enough, you won't make anything of your life, you are not responsible enough to be a therapist or psychiatrist by my own psychiatrist.

Hope you're feeling better

Feel better, Dare

thank you I am better today. How are you?

I'm really sorry. I understand, recently I bruised my face up pretty bad. I haven't cut in years, but started self hitting when I was 19 and at nearly 23 it's still something I struggle through. Thinking up lame excuses like "I got in a fist fight. Yeah I may have these bruises, but you should see the other girl's face." to cover my shame has really gotten old.
I do it because I'm so hurt, angry, disappointed, ETC. My feelings overwhelm me. I've been told that I'm being manipulative, but I'm not. I simply can't express my frustration any other way without hurting someone or breaking something.

Good It seems..I am also doing better today! Thank God for mood swings of the upper

Oh I hear you all the way. I also break things too and throw things or punch the wall. I always take it out on myself. The pain and hurt and disappointment is too much some times.

I try my hardest not to break stuff, cuz that usually leads to further meltdowns on my part.
but self hitting, biting, ETC are the unhealthy ways in which I come when I am overwhelmed. and I think I do it more lately cuz I'm clean. I can't drink my sorrows away.
It's nice to know I'm not alone.

Dare it breaks my heart to hear how sad you are........ . just know I am here for you as well as others , we care about you....... I have learned in life there are just people that are mean and hurtful out there to others and I just cant be around them or if I am I call them out on treating or saying hurtful things to me..........your in my prayers..... be well