[Brandon_Empty]

I can't stop feeling so alone and worthless. I feel like I'm a plague or something. No matter how hard I try, nobody ever stays in my life. I wish I could make new friends who would stick around. I feel like I'm completely boring and uninteresting and nobody wants to give me a fair chance to even become a friend. Even among other borderlines, I can't help but to feel alone and on an island all by myself. I know I can't control the way other people feel about me but that doesn't stop me from feeling so lonely and worthless. This is a low, empty feeling and sadly, I feel like I can't do anything to change it.

[lynn808]

Originally Posted by Brandon_Empty

I can't stop feeling so alone and worthless. I feel like I'm a plague or something. No matter how hard I try, nobody ever stays in my life. I wish I could make new friends who would stick around. I feel like I'm completely boring and uninteresting and nobody wants to give me a fair chance to even become a friend. Even among other borderlines, I can't help but to feel alone and on an island all by myself. I know I can't control the way other people feel about me but that doesn't stop me from feeling so lonely and worthless. This is a low, empty feeling and sadly, I feel like I can't do anything to change it.

Hey Brandon,
I also fight daily with feelings of worthlessness and being hopeless. I even feel like people stop posting when I sign on... Friends??? I haven't had a friend in years and know that I am a burden to anyone that even knows me.... please know that you are not alone....reach out and message me...or private message me anytime...I will chat with you.... we can even call if you want to exchange numbers...ever.....this feeling although it will come...will also pass.... I can promise you that.....take care of yourself and hope to chat soon!!!!!

[shezbut]

I don't know if we all struggle with feelings like these or if we're merely a section of the BPD family, but I feel as though you read my thoughts. I struggle with these same thoughts and emotions all of the time! I try very hard ~ and always have...yet I have nothing to show for my efforts.

Other people that I've known barely give a thing of themselves and yet have more friends than they can handle! It feels cruel to me ~ yes, literally. C-R-U-E-L!! I have been the most understanding and supportive person that I've ever met in my life...ever!! Yet, I continue to be unable to make friends. I don't get it!

I'm not difficult at all. I'm very understanding and accepting of others ~ and I seem to keep my eye out to help those who may need someone to stand up for them. Yet, I have always struggled. After a good 30+ years, it's probably safe to say that I always will struggle to make friends despite my best efforts.

[Brandon_Empty]

Originally Posted by shezbut

I don't know if we all struggle with feelings like these or if we're merely a section of the BPD family, but I feel as though you read my thoughts. I struggle with these same thoughts and emotions all of the time! I try very hard ~ and always have...yet I have nothing to show for my efforts.

Other people that I've known barely give a thing of themselves and yet have more friends than they can handle! It feels cruel to me ~ yes, literally. C-R-U-E-L!! I have been the most understanding and supportive person that I've ever met in my life...ever!! Yet, I continue to be unable to make friends. I don't get it!

I'm not difficult at all. I'm very understanding and accepting of others ~ and I seem to keep my eye out to help those who may need someone to stand up for them. Yet, I have always struggled. After a good 30+ years, it's probably safe to say that I always will struggle to make friends despite my best efforts.

I feel the same! It seems for those who barely make any effort, everyone wants to be their friend. It doesn't make any sense to me either. You sound like a supportive and genuinely good person to me. If you ever need a friend to be here to listen, I will be here if you'd like. I'll never understand why the world works the way it does, but all I want is to make some true, sincere friendships that will last. I'm tired of feeling so alone and not having anyone in my life to be here when I need them most. Thanks for replying, and I hope all is well for you right now

[foreverlonely]

I am sorry you feel this way.

I am feeling like everyone who has commented on your post. My therapist says being friends obviously is a two way street. I say to my therapist that I am a good friend and no one wants to take the friendship further. But therapist says that I am probably a good friend, loyal, kind etc but that I may not let the other person in fact get close to me emotionally . I must put up walls and stops that I do not realize and that the other person feels even though I am kind. hugs

[Fuzzybear]

I feel the same!

Originally Posted by shezbut

I don't know if we all struggle with feelings like these or if we're merely a section of the BPD family, but I feel as though you read my thoughts. I struggle with these same thoughts and emotions all of the time! I try very hard ~ and always have...yet I have nothing to show for my efforts.

Other people that I've known barely give a thing of themselves and yet have more friends than they can handle! It feels cruel to me ~ yes, literally. C-R-U-E-L!! I have been the most understanding and supportive person that I've ever met in my life...ever!! Yet, I continue to be unable to make friends. I don't get it!

I'm not difficult at all. I'm very understanding and accepting of others ~ and I seem to keep my eye out to help those who may need someone to stand up for them. Yet, I have always struggled. After a good 30+ years, it's probably safe to say that I always will struggle to make friends despite my best efforts.

[Brandon_Empty]

Originally Posted by foreverlonely

I am sorry you feel this way.

I am feeling like everyone who has commented on your post. My therapist says being friends obviously is a two way street. I say to my therapist that I am a good friend and no one wants to take the friendship further. But therapist says that I am probably a good friend, loyal, kind etc but that I may not let the other person in fact get close to me emotionally . I must put up walls and stops that I do not realize and that the other person feels even though I am kind. hugs

I've been told its a two way street as well. I really do make the effort but its like I'm not good enough to even be given a chance by anyone. It leaves me feeling lost and confused. Sometimes we all put up walls. It's a part of our nature I suppose. But whatever happened to others trying hard to get past the walls to see whats on the other side? Its as if nobody will even try to get to know someone else these days. Thank you for replying to my post and if you ever need a friend, I'd be more than happy to be here to listen at anytime. *Hugs*

[likewater]

I feel like this with a twist. I feel loved and valued and accepted by my befriend when I'm able to work but I have a lot of health and emotional and physical issues like anemia and arthritis and low immune. System. And just had major surgery on October. I feel like he could care less about me when I can't
work. So I feel like a winner when I'm working and like a loser and non-person when I'm not.

[technigal]

Originally Posted by Brandon_Empty

I've been told its a two way street as well. I really do make the effort but its like I'm not good enough to even be given a chance by anyone. It leaves me feeling lost and confused. Sometimes we all put up walls. It's a part of our nature I suppose. But whatever happened to others trying hard to get past the walls to see whats on the other side? Its as if nobody will even try to get to know someone else these days. Thank you for replying to my post and if you ever need a friend, I'd be more than happy to be here to listen at anytime. *Hugs*

I have found that since things like facebook and texting have become popular that relationships/friendships have changed for the worse. I find that people don't really talk to each other or get to know each other except very shallowly. I have acquaintances not friends.

[kala83]

I used to have bigger issues with this then I do right now, I do have friends in my life that I know care for me and sometimes I don't really understand why they still keep me around. I get on their nerves a lot and I know they do the same to me....

I will constantly tell them aloud I don't feel I deserve friends in my life, but I am lucky that they do stick around as my friends. Seeing is how meeting and making new friends is not an easy thing for me to do at all.

[foreverlonely]

Originally Posted by Brandon_Empty

I've been told its a two way street as well. I really do make the effort but its like I'm not good enough to even be given a chance by anyone. It leaves me feeling lost and confused. Sometimes we all put up walls. It's a part of our nature I suppose. But whatever happened to others trying hard to get past the walls to see whats on the other side? Its as if nobody will even try to get to know someone else these days. Thank you for replying to my post and if you ever need a friend, I'd be more than happy to be here to listen at anytime. *Hugs*

I know how you mean that we feel not good enough. Maybe it is a lack of confidence. I don't know I find it strange also. Maybe others have so many friends but don't feel close or loyal to all their friends. As a funny story I even had a female friend text me last year not to text her again as she has given up on me and tried her best with me to be my friend. I don't feel wholly responsible for this as she is a bit off but it was a strange feeling to have another adult say that to me. I think I did not get too close to her as I had my doubts about her. She was frustrated with my hesitance to open up
Maybe we think too much and not just go for it. I know that is my problem. I am too cautious.

thanks for kind words and I propose the same to you

[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by Brandon_Empty

I can't stop feeling so alone and worthless. I feel like I'm a plague or something. No matter how hard I try, nobody ever stays in my life. I wish I could make new friends who would stick around. I feel like I'm completely boring and uninteresting and nobody wants to give me a fair chance to even become a friend. Even among other borderlines, I can't help but to feel alone and on an island all by myself. I know I can't control the way other people feel about me but that doesn't stop me from feeling so lonely and worthless. This is a low, empty feeling and sadly, I feel like I can't do anything to change it.

I know that feeling darling! Even though many people
throughout my life have tried to build me up (& I love them for it!)
have tried to convince me that I was "beautiful" or sweet or some
Other B.S. , NO ONE can make me believe it!! I no me better than
Anyone & I have mirrors ! So I know how you feel . If you want to talk you
can find me. Love the name Brandon by the way!!

[Brandon_Empty]

Originally Posted by Alone & confused

I know that feeling darling! Even though many people
throughout my life have tried to build me up (& I love them for it!)
have tried to convince me that I was "beautiful" or sweet or some
Other B.S. , NO ONE can make me believe it!! I no me better than
Anyone & I have mirrors ! So I know how you feel . If you want to talk you
can find me. Love the name Brandon by the way!!

Aw, thank you so much for saying that I do the same thing to myself. My psychiatrist is always telling me that I make myself my own worst enemy. I do appreciate when people have something nice to say about me. Even if its something I can't see myself, it still means a lot to me. No B.S. here, but you do seem like a really sweet, caring person and unfortunately there aren't many people like that left in the world these days. I'm right here too if you ever wanna talk. I hope you're feeling well today

[Brandon_Empty]

Originally Posted by foreverlonely

I know how you mean that we feel not good enough. Maybe it is a lack of confidence. I don't know I find it strange also. Maybe others have so many friends but don't feel close or loyal to all their friends. As a funny story I even had a female friend text me last year not to text her again as she has given up on me and tried her best with me to be my friend. I don't feel wholly responsible for this as she is a bit off but it was a strange feeling to have another adult say that to me. I think I did not get too close to her as I had my doubts about her. She was frustrated with my hesitance to open up
Maybe we think too much and not just go for it. I know that is my problem. I am too cautious.

thanks for kind words and I propose the same to you

I know all too well about having a lack of confidence. I think its one of my biggest downfalls. That's an awful thing to do what she did to you. You shouldn't feel responsible at all. Its not easy to open up and people shouldn't hold that against you. It isn't fair to you for them to do that. If someone wants to be a true friend, they will stick around and try to prove themselves worthy of being trusted in my opinion. I'm sorry that happened to you though. It really wasn't your fault. I do over think things way too much. We definitely have that in common. Anyway, here's wishing you a great day today

[Alone & confused]

You are sweet for saying that! Thank you! I hope you know I mean it! Find me anytime you need to talk!

[bpdtransformation]

Brandon,
Do you have hobbies you like to do, like a sport, or drawing, or music? If so, being in groups for those was a safe way I found to make friends back when I was very shy and awkward. Today, I go to Meetup groups (message me if you need a link) for different hobbies I'm interested in. There are so many of them in my city that it's not hard to meet people.