struggling with emotions

so lately I have been struggling with emtions in a more different way.
I had a few people that I was intimate with break off with me...and at first it was hard for me to see it but it was a good thing for me to move on these people they were not good for me and maybe in some sense they were even dangerous for me.

So I have less people in my life that are even closer to me...but things are different.

I get how dealing with me and m bipolar makes me a very hard person to get to know and to get close to.

I am starting to notice that for me when I want to talk to my girlfriend I don't want to just text her on the phone I want to actually hear her voice,...and that works with my phone plan better cause its set up more to talk then to text. Well with her its the oppsite.

it really frustrates me but I don't know how to say that and not come off as a pain and over all I think she gets it....cause we do want to spend time with each other we have just not had a lot of time to recently.

me and my best friend have not spent as much time with each other lately mostly due to something akward between me and an ex of her's as much as it feels as me and him are trying to fight back our feelings.....they keep coming and we keep talking with each other. I am trying to take a break from meeting new people but I can't help but feel something with this guy. But I know that my feeling confuse and make others feel akward so I have kind of hermiting myself in the house a lot lately

Well, I suggest you tell your girlfriend that sometimes you just want to hear her voice, Maybe you and she can make a compromise about texting verus calling.

As far as the other guy, I think the two of you need to decide whether you are off or on. This being in limbo can definitely create negative feelings. If you decide it's not going to work out, then stop getting in touch. As you say, your relationship is causing problems with your friend.

Why are you trying not to meet new people, especially since you have lost some other friends?

me and my girl friend actually got to talk for quite a few hours last night and we got to spend a lot of well missed time with each other.

as I said this last month I have had a lot of lows lately not enough highs, lol but I am having a high today out of no where which I am enjoying since I get so few. But we did get to talk and sort out of everything a lot better.

I think there was a lot of stress on both of us since we had not seen each other in person for just a while.

Me and this new guy that I meet are both kind of the mind set that nither one of us need to jump into anything huge as far as a few relationship right now in our lives. But its also difficult due to the fact we do just seem to really like each other. But we both agree that taking it slow and just seeing where things go with no pressure for right now is truly the bes thing to do.

It is going to be akward since we have hooked up and he is an ex of my best friend thats just going to always be the case I think...but I don't think its something that is going to be a make or break deal between me and her..we have been there for each other fairly well for like the past year...and still will be.

and she wants me to find a guy that I can be with and be happy with. It just so happens it someone she knows which is of course akward which I can understand.

Modern Technology is more of a hinderence than help in relationships. It separates us with text and gadgets, looking at them instead at the other person. Those labels you put on yourself, and all those multi-colored medication words. Gad....Strip them off and just be yourself!

it does make me value the nice ness of just sitting the hell down and talking face to face technology is great but it is a henderance as well.

or a good excuse for my agrophobic ways to say loudly...(ORRR we could stay in side today.) Which has more and more been the case....I keep struggling day to day to find lil bits of stablity and more or less I end un stable rather then stable.

which is depressing in of it self..and embrassing to have all my mental disablity cons flung sometimes out at others and then wishing to race back in the abyss and hang my head in shame.

and the signature and me saying who I am and how I relate in this world is me being myself and being proud of it.

its just my way of showing so.

But I don't take offense, I am a very open person about what i relate to and how I see myself...I know some people dis like labeling, but I don't in particular it helped me find out me as a person....I am not the stereo typical verison of anything I do....I just do it cause that how I am. lol that I and I think its just in my nature to make lists upon lists, LOL I am sure this is my OCD to a T

No Human Being deserves Labels. One uses labels to fool one self. Think deeper than that.

I am what I am just cause I know titles of the parts of me does not make me any lesser then myself.

I am what I am just cause I know titles of the parts of me does not make me any lesser then myself, I am a deep person....spirtually.

But me expressing myself and how I feel about myself to the world is just me being myself.
Thank you for sharing your opinion but I am sorry I don't fully feel the same as you do.
And I have a choice to act as I wish to.

Change "I am what I am" to "I am WHO I am"! You will not know WHO you are, by placing "Titles" or Labels on Yourself. It is good that you feel you have a choice to act as you wish to.