[dolphinlover8]

I have being having a lot of negative thoughts the last couple of weeks. I have really low confidence and self esteem. I always have doubted myself but I have been thinking about it more lately. I know it's awful to say but it's almost like I hate myself. I sometimes wish I wasn't conceived. I know I can't do anything about that. I'm here now so I have to learn to like myself and accept the person who I am. Almost everything I do in life I regret. I feel so awful lately. I'm trying to work on my body and get to my goal and that's just making me feel worse on top of things because I'm not where I want to be. I feel so down because of all these thoughts. I try to change the way I think but I just go back to not liking myself.

[Skeezyks]

Hello dolphinlover8: I'm sorry you are struggling with these negative thoughts. I know what this is like. I have many of my own. I'd like to send warm thoughts your way with the hope that you will soon find yourself in a place of deep inner peace...

[Thunder Bow]

Not liking yourself can be like an old fried, that is hard to say goodbye to. That is why it is so hard to get go of that feeling. It can be outright scary.

Dolphin lover, if i am reading you right you are expressing a bad self image over not being happy with your body, weight, how you feel about yourself or what you look like. you have a poor self image of yourself and it is causing you negative thoughts about your whole life beyond your body. I use to be petite knock dead gorgeous when i was 17. I am not 17 anymore and gravity works, things drop, sag and life happens. Now i can only work with what i got. I have the maturity to accept i am now turned into an old lady. I have to say to myself i do things but slower, and it is okay. I space my time out longer to finish a project and things. It is okay to not get it all done anymore. It is okay to take breaks and work on things a little at a time. And so it is with all things we do. You will have to work at telling yourself your negative thoughts do not define who you are as a person. Those are just bad whispers you are entertaining, they are not real. You look at the facts of life and how you always managed to get to a new day and it will give you the hope that you can always pick yourself back up and start over again. Life is not about just accomplishments, it is about daily doing the same things over again with joy, gratitude and enjoying the journey along the way. (((hugs))) tc

Omegalamed had some really thoughtful things to say.

I feel so sad when I read someoe else's thoughts that mirror my own. I'm sorry to hear you are feeling down, especially when it comes to your thoughts about self-esteem and self-worth. There are books and types of therapies out there that work with challenging those negative core beliefs. It of course starts with recognising them and how such thoughts can run your life. Such programs then teach you to expose yourself to them and challenge them head on. Yes it will take work but the potential of good outweighs dealing with te status quo.

[dolphinlover8]

Omegalamed-thanks for the advice and yeah you are pretty much right about how I feel. It's almost everything about me that I don't like including my personality and basically just myself as a person. I can see what you mean about life isn't just about accomplishments and that there's more to it.

rcat- thanks for the advice. I should probably look into books about it. I do go to a therapist but this isn't the kind of work that I do with her.