[Aiuto]

I am either crying or angry most of the time.I hate it I wish I was just numb.I have had a major traumatic event 2 years ago that I suffer still physically, mentally, neurologically, and lost my life before and my friends.In result I hate everyone because I hate my life now. I got a diagnosis a year after accident and every close friend and boyfriend left me to suffer by myself.I thought they would at least call and check on me.NOPE!I wish I could just be numb.

[Leed]

Bless your heart I'm so sorry you're having such a rough time. You really need some help.

Is there any way you can get into therapy? That would be the ideal thing to do. Therapy can really help with depression, which is really what you have.

If you can't get into therapy, PLEASE see your medical doctor! He can help by putting you on an antidepressant. Yes, I know -- most people don't want to take medication. But antidepressants DO NOT change "who" we are and do NOT make you "loopy." They just replace the chemicals & hormones that are LACKING at the time, that keep us from getting depressed! They aren't working or else you don't have them. So the antidepressant replaces them.

I've been depressed since I was about 4-5 yrs old. I didn't get treatment until I was in my 20's. I'm 64 now, and have been on antidepressants ever since my 20's!!! I'll be on them til I die -- cause I have clinical depression. That's where the chemicals & hormones in the brain just aren't there!

So please see your doctor -- he'll either refer you to a therapist or put you on medication. God bless and PLEASE let us know what happens, ok? I wish you all the best. Hugs, Lee

[Thunder Bow]

Medications my be a quick fix, but do not solve the problem. Cognitive Therapy over a period of time is the best way out of depression. Did Modern Medicine put the cart before the horse? I do own a Horse!

[Puffyprue]

That must be super hard *hugs*
but doesnt matter how hard it is all you can do now its move on, and now at least you can see better who your friends really are *hugs*

Are you in therapy? is there any support group that you could join, maybe from there you could make a new friends and find a way to accept your condition now and make a better of it

Iam so sorry about your situation, share here more maybe could help somehow *hugs*

[Open Eyes]

((Aiuto)), you have PTSD, these are symptoms of PTSD, I have these challenges myself, I can go from anger to crying alot too. Yes that feeling of being seperate from others is also part of PTSD as well. If I remember you are seeing a T right? You need to give yourself some time to heal. PTSD is a delayed reaction to some tramas and sometimes doesn't develope for 6 months or more after a tramatic event. It takes time to "heal" with PTSD depending on the type of trama and what is going on in your life and the support system you have, that is why a good T is important.

((CARING HUGS))))
OE

[Aiuto]

Yes Open I am in therapy and antidepressants etc.It is so hard to be normal 28years then get struck in MVA and I now I am brain damaged,Post concussion syndrome,PTSD the list goes on.

I was working on my master's and now I cannot even work till hopefully after I get the cognitive therapy.People say "you could of died" because it was a very high speed accident.I think to myself I am living in a nightmare sometimes, I wish I did not have to live in this pain.Yes I told my T and we are working with all my messes! My life just sucks now and I have no idea who I am or why my dreams just had to be taken from me so fast!

[Aiuto]

I figured a lot out...I have never really felt love from my family.My parents divorced when I was 4yrs old and my mom and I never respected each other.Maybe because I was the last of her kids and I was a mistake.I do not know how to love because I never felt love.Now she is turning my daughter against me and I cannot even get my daughter to come home because she's at my mom's and my mom will always tell her it is ok for her to stay and turn my daughter against me.Now that I think about EVERYTHING I probably started having PTSD when I was 4years old because my parents divorced.My dad is a doctor and treats me like sh*! and never really been in my life.My mother and I has a very nasty relationship.I go to my T today and I am going to have to tell her things I been numb to but are probably the leading cause of my major depression,PTSD etc.

[Leed]

Good -- I'm glad you're going to tell your therapist new things. There are undoubtedly many things from your childhood that effected your adult life and are effecting you now!

It's difficult being an "oops" baby -- a "mistake" baby. I was one too. Why do parents TELL their children that? Why don't they know that their kids are going to feel unwanted after that?

What makes you think that your mother is turning your daughter against you? Is it because your daughter isn't coming home? That could be for a number of reasons, like not wanting to change schools, not wanting to leave friends, etc. It is probably NOT because your Mom is turning her against you, sweetie. Why would your mother do that? She doesn't HATE you!!! I'm SURE your mother loves you! Even tho you and your Mom haven't been able to get along, you are STILL her daughter -- and you yourself know that parents CAN'T just stop loving their children.

I hope you have a good session today. Keep us updated on your progress, okay? God bless and hope to hear more soon. Hugs, Lee

[Aiuto]

Me and my T took a walk and talked and I laid it out about my family and daughter.T said I cannot force her because she is a teenager the more I force the worst it is.So I have to make her want to come home. My daughter does not know it but she will speaking to my t in 2weeks.I got to get my daughter back it is making my depression and everything else worse without her.