Did i really get over him!

i didnt see the face of the guy whom i've loved for about 2 years in over a month. and i suddenly got to see him multiple times in 2consecutive days. my heart ached to see him! he's still soooooo gorgeous! i fell for his brother last year(i love him still-thats another story as he also liked me too)...buher guyt its over between me and his brother now. its just that i saw this guy again and i wondered why dont i deserve him afterall..... why aint i good enough for him! i tried EVERYTHING to gain his attention. didnt matter. he only started hating me for it.

im soon to marry another guy whim i dont like but still i have to marry him because of family and customs over here. n now once again i m wondering will i ever be able to get over my crush completely!

thanks for reading. i needed to get it out.

You HAVE to marry someone you don't even LOVE? How awful! Is there no way out of this mess?

I'm so sorry. I know what it's like to have your heart telling you love one man, but yet you're all set to marry another. Unfortunately it happened to me too, and it wasn't because of "customs." There WAS family pressure, and a lot of it.

When will this "crush" end? I cannot tell you sweetie. I wish I could. Time is your only friend. I hope it ends soon for you. Maybe once you get involved in married live, it will help. Bless you, and please take care. Hugs, Lee

Bad news, I saw the woman I most loved in this world again after twenty years and I fell apart inside too. I don't think it ever goes away.

I think one has to move on in one's own life and get interested in it instead of other people and their lives or what they are thinking, doing, in relation to us before we "get over" another. If you are going to go through with marrying, you should work on the marriage and making it the best you can for yourself and husband. You can only concentrate on one thing at a time and if you stay in your life now instead of the past or future, it gets easier.

@Leed: yes i'll have to marry him eventually even though i dont love him. He also sees 'defects' in me but he wants that we should make it happen as families are involved. By the way i havnt told my fiance that i dont love him/i love someone else ;that is so not an option.

@ponder1973: 20 years and u still feel for that woman u once loved? That is something.

@Perna: i try my level best to make my life interesting for myself. But really i think atleast once in a day that may be the only solution or the easy way out would be if i dont exist.

its taking a toll on my entire life. i dont know am i to blame or is it all coz of my interest in other guys?!!!!

The interest in other guys might be to keep you from concentrating on the marriage you say you do not want but feel powerless to stop. If you do not resolve that issue with yourself, other ones may pop up and keep you off balance like this.

my fiance keeps telling me about his sexual requirements and how he would like my body to be shaped like! its plain disgustung for me. he NEVER talks about what are my worries and what i want...he just wants that i should be perfect or i'll be in trouble. what the heck!