Do you ever feel like you dont know who you are?

Like just a blank slate or blank mind... You can't really define yourself. Just a mush of nothing.. Like if someone asked me who I am or how to describe myself it would be mostly negative attributes- but that's just a side note- and also the truth honestly.. I think ever since I became sick and started meds, thats all i see in myself

I feel like that all the time.

I feel like that alot of the time.

I feel like that often....sometimes i wish i didn't feel emotions.....i feel as though my emotions run my life....so I try to keep busy to not think about them...i know it sounds wired...

I feel like i can't think for myself most of the time...

I have an easy time describing what I like and discussing my attributes but I have an inner chameleon that likes to change things up from time to time. So how I describe myself might change a bit. Maybe you need need a med adjustment?

All.the.time

What makes you say that about med adjustment? I'm just curious from an outside perspective- if its more serious than I think....

Didn't mean to alarm. My suggestion was based off of your.comment about
only seeing the negative in yourself

I feel like this a lot of the time.

Meds can cause you to feel blank inside. The gift of Self is a gift from the Universe. Don't throw it away!

I feel like this all the time. I feel like today I can be forgiving, lively, and forgetting the past. The next day I'm all thinking about what happened and how I could change the situation and things like that. As a result of contemplating the past, I feel like I want to get back at some of the people who were once mean to me, but I just can't bring myself to do that. I feel like I can contradict myself a lot in what i say and do. it's like do what i say but don't do what i do.

No, no alarm, i just didnt understand- do you think its a depression issue not fully treated

Well, feeling empty inside could be a part of depression but it is also a component in other disorders. How long have you been feeling this way? Can you remember a time when you were able to define yourself at least partially or felt like you had a sense of self?

that's me, most of the time.

Yes, years ago!

I feel like at times I just don't know what I am. I'm like I can be compassionate yet i can also be very heartless to those who have contempt for me, the ones who have verbally abused me in the past.
i compare myself to some of the historical figures in history. Take, Queen Mary the first, for instance. She was a religious fanatic and she had a poor childhood. She could have made better choices by not murdering 3 hundred protestant leaders at the stake for being who they are. But that's because those guys had persecuted her for her faith and she just wanted revenge to punish them for trying to get rid of an essential part of her life and wanting to convert her. That's the worst thing for her to have done, but if she had therapy back then in england and if she were more openminded and more science-oriented like her half-sister queen elizabeth she would not have been where she was, being a sad yet bitter woman enacting all these acts that she thought were absolutely right.
I felt that way once and wanted to be like her consumed with bitterness. Then I realized I had to get myself out of this mindset and it has been three years since I first watched the videos. I was always bitter and wanted all my enemies to be consumed like that.

I think many of us who feel we have been wronged entertain fantasies of revenge but they say that it is normal. The difference between you and her is that you didn't take steps toward acting out your fantasies.

Those fantasies, whenever I had them, I would be like I wish i didn't have them because it's so not me. I want to be a loving, kind, nonjudgmental person. I don't want to be filled with so much contempt for those that I used to detest. At times I still find myself not being able to forgive, but things have remarkably improved. I hope that I am steering it in the proper direction.

Does anyone feel like when they read something (book, website) that they end up acting like the characters for a short amount of time? Or at least think like them?
I especially had this issue when I thought that I had depression, I'd go read all these things on it and subconsciously act out the symptoms I had read. Same sometimes now when I expect I have bpd. It sometimes makes me feel like I'm copying the chameleon, so to speak =/

I recently came to the conclusion that I do not know myself. I feel that my mother has pressured me, brainwashed me, for better or worse to be her "mini me" and succeed in areas of life she did not. Thankfully I broke free of her reality but unfortunately I find myself swinging between her and what little of myself i have. I am not sure how to "find it" or how i am suppose to act, Be "me".

when i was on medication i felt more or less like a zombie,,

Hugs (())

It's something that I just read this..tho I don't actually think I am that person I do seem to act like the one I relate to....sometimes without knowing....like Mary Shellys Frankenstein...(the book not the classic movie).....his father created him and threw him out...he had to make his own way in a world that rejected him but he learned to speak....so he could ask his father why did he create him and give him all these feelings and emotions and not teach him what to do with them.....the too bigest being Love and Rage...all he wanted was someone like him to love,and his creator denied him of it.....if he couldn't indulge in the one he indulged in the other(rage)....which is how I'm starting to feel after 8 years of being rejected....life still denies me the one thing my heart longs for,because I'm "too nice".....that frustration of not being wanted and loved by a woman scares me cuz when I see couples together now,instead of getting deppressed I'm starting to understand that Rage he felt....

Thanks for sharing that...my heart goes out to You...people tell me to just be Yourself around women....and I am....I do have a sense of humor I'm not always walking around looking deppresse...buy alls I get is I'm too nice or so sweet???..being myself is what keeps me lonely...I feel I have to stop being nice in order for a woman to love me?....I'm just confused about who I am and how I'm suppossed to be

I sometimes do not know who I am . I do know I want more from life than what I am getting on SSI and being a patient. I want more children and I want health I want a car and I want to buy and earn a house someday. I want friends and love and peace more and more each day. Day by Day these things I pray. Finances, love, health and peace and to love the Lord by writing Poetry for His people. Amen. Praises be the Almighty for all blessings. Who am I and Who am I going to be?

I feel like I 'merge' with whoever im with and become different identities depending on my company. I have no self, im just tiny fragments of other people