How are you coping today?

I am still struggling with low energy and loneliness.I will be glad when it is Easter and I can see my niece.I am visiting my mother this Tuesday coming.Tomorrow I am going to help my loneliness by hanging out at the cafe for a bit and seeing a Hindu film called Lucifer in the evening,it is 3 hours long so it will keep me occupied and distracted.

Basically I've had to move most of my tasks/chores to tomorrows todo list and hope I can get up earlier to get things done. That's all I could do. I've done what I can today and now I'm burnt out.

I'm having a bad day. I'm so angry that i can't find a fulfilling full-time job that pays well. I'm always behind on my bills, always struggling to make ends meet. I send out TONS of resumes to places, and join temp agencies hoping for work but that is no guarantee either.

I got through the day but if I am honest I was lonely and unhappy.

I'm physically sick so unable to do much, but mentally ok. And viruses don't last that long, so I'm hopeful.

yesterday I had a really bad night.

police came to the area where I live (not for me, thank goodness, for someone else)

but their was a lot of kicking and screaming, a lot of raised voices and a lot of violence

trying to put it out of my mind, but I'm quite shaken up

especially as I have a sort of phobia of police officers

Well I was sleepy and I napped most of the day,I get exhaustion and tiredness,however I managed to get a couple of chores done and considering I am well exhausted I am coping ok.

Today I was tired and really angry again,I looked after my mum and It was exhausting,she needs help to do everything from going to the toilet on the commode to preparing her food and feeding it to her.She needs waiting on hand and foot.I hardly stopped to rest all day.I was glad to get away and go sit in the cafe,have a coffee a rest and hang out.I only do this one day a week to help my sister get a break cos she does it six days a week without a break.

I’m f.i.n.e.

Hugs to all

Annoyed. My abuser is on "duty" at work for two days. I was at work yesterday for 8 hours and I had 18 requests for "how to do things" for my abuser. I do it because I don't want other people to be abused but last night I had a rip roaring bad dream about him.

Kind of makes me utterly upset that this continues on.

Fine. I have a lot to do, but just getting on with it. Some might have to wait until tomorrow though. I have the next 3 days free, so will get on with as much as I can.

Thumbs up today

Going through the motions yet again,alone,lonely,lost,tired ,fed up and seriously depressed!Rescue me please,love me please,give me some affection and attention.

Terrible. I feel like ****. I feel like I’m a “bad person”

But I’m not a “bad person”

I’m just trying to survive

Hugs and love from me Fuzzybear,
You are definitely not a bad person,to me you are one of the good guys and you have not done wrong by trying to get through your life in one piece.Don't listen to anyone who puts you down.By the amount of times you have replied to my posts reassuring me and sending me hugs I know you are caring and have a big good heart.I hope this helps you feel better and I hope you soon will be surrounded by love

Thank you Marylin

Hugs and love to you

Thanks for this thread..

I’m surviving.. just

I hope you feel better, Im going through a med lowering and feel awful but I hope your stomache feels better soon!!

I'm owe the council £1175. That's due to being in jail for longer last year than I was supposed to be. The housing benefit only covered me for 13 weeks. My mother paid in money to keep me going in jail and she will want that back eventually too.

I got jailed for 70 days in August, for contacting former support workers that have restraining orders against me. I never even said anything bad, and the court is already corrupt, so that isn't helpful. They didn't want to work with me any more due to them finding out I had a soft spot for them. They developed a nasty attitude and I was very stung by all of the lying and I felt betrayed. After so long, the boss also tricked me into signing away my tenancy in one of their supported flats. Before I was jailed last year, I had been remanded several times in the past.

I ended up going back to court while I was serving my first sentence, in regards to not doing unpaid work, but that was to do with a matter not related to the first jail term. Now, I got medical evidence to state that I was not fit for it, but the judge gave me a concurrent sentence, so I was locked up until December. Later on, on the day I was to be let out, the cops gate arrested me to ask me about other stuff, then drove me home since they had no evidence or any confession.

I haven't even gotten my PIP reinstated yet. They close your claims for benefits in custody. I didn't know that was not linked to Universal Credit. Since then, my debt has gotten way worse, and this is due to companies asking for late payments, and it is a really depressing way to cap off this awful decade. Nothing about this decade has been that memorable for me, so I'll be glad when 2020 begins.

I don't even get support any longer either. Social services just fob me off. I think that's kind of illegal if you require support, and all they're doing is ignoring people.

Hi Peter,
I am sorry to hear of your troubles.Being put in prison for very little wrongdoing is not pleasant.Also having no income and being in debt is a horrible situation to be in.I hope that you can get your benefits reinstated.If you need help with benefits for a very small fee you can get help from Home • Welcome to the Fightback4Justice VIP Platform

I sincerely hope that this year and the next decade is the start of better fortunes for yourself.

Today I coped very well.I spent all day from 12pm until 7pm with my mum looking after her,I made her food and helped her to eat and I helped her on the commode when she needed it,and I kept her company and put her to bed before I cam home.I was tired and exhausted after all that,it is so tiring cos not only do I have to help with her physical needs but she is virtually blind and forgets that her mum and dad have died and keeps thinking she is back in her village in her home town,so talking to her and bringing her back to reality is tiring.But I did it today for my sister cos she does it every day without a break and I wanted to help her rest today.I feel for my sister cos it's hard work even though my sister is a narcissist and I spent years being abused by her.Nevertheless she is flesh and blood and has looked after my mum who has been wheelchair bound and immobile for the last 15 years,so she needs a break and I will help her cos it is too much.We are getting carers back in we had to dismiss the last agency because they wanted to start charging for travel time on top of care time so most of the hour we will pay for travel and not get the full hour care but only twenty minutes so we refused to sign that contract and until we get another care agency in my sister has to do most of the caring.So I said I'd do the odd day if she needs a break.

So I coped well but feel upset and tired and want to cry cos it was so exhausting.I have my own chores to do but didn't get them done and am too tired tonight so will do them tomorrow after I have had a good night's sleep.I feel old,alone and lonely too.Is this it,is this my life,will I trot on in solitude towards my old age?Will I be infirm,blind and immobile when I am old and who will look after me,I have no children,no spouse,the state won't care,what will become of me when I am my mum's age,87?I worry about it,my mum has always been dependent on us,I hope to maintain my independence well into old age.I want to get fit and started a diet and I am joining a gym.

I could be better.

another day gone too quick with nothing that important accomplished

I think it is good that you look after your mom

I imagine it's difficult sometimes but one of those situations where it is also very rewarding knowing she is in good hands

yesterday I was convinced I found a new online support group

turns out when I went to post their today they abandoned me

so at this presentm oment I'm feeling lonely and like people are just shoving me in a corner.

raging vortex,I am sorry that you have been abandoned by your online support group.
I hope you won't take it to heart and feel too bad.You still have us here so that might be some consolation.Try and
keep your spirits up.It should be ok,all is not lost is it?