How are you coping today? #2 1/2

i'm super scared and nervous, and trying not to freak out but it's not working

I'm coping ok despite getting hardly any sleep.

not bad so far----------------(fingers crossed emoji)

I coped well today and had an interesting conversation about emotional resilience this afternoon which was helpful.

I'm trying to cope by posting here in the Coffeehouse. It's helping some.

So tired today, but coping ok and got everything done that was needed.

I'm coping today by sleeping and reading when I'm up. And eating comfort food.

Terrified

I didn’t cope that badly today. For only the second time since September 2018 I didn’t take a Xanax. There was a singer on American idol who struggled with addiction and it just bothered me. I also didn’t have one on me earlier in the day when I was looking for one. I coped with my moods as well so no one really noticed them. I did ok today on the outside. Inside I feel weird.

Funny old day - I have anxiety about over sleeping on work days. What this usually means is I wake too early and have disturbed sleep. I never over sleep, it's just a random anxiety I have.

Well today I overslept for the first time for real! I had to get ready in 10 minutes flat, somehow I did, and I even got a very quick breakfast.

I think this was actually good for me - like the thing I feared happened but I coped

I'm running a little behind this morning. Some people are coming by today to do an inspection. So I'm just taking things one step at a time. And I have a "don't give a flip" attitude.

I feel really horrible today

The inspection people never showed up. I don't know if that means they'll try again tomorrow. I guess I better be prepared. Will sleep soon to deal with the stress of it all.

When your therapist asks you if you need a partial hospital program, you know your not coping well and you know she knows that as well.

I slept extra this morning. It helped some. At the moment, I am journaling. I'm answering journaling prompts for some books I have. It's Okay. It's better than nothing.

I am doing okay except I have somehow a wobble of confidence. This pertains to one person but I think the confidence issue possibly resides within myself.

I had a nice time with friends this afternoon but a little bit I was comparing myself to them - thinking I am not as good or as kind as them.

This isn't helpful or productive this thinking pattern and I'm now cross with myself for thinking it, which in turn is not productive.

I am I think shook by a couple of things that have happened recently involving others. I need to give myself a break over that

Going to read a little now and keep up with the healthy things I have been doing recently.

I’m struggling right now but I’m 3 hours from home so there’s not much I can do.

Doing okay and understanding a little bit more about this anxiety that happens sometimes.

One thing that made me feel good was the reappearance of someone who has returned from living abroad, she's someone I have known a long time but not that well but I like her.

I've been reading. That's helped distract me.

I may have messed up on my Topamax and my Xanax on my trip. Not sure what I’ve been taking and what I haven’t and how much I’ve been taking. I didn’t pack well at all for this trip. I forgot a pair of socks, my toothbrush, mouthwash, and my weighted blanket and compression shirt. And my meds were just thrown together. I’m thankfully at home now and I’m back on track with my meds.

I've been working on my art. It's helped me feel good.

Coped well today and kept busy.

I am not coping well at all. This is probably the worst I’ve been in 10 years.

it didn’t doing either of those things and now I just have a bad medicine hangover and I still feel crappy. I called my therapist but she can’t see me until Monday. I was able to move my Pdcos appointment up 18 day’s early but it’s still gonna be April before I can see him. I’m just trying to hang in there.

I'm pushing myself to solve problems... my desktop won't boot up. I opened a ticket with Dell. Just waiting on a tech now to come out and fix it. It's stressful but I'm making it.

Worst day for a while, feeling very negative and self critical.

I talked a lot with my husband, he is funny and makes me laugh which helps hugely, I just feel I don't deserve him.

I also wrote a lot to an online friend who is wonderful and supportive.

Both of these things helped as did reading.