[Hellion]

Alright so I have made some progress with my mental health more or less, at least I am working on things...doing my best to keep up on therapy even decided to give another depression med a try as I can't get rid of the feeling of it constantly dragging me down. Aside from that looking into the idea of moving out into subsidized housing..I got one application for a place where the wait could be up to 2 years but its a place where elderly and/or disabled qualify so the person who gave me the application said its still worth turning it in, just in case I am still looking in that length of time or in case something opens up sooner. So yeah to me that is a lot of stuff to handle at once...for me.

Anyways I mentioned the apartment search and that I may have to figure out how to budget to afford internet service if that would not be covered by apartment rent to my moms boyfriend....I live with her and him and he was home in the same area of the house so I was more making conversation. But he says 'well maybe you could get a job'...just frusterating since if I get a job then I'd have to report to SSI so they could decrease my SSI so I still would not be in any better of a position financially even if I did put the effort into getting some very part time job....and that is if I could even function well enough to show up to said job. I mean sure maybe someday a job would be an option but not now.....so how do I make myself less irritated when people suggest I get a job? I don't think that will stop so figure might as well find some way to make it bother me less since its not practical right now.

[UrbanShaman]

Just remember that he isn't trying to be nasty when he says it, he is just unsure of how to help and that's all he can think of too help. Also keep in mind that at least he is not treating you like you're going to snap any minute, he is treating you like an equal.

[unaluna]

Well the good news is, subsidized housing spaces are often near other city services such as libraries that often have internet available for public use, so maybe you wouldnt have to get your own line. I have often thought about just getting really cheap phone service for emergencies. Or some other plan. Then again, i say if you dont have transportation, you gotta have information - like to know when the next bus is coming.

[Hellion]

Originally Posted by UrbanShaman

Just remember that he isn't trying to be nasty when he says it, he is just unsure of how to help and that's all he can think of too help. Also keep in mind that at least he is not treating you like you're going to snap any minute, he is treating you like an equal.

For all I know he was, he can be pretty damn immature and is a jerk quite often so can be hard to tell if he's trying to be helpful or condescending...as for treating me like an equal just earlier today he said 'if you want to be treated like an adult act like one' sort of ironic as he's the one who flipped out and was yelling at me because I was frustrated about the peanut butter being gone and I guess really didn't want to hear about it so much so a fit was necessary. Meh I should just really ignore anything he says...really.

Anyways even in general on forums or from other people IRL that know i am on disability it can still be upsetting even if the intent is to help...i guess it makes me feel like any stability I gain gets ripped out from under me, like I start feeling comfortable in my situation see some possibilities for improvement and then am reminded most people my age have a job and get pulled back into the oh yeah...this makes me a loser according to society.

[Hellion]

Originally Posted by hankster

Well the good news is, subsidized housing spaces are often near other city services such as libraries that often have internet available for public use, so maybe you wouldnt have to get your own line. I have often thought about just getting really cheap phone service for emergencies. Or some other plan. Then again, i say if you dont have transportation, you gotta have information - like to know when the next bus is coming.

Libraries aren't open 24/7 and I sporadically use the internet all day off and on, even late hours of the night/early morning...also I depend on it for music streaming since the radio is largely crap IDK I use it to the extent the library would not be effective. Luckily I do not plan on having t.v or home phone service so could probably budget for internet...as for my phone its $40 a month if I want unlimited text/talk/data I can just get unlimited text/talk for like $30 if need be if I am a bit short on money some months. But yeah since i do rely on public transport and walking I at least need home internet also to check the weather especially in the winter so if its supposed to get very cold I make sure and dress warm enough or bring warmer clothes if its mild than but I plan to be gone a while.

Also I imagine if I started paying internet, I'd also get a bit more in food stamps since they determine the amount somewhat based on expenses. Of course not very close to moving anywhere just yet so I will have lots of time to think about it and plan for it .