[NNR09]

I'm new to this. And honestly have no idea where to start. I've been diagnosed as bi polar for about two years now, but my health insurance dropped me so I have had no way to afford my meds. I feel like I'm out of control. It's running everything for me. I'm lashing out at work, my friends, and my boyfriend. No matter how hard I try I just can't seam yo control anything I do or say. My mind is constantly racing and my anxiety is through the roof. I'm work in on getting more help but it's taking more time than I would like. How do I handel this? I can't relax or keep my head on straight. ..it's driving me INSANE!!

[Travelinglady]

Hi, NNRO9, and welcome to Psych Central! I am sorry you can't afford meds. I don't know how I would function without them. The only thing off hand that comes to my mind is going to the emergency room. I think they have to see you even without insurance. I suggest you check into that, anyway.

Is there any way you can get some insurance--maybe a national health program?

Meanwhile, try to take deep, long breaths; listen to relaxing music; just try to relax the best you can......

Do your friends know why you are acting the way you are? If so, then I would think they would cut you some slack and be understanding.

[NNR09]

I've been looking into it at my job. Starting January 1st I will have insurance. I just have to figure something out until that unfortunately. My close friends and my family know about it. My boyfriend as well, unfortunately for him hes normally the target of half of my little outburst. He knows whats going on but its really hard on hom too

[GerberDaisy82]

Hi NNR09,

I can totally relate with what your are feeling and going through. It is very unfortunate that you cannot get the medicine that you desperately need. I feel it is super important not only to take meds but to be on the proper ones. I have been a guinea pig for several years now and have taken a multitude of different medicine. Last year I was not properly medicated and lost it all - my job, my apartment, my sanity. I can thankfully now say that I have been properly medicated for the past year. But that is only one component. Therapy is such a pivotal part in the recovery process - unfortunately that is the part I am currently lacking. I go through the same emotions most of the time. I can tell you that taking it day by day does help. I find that trying to get a grasp of everything at the same time is very overwhelming. Make small goals for yourself everyday. Writing a list and checking off items seems to work. Breaking it down to little tasks as oppose to letting the mind race with thoughts of every single matter/problem is helpful. Keep on trucking girl, things will get better over time

[hamster-bamster]

Originally Posted by NNR09

I'm new to this. And honestly have no idea where to start. I've been diagnosed as bi polar for about two years now, but my health insurance dropped me so I have had no way to afford my meds. I feel like I'm out of control. It's running everything for me. I'm lashing out at work, my friends, and my boyfriend. No matter how hard I try I just can't seam yo control anything I do or say. My mind is constantly racing and my anxiety is through the roof. I'm work in on getting more help but it's taking more time than I would like. How do I handel this? I can't relax or keep my head on straight. ..it's driving me INSANE!!

NNR09 - I think you need to find a way to afford a psychiatrist. Not all psychiatric medications used for bipolar are expensive. There are medications that cost $4 a month and there are medications that cost $400 and more a month. If the psychiatrist knows that you are without insurance, the psychiatrist will choose from the cheap medicines. At any rate, this is until Jan 1 - less than two months from now you will have coverage. Probably it is better to just wait, but just as an FYI, not all medications are pricey.