How are you coping today? #2 1/2

TishaBuv · Feb 04, 2020, 02:41 PM

I wanted to have one good day, but didn’t. I’m angry and there’s no good reason to stay where I am miserable. I’m too depressed to get out.

Discombobulated · Feb 04, 2020, 06:09 PM

Okay. Not well today but still worked and gave it my best shot. Spent rest of the day in bed. Perked up in the evening and watched the end of a film with my H which was great.

Deilla · Feb 04, 2020, 08:10 PM

Listened to music and watched some youtube videos on subjects I like. Depressed this evening. I'm afraid to go to bed... concerned I won't sleep through the night. My T shared a link with me that triggered me about sleep.

Mountaindewed · Feb 04, 2020, 08:45 PM

I ate an entire banana royale sundae super fast and then went to McDonald’s 45 minutes later. Not good. Overall besides the extreme stress eating I’m doing good today.

StaticScream · Feb 05, 2020, 02:35 AM

Today I’m coping okay. I’m trying my best, getting creative and thinking about the things that are said to be positive.

Marylin · Feb 05, 2020, 11:35 AM

I got many chores done,I am tired now.I keep getting a pain in my arm,I don't know if it is coming from my heart,am I having a silent heart attack,this has been going on for about two months now.I think I should consult with a doctor.

Deilla · Feb 05, 2020, 01:10 PM

I took a nap this morning. It was really nice. It helped relieve some anxiety and helped the time pass. Will try to listen to some music now. Or maybe play a game. Just trying to cope.

Discombobulated · Feb 05, 2020, 03:40 PM

Good day today, coped well. Dreading my exam on Friday but no more than anyone would.

TishaBuv · Feb 05, 2020, 03:41 PM

Went to see the EMDR therapist. Feeling a little better.

Mountaindewed · Feb 05, 2020, 06:47 PM

I can’t tell if I really do need to eat right now or if it’s just the anxiety talking. I’ve only had a can of soup since 11:30.

Deilla · Feb 06, 2020, 04:59 AM

I've been playing a game and doing chores. It helps pass the time. Sleep was difficult. Other than that, it's a good morning. Will try to meditate later.

Discombobulated · Feb 06, 2020, 04:24 PM

Okay. I had a normal okay day but a couple of hours study tonight has worn me out.

Marylin · Feb 07, 2020, 03:53 AM

I am doing ok,I got up early,did some ironing,hoovered,put towels on to wash,had a shower,sorted cats their food and sorted cat litter,put tablecloth on table and laid the table for dinner with my niece or lunch should I say when she arrives at 1pm.I am now waiting for a delivery of medicines from my pharmacy and also waiting till 9.30pm when tickets go on sale for tribute to David Bowie concert go on sale.I am purchasing two for my niece for her birthday treat for her to see the concert with a friends of hers.
I am dressed and just resting.Later after we eat my niece and I are going to mall for ice creme at Cremes the dessert place and to see the film,Birds Of Prey with Harley Quinn,after that we will have drinks at the pub.I feel good I am looking forward to the day!!!

Deilla · Feb 07, 2020, 05:14 AM

I'm not doing well this morning. Someone is triggering me. It's really upsetting. Makes me not want to come to PC anymore. I may just quit posting for a while unless it's my own thread. I have friends here, so I hate to leave. But I may just have to do that.

QuietSoul2019 · Feb 07, 2020, 11:26 AM

I'm having a hard time, today.

I thought I was done with my BPD diagnosis and on with living but I guess not.

I'm running my own business.
I make mistakes. I don't like mistakes. My clients don't give an inch. I always have to be the bigger person. I always have to back down and let them treat me like dirt. Like I'm not allowed to make mistakes. I don't make many but when I do people come down on me like I'm the scum of the earth!

Thanks! I bend over backwards to give them a ridiculous deal, I do things for them above and beyond the contract.

How many people do you know that work 8 hrs per day for $30! I guess I'm the only idiot to take that on.

Discombobulated · Feb 08, 2020, 07:46 AM

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Originally Posted by Deilla

I'm not doing well this morning. Someone is triggering me. It's really upsetting. Makes me not want to come to PC anymore. I may just quit posting for a while unless it's my own thread. I have friends here, so I hate to leave. But I may just have to do that.

Do what you need to do for your own well being, there is an 'ignore user' function on PC, if you put someone on ignore you won't see their threads or posts when you are logged in.

Discombobulated · Feb 08, 2020, 07:47 AM

I am doing just fine. I got my exam done yesterday, it gave me anxiety but I coped with it.

Now I am enjoying less study for a while and reading for pleasure again which is wonderful!

Marylin · Feb 09, 2020, 01:54 PM

I am doing good.Yesterday my narc sister lied to me about something important to me so I blocked her,I have cut her out of my life completely and am no contact with her.I am happy about it.I have not lost a sister I have lost an enemy who has caused me a great deal of harm and at some stage actually tried to kill me.So it is a gain not a loos,I am happy,I feel free,liberated and I feel safe and strong.In the past I would have felt abandoned and lost and fearful if this had happened that I'd be unable to survive.I was very vulnerable and she use to slam the door and walk away as if she had abandoned me forever then she would suck me back in to use and abuse me again.Now I am the bigger person and can walk away and not care,I know she is a bad person and always harms me and abuses me.So I had to cut her off and go 100% no contact and protect myself from interpersonal conflict and abuse.I did the right thing and I am happy now.So I am coping well today.

Deilla · Feb 10, 2020, 01:32 AM

I am doing well this morning. I did a heart-brain coherence meditation with my cat. When she's in my arms, I feel a lot of appreciation and gratitude.

Discombobulated · Feb 10, 2020, 04:21 PM

I am doing okay today although I was amidst a lot of conflict- other people's not mine.

I am fine though and talked it through with my H and we watched comedy together.

nikon · Feb 13, 2020, 10:32 AM

I am coping better at this moment that I was earlier today but in general I'm not coping well at the moment. When I get frustrated it jumps from 0 to 60 in a second and then

Possible trigger:

I immediately want to hurt myself, kill myself, or do something destructive to discharge the feeling

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I am visiting friends this evening and these friends are currently a source of a lot of stress. I feel anxious that I might snap and say how I'm really feeling. I feel extremely alone and the only way I can cope a lot of the time is - I think - deliberately trying to dissociate. I pretend I'm not here, pretend I don't exist, blank everything out, try to be nothing. I don't know if that's dissociating.

Marylin · Feb 13, 2020, 02:14 PM

I am struggling today am barely coping.Just getting through.I want to bury myself in bed curl up in a ball and sleep,hibernate and night and all day!

Deilla · Feb 13, 2020, 03:27 PM

I'm anxious today. My living room blinds are jammed up where the cord is to close them. They are currently open. I have no way to shut them unless maintenance comes to fix it. If they don't, I'll have no privacy. Everyone will be able to see into my apartment. I could get on a ladder and try to fix it myself. I'm just afraid I'll fall. The apartment people don't see this as important. They may not come by today. Makes me very anxious.