[SkyWhite]

I'm sure this topic comes up a lot here, but I can't concentrate to go through all the threads.

I recently recovered memories of serious child abuse inflicted mainly, but not exclusively, by my mother and shared everything with my T this week. I now feel the rage trying to get out, but I'm terrified to let it loose. My open wounds are still raw. I won't be seeing my T again until late June and I'm feeling stranded.

The problem with me is if I get angry I have a tendency to get very suicidal. If I let the anger out even a little, I get suicidal thoughts. It scares me because I've attempted suicide before. I wish I was seeing my T more often to discuss this but I'm on my own.

Does anyone have any advice on letting the anger out safely.

[pegasus]

Hello SkyWhite,

Yes you will have a lot of anger after what has happened to you and obviously it was not safe to let it out before.

Remind yourself that although the anger feels scary, it is perfectly normal for the circumstances. Try not to turn it in on yourself. Remind yourself who you are angry with. It is not your fault.

Ways to let it out safely -

1) Talk

2) Write it out, write what ever you need to and then you can burn it after, it is surprisingly helpful to do this.

3) Do something creative - write poetry, draw, paint.

4) Punch a pillow, no harm can come to a pillow.

5) Get a damp dish cloth and throw it.

6) Find a secluded spot and scream.

[Thunder Bow]

Because you are so aware of this, I do not think you will try suicide. Therapy is working for you, so you will do well. Anger is normal for this situation.

[Gus1234U]

there are some self-soothing skills listed in a thread in this forum. perhaps something there will be helpful to you:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/copin...ml#post3778417

best wishes~
Gus

[1a1m1y]

Originally Posted by SkyWhite

I recently recovered memories of
serious child abuse inflicted mainly,
but not exclusively, by my mother and
shared everything with my T this week.
I now feel the rage trying to get out,
but I'm terrified to let it loose.
My open wounds are still raw.
I won't be seeing my T again until late
June and I'm feeling stranded.

The problem with me is if I get angry I
have a tendency to get very suicidal.
If I let the anger out even a little,
I get suicidal thoughts. It scares me
because I've attempted suicide before.
I wish I was seeing my T more often
to discuss this but I'm on my own.

Does anyone have any advice
on letting the anger out safely.

Sky I Am Sorry That You Were Seriously Abused.
I Am A Survivor of Childhood Abuse and Trama
and I just turned 38.

What I Do At Times. Is Tell Myself "It Could Be Much Worse".
Something like Positive 'self-talk' to Change My Mood and Thoughts.

I've Told Myself Before, I Will Take All The Intensity
of My Pain, Anger from Abuse, Neglect and Abandonment-
and Turn All The 'Energy/Memories' Into A Positive Force Field
Aimed At 'Saving Children from Abuse, Through Prevention
Methods- and By Spreading Knowledge 'Signs of Abuse'.

I Refuse To Let My Life Now,
the Here and Now until Tomorrow-

Be Ruined Because of Past Trama,
I Was Helpless Than, I Didn't Understand,
But I Survived...

People handle bad memories differently.
I Choose To Block The Thoughts and Flashbacks.

I have expressed verbally to different people in the past-
''All Cowards Die a Thousand Deaths." To What I Went
Through, Endured- 'Than I Let It Go' Speaking about it
only made me more angry, and re-live it.

I Pray You Can Defeat the Anger In You,
Replacing it with Positivity, Hobbies? Peace.

Take A Deep Breathe In- (I close my eyes)
and Say I Clear My Mind, Body, Heart and Soul
of All Negativity- and this Area of all negativity-
Slowly Breathe Out- Imagine light surrounding you
taking the darkness away.