Dealing with a lot of emotions at once.

I feel angry, sad & confused. Recently it's been really hard to try to communicate with my family about what I've been through. Anytime I try to get them to understand; they clearly won't understand anytime. My emotions are on fire cause I feel broken inside and I feel like an alien inside my own house. Ever since I've been abused by my ex boyfriend, it's turned my life completely upside down. It's pushing me farther away, it's like they completely want me to move on and forget about it but I can't cause it's only happened last year and I'm not over it now.

Trying to keep my emotions in control but with my family acting this way towards me it's making my situation a lot worse. My mother expects me to shove it all under the rug but I clearly can't do that, it's impossible for me to do that at this point. Last night I cried and she believes I need to be hospitalized simply cause I've been angry and crying a lot of the time, I'm not suicidal: all I want her is to understand but she won't. Trust me I've tried over and over again to get her to understand but she simply won't. Right now I feel hopeless due to this.

Seems like you might need to deal with your story with someone who does understand. Hard to deal with the fact that some will never understand. They may have no experience.

Hello,
I'm sorry you're feeling this way, and it is hard when family are evidently trying to understand, but also amazed that coping with emotions are so hard for someone they are also accommodating. I'm sorry that it is adding more pressure to your emotional issues, and have been here many a time. I'm finding anger drains me and so does hate, however I cannot get rid of these emotions, and implode eventually at the end of the day. Try not to get hospitalized, I think doing that will make things worse and could lead down a more rocky path - potentially, experiencing something shocking and unravelling another bout of emotional turmoil.

If this helps , and i'm still not feeling great a all by the way- been going for woodland walks, swimming, cycling even if you don't feel like it, and found it stopped me from crying and feeling about 5-10% less hopeless and built up inside, almost feel safe being outside than in with my thoughts. - focusing on breathing fresh air etc , found it sort of distracts for a few minutes each time.

Are you seeing a T?

No I'm not seeing a T, at the moment were trying to see if the main doctor's office has one and I'll be notified once they get one in and I don't think I can wait that long to be honest. All this anger and crying has been wearing me out. This summer I've been doing a lot of swimming, at this moment my niece is down here for the summer until August 9th so I can't do a lot of walking or cycling until she leaves but once she does leave I plan on doing all three. Thanks for you're helpful words; that's honestly something I needed to hear. I need soothing words and comfort right now, I've been treated poorly by my family and it's making me worse. You're words put a smile upon my face. I added you as a friend and you're more than Welcome to message me if you'd like to talk to me. I could use a friend to talk too.

Thank you, i'm just being honest, I know remotely know how you feel and I am really struggling to stay positive, but I know in the long run staying active will give me some hope of controlling my issues, I will PM you, speak soon x TY