cptsdvictim's journal

At the shelter. Exhausted Gilmore Girls therapized. Ate my Chana Masala (super, as always), then headed to the shelter. Of course, I had to encounter an idiot on my way back otherwise it wouldn't have been alright. But it's not that bad. It's a minor thing. Unpleasant nonetheless. Barbora K. won the title. Paolini put a good fight, though her short stature is a disadvantage. K. played balls in corners and had Paolini be unable to reach the ball due to height. Not much to see otherwise. Just a few highlights here and there.

Let's see if tomorrow Carlos can defend his title. Vamos!

Trump posing for a photo after having his ear shot is beyond disbelief. This narcissist is all in. Despite I disagree with whom they stand with, I feel sorry for the family of the person who lost their life.

To all the Americans on these forums:

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Yeess! Carlos won! And did it in straight sets! Vamoooss! Double Wimbledon champion! Djokovic put a good fight in the third set, alas to no avail.

Spoken like a true champ. Though, I don't see the flare in him like Djokovic has. Not to say he doesn't have phenomenal mental and physical strength (something which I lack), though it seems he's gotten used to it and not treating it as a new, fresh journey every single time (like Djokovic said, to paraphrase, "it's always a new beginning for me"). This means Carlos will have to learn the hard way through a crisis. Saddens me, but this is his path right now. Unless he discovers mindfulness and the idea of starting anew every single time, while keeping in mind your experience so far, at that point.

And, I didn't mention in my previous post, but can the Spanish achieve the awesome? Can they also win the Euro cup?

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Granted Djokovic had a weakened knee, Carlos was merciless.

Speaking of right knee surgery, I really, *really* should make an appointment to have mine.

Diana is so kind 💜

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So Spain did it. Won the Euro cup. Man, what a year has been for them. Not bad at all. Congratulations to them.

So, I was hoping I'd work this morning and close out the issue I left from previously, however, it turns out I'm low on battery. Must have discharged while I was in vacation. Oh, well. I guess I'm going to start my week really easily.

Had an ok day. Reviewed the issue I left from last time. Merged it. Discovered more bugs. Tomorrow I'll focus on implementing more features. I'll leave bug fixing for another time.

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Today was a somewhat successful day. Didn't work in the early morning before I start my day. I changed my calendar so now I've more time to work in the afternoon. More code added to the list of code that needs bug fixing.

This is a tremendous resource. Thanks.

Today was a good day. Managed to get some functionality implemented. Tests look good. Need to see whether they hold in the real world. Still a way to go to implement rest of functionality for the UI, but, I reckon, I'll have it done by the end of this week.

That being said, I finished watching the Wimbledon final, in full. Carlos was ruthless. A bit nervous to close it out, having missed an opportunity in the third set when was 40 up on championship point, several points. He did it, though, in the tie break.

Next up: Roland-Garros as they've uploaded the semi-final Alcaraz-Sinner, in full.

Let's gooo!

What a beast.

My advice: turn off notifications (completely) and be mindful when you open an app (there should be a healthy intent).

Disclaimer: watch Kati Morton's channel (if you choose to) with a grain of salt. Just going with "find a therapist with whom you click" can leave you retraumatized. If you do choose to pursue therapy, make sure you're doing it with a therapist specialized in treating trauma. Ideally, trained in NARM psychotherapy which has a dedicated protocol for dealing with countertransference.

So, last night at around 10:30pm I vomited once again due to abdominal pain. Didn't eat spicy. Definitely have to check with my doctor to pursue an analysis. It's either because I get infected with a virus due to the plastic water bottle I've been using for years and which I don't wash (especially when it gets warm here) or I've gastritis or some other condition. Will talk to my GP next week when I'll get the appointment.

Feeling good now and doesn't seem I'll have the same problem again tonight. Keeping fingers crossed.

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Good strategies. I wouldn't do therapy with her, however (she's unable to remain embodied [the brain fog due to dissociation due to unprocessed trauma]), though her videos are informative.

Morning. Besides annoying roommate complaints regarding the shower and bathroom floor, I managed to get some work done this morning, and, surprisingly code just works as I've first initially written it. Granted I've done some minor modifications, it works. Still A LOT left to implement and as I'm going deeper and deeper into functionality so much more work to be done surfaces. Good thing I've already have most of the things tracked.

Today's gonna be a relaxing day. Will hopefully finish up a few things, brainstorm if I'm leaving something out and review my changes. Tomorrow I'll review for the last time and then, most probably, merge. Which would be awesome. Means I've finished in a week the first iteration over this issue. Yesterday evening I even got to review some policy updates.

Now, relaxing time: continuing to watch Alcaraz-Sinner match. For an hour before officially starting my day.

Had my breakfast and when I approached my bed to take the bottle of water to fill it up, I got approached by the bully roommate offering me COVID tests. I refused and then he continued (red flag) saying something along the lines of "you may need them, you never know" to which I said: "I'm not looking for a friendship". At that point he turned verbally violent telling me to "not f***ing be smart about it" to which I said "and I already told you no". He then said "I'm not looking for a friendship" to which I replied "ok, cool". Conversation ended there with him shortly afterwards having exclaimed "Jesus Christ".

Why is it that I've to deal with miserable people in my life?