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#676
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Crashing...yet again. the 2 days of happiness were nice...I just get so mad..how can I feel like **** when everything is good? I just get so angry with myself
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Why go out and see the world on fire Don't let your mindset become what controls you Speak right now and make the choice to grow |
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#677
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I think I finally made it through my most recent crisis. I'm bruised and bloody (literally), but I made it out alive.
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#678
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sounds like a great idea i second the emotion!
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I have learned that i and i alone am responsible for my happiness, most people these days are as reliable as wet toilet paper! ![]() ![]() |
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#679
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don't worry, im drinking for you and me! LOL!
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I have learned that i and i alone am responsible for my happiness, most people these days are as reliable as wet toilet paper! ![]() ![]() |
#680
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I am SO tired of dealing with my romantic world and mind ~ I am all confused, worried, and scared. Pathetic!!
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"Only in the darkness can you see the stars." - Martin Luther King Jr. "Forgive others not because they deserve forgiveness but because you deserve peace." - Author Unkown |
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#681
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had my first night - last night and this day and until so far of happiness. a bit euphoric at the beginning, but calming down then not sleeping, then blacking out for about 2 times due to lack of sleep - even had the ole' migraine back - for about 14 hours combined. guess i'll see the sun rise today again.
wait, i still didn't open my windows in this month and a third yet, so no sun, i guess. edit: went also on a binge looking for rolling stones vinyl rips, especially the us versions electronically reprocessed from mono to stereo, since these aren't available anymore on cd. |
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#682
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Too many rum and cokes last night, which lead me to be one big emotional mess. I think I pretty much scared him off and it's over.
Honestly, why do I sabotage a good thing? I feel so depressed, embarrassed, and angry at myself. I open up to people who I know who won't give a **** too easily |
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#683
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Just want to feel better for the weekend - I want OUT of this house
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#684
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i'm kinda uneasy now. not negative, but just uneasy; wanting to talk to someone. glad somebody gave me a hug. waiting for my only friend to quit playing guitar so we can't talk again. too tense to mess in the blog/website.
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"Did you ever wake up to find A day That broke up your mind Destroyed your notion of circular time? It's just that demon life that got you in its' sway..."
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#685
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I finally slept well after a week of wonky sleep patterns. I just ate buttered toast and grape jelly. My refrigerator is acting weird and I really, really don't want to call the landlord or deal with the hillbilly handyman.
Resisting all urges to put on the ultimate charm, go out tonight, and find someone to make mine tonight. Sigh... it sounds so horrible when I write it out. I really should do something constructive instead. I hope the rest of you have a terrific day and an awesome weekend and if you're in the U.S. a happy holiday! |
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#686
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Happy 4th of July everyone!!!! I'm wishing everyone well....happy fireworks and all....though at the moment I see that it's raining
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#687
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Sorry it's raining there. It's 86 degrees at 10:40pm here and all of my neighbors are going nuts with their fireworks. I'm inside with the air conditioning just listening to them. Hope you have a fun and safe holiday!
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"I urge you to please notice when you are happy, and exclaim or murmur or think at some point, 'If this isn't nice, I don't know what is.'" --Kurt Vonnegut's "Good Uncle" Alex "the schoolyard was a horror show: the bullies, the dragons, the freaks" --Charles Bukowski (opening line in "the schoolyard of forever") Last edited by Dewbot; Jul 04, 2014 at 09:38 PM. Reason: Apparently I don't know how to weather. |
#688
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Protected my kitty from the evil fireworks outside, and now going to do stuff today... out in the world!
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#689
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I'm feeling so strong and happy for the first time in such a long time
![]() I picked up my new horse today and she's just perfect. I don't think I could have found a better horse. I'm feeling happy and excited for the future for the first time in SO long.
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Life's so dark when every day is a struggle
Why go out and see the world on fire Don't let your mindset become what controls you Speak right now and make the choice to grow |
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#690
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Thanks for letting us know, Britneigh!
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#691
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It was a long, exhausting day.
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#692
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I feel a great distance from my H.
>>>Sent by me from me.
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...In the darkness I will meet my creators And they will all agree, that I’m a suffocator
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#693
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#694
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Lost, adrift on an endless sea of pain and hopelessness. Unsure about going on like this much longer.
Depression, ADD, BPD. My relentless enemies. So tired of being invisible even to myself. |
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#695
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Eveeeeryone is sleeeeping. So should I. Night.
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Wifey, artist, daydreamer. |
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#697
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i am an emotional wreck right now, i hate feeling this way...i wish it would stop.
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I have learned that i and i alone am responsible for my happiness, most people these days are as reliable as wet toilet paper! ![]() ![]() |
#698
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Trying
I am right there with ya hon. Do you feel like your fingers should be bleeding because you are holding on right now with your last bit of strength? I gathered up all kinds of pictures of my kids and grandkids. I am trying to hold on to them until this nightmare subsides. And my dog knows I'm a wreck so bless him he is being my shadow. I can't leave him Do you have something to hold on to that will get you through this for a little bit? |
#699
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White knuckle ride is way to describe my day today
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I have learned that i and i alone am responsible for my happiness, most people these days are as reliable as wet toilet paper! ![]() ![]() |
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