[Brokenjewellery]

Feeling so low everyday.. I feel so alone. I have a million thoughts racing through my head constantly and they are all really muddled and confused. 2 months since 9 year relationship ended. I can't begin to describe how I'm really feeling.. The only way I found I could cope was by busying myself and ignoring all my emotions.. Just pretended I felt empty.. When ppl ask how I'm feeling I say I'm fine.. Really I feel like if I try to say how I feel il completely fall apart. So so much pain. I want someone to talk to I want someone to hold me and let me cry.. Really cry. But hold me so I don't fall apart.. I don't know how to cope anymore. Iv reached my limit of sadness. I want to run away from my life

[Leed]

Bless your heart. I'm so sorry things are so rough right now.

I think it's time for some therapy. Is there any way you can see a good psychologist? Talking to a professional would be helpful -- they can help us cope with difficult situations.

If you can't afford it, check with your County's Mental Health Service, and see if they offer counseling based on ability to pay -- or even free! Some counties do have these services so check into it.

I wish you the best ~ please take care of yourself. God bless. Hugs, Lee

[shezbut]

(((Brokenjewellery)))

I'm sorry that things have been so difficult for you. Long relationships affect so many aspects of our lives, it can be very hard to continue activities that remind us of the broken relationship.

I agree with Leed. Therapy could be very helpful to you, especially if you felt comfortable enough to talk about deep emotions and thoughts with the T. I highly recommend looking into T, to help you work through your depression. You may want to start by mentioning the depression to your doctor ~ who could prescribe an anti-depressant and refer you to a few T's that s/he's had success with before.

Gentle hugs sent your way ~ best wishes to you!

[sweepy62]

Originally Posted by Brokenjewellery

Feeling so low everyday.. I feel so alone. I have a million thoughts racing through my head constantly and they are all really muddled and confused. 2 months since 9 year relationship ended. I can't begin to describe how I'm really feeling.. The only way I found I could cope was by busying myself and ignoring all my emotions.. Just pretended I felt empty.. When ppl ask how I'm feeling I say I'm fine.. Really I feel like if I try to say how I feel il completely fall apart. So so much pain. I want someone to talk to I want someone to hold me and let me cry.. Really cry. But hold me so I don't fall apart.. I don't know how to cope anymore. Iv reached my limit of sadness. I want to run away from my life

i hold my emotions in all pented up my t is trying for me to let go of these emotions i just grew up where i was told not to express emotions i grew up adult child of alcoholic now i am dealing with borderline personality major depression gen anxiety its a mess i feel like a lab rat with the meds, and yes sometimes i want to run from myself i understand u and sorry u are feeling this way

[needfixing]

for me when i hide my emotions its for fear i won't be validated.
my hubby who admits this he is horrible with emotional support, he ALWAYS says to me i am thinking too much.

[2isbetterthan1]

Originally Posted by sweepy62

i hold my emotions in all pented up my t is trying for me to let go of these emotions i just grew up where i was told not to express emotions i grew up adult child of alcoholic now i am dealing with borderline personality major depression gen anxiety its a mess i feel like a lab rat with the meds, and yes sometimes i want to run from myself i understand u and sorry u are feeling this way

I know how you feel. I am afraid to show the right people my emotions and spend too much time and energy expressing them to the wrong people!