[Gus1234U]

it was a lot cooler outside today and the cooler weather did wonders for my pain

(well maybe not wonders), but made it a whole lot better

[Wild Coyote]

I don't think anyone around me, in real life, understands how hard I am trying.
Love to All.

WC

I was about to post that the cool weather was still treating me " cool",

when I went to pick something up and almost toppled over

so

guess my original comment still stands though

feeling okay

[lizardlady]

I've been using the CBD oil twice a day for almost a week now.It's not doing jack. Still hurt. Still exhausted.

[lizardlady]

I've been off work the last week on "vacation." Back to work tomorrow. I am soooo not mentally ready to go back. I enjoy my job (most days), but am just flat worn out.

I spent the time I had off this summer cleaning out my house and prepping Mom's to go on the market. My place is still a disaster because I didn't finish clearing stuff out before I started hauling stuff home from Mom's. A few days ago I felt good about what I accomplished at both places. Today all I can see is what still needs to be done. I know once I go back to work nothing more is going to get done because I'll be too worn out to do anything. Feeling overwhelmed and depressed today.

[Gus1234U]

i find your energy and stamina to be amazing, Liz!!

[lizardlady]

Originally Posted by Gus1234U

i find your energy and stamina to be amazing, Liz!!

It's weird. Y'all keep telling me about how much energy I have when I feel like a lazy slug.

[Candy1955]

I went to Cheeze and Whine, but I just couldn't make light. That's a great thread but everything I feel, physically and emotionally, has made me heartsick, like heartbreak and grief. Someone hinted on another thread that I might be a plant, like a hidden moderator or a pdoc or student. I laughed. I sure wish I was lying. I am lost tonight. Good thing there are no goodies in the house.

[Gus1234U]

Originally Posted by Candy1955

I went to Cheeze and Whine, but I just couldn't make light. That's a great thread but everything I feel, physically and emotionally, has made me heartsick, like heartbreak and grief. Someone hinted on another thread that I might be a plant, like a hidden moderator or a pdoc or student. I laughed. I sure wish I was lying. I am lost tonight. Good thing there are no goodies in the house.

hey candy,

feel free to start your own thread here to vent away.

I'm sure the rest of us wouldn't mind (I know I don't)

to clarify

if you don't feel you can make sense of stuff in the cheeze and wine thread, you have your own topic to vent in.

actually I've been thinking more and more about doing that myself

sort of like a psychcentral journal, without the journal part lol

and because vortex girl always has a lot to say

lol

[possum220]

Apologies for breaking into this thread. Has anybody heard from Jan? I am worried about her and Belle. I normally would have heard from Jan by now. They seem to have fallen off the face of the earth.

Originally Posted by possum220

Apologies for breaking into this thread. Has anybody heard from Jan? I am worried about her and Belle. I normally would have heard from Jan by now. They seem to have fallen off the face of the earth.

sorry... I can't help you.

not heard from her either- but like you I hope she's okay

[Gus1234U]

sadly, i have not heard from her in almost a week~! this is very unsettling~ thanks for asking, Possum~!

[Gus1234U]

an Hibiscus~!

good news, i heard from Jan, and she is just vegetating, like me~
(i still worry)

glad you heard from her and she is okay

that's great..

[possum220]

The heat is very draining. Thanks for letting us know about Jan Gus. Still worried. Hope yall can find a cool place for a break.

[Gus1234U]

wow, possum~! what a stunning pic~!

i might be MIA tomorrow, i moved a bunch of heavy boxes today, stretching and bending and twisting,,, no getting around it,,, but i know i'll pay tomorrow~

[Gus1234U]

[childofchaos831]

The pain is at a point that it is making me suicidal... (Able to stay safe... just having a really hard time.) Just want Monday to come already cuz weekends are really hard. PHP and getting my abilify shot tomorrow.

[lizardlady]

{*{*{*{*Child*}*}*}*}

I have those want to end it all days too. I don't actually want to be dead. I just want the pain to stop. Hang in there hon. It will get better.

did my shopping today

caused a lot of anxiety and depression

and frustration

and other things..

quiet afternoon though- just flashbacks to contend with

[lizardlady]

Haven't been here for a few days. Am backing to working five days a week plus an in the second week of a flare. Fibro is kicking my butt.

Been using the CBD oil every day for several weeks now. Guess I'm one of the people it doesn't help. It's not doing jack for me.

[Gus1234U]

so many have not posted in days,,,
good to hear from you, Liz... may your 'Flare' go down in flames~!