How are you coping today? #3

I mean, I’m coping...

I think I’m starting to wear people out even though that is not my intention and people say it’s not just me that’s the issue. I just feel like I’m to blame for everything.

I’m in between blaming and denying today. Blaming myself about stuff and denying other stuff.

None of my coping skills are working today.

Some difficulties today but I guess I'm managing pretty good.

Today I had a peaceful day,I recovered from the effects on me of the argument with my niece.I was able to go ahead with a zoom therapy session with my psychologist after I tried to cancel it cos I didn't feel I'd be able to talk.I expressed my feelings and frustrations to me psychologist,she understood me and was supportive,so after talking to her I felt I had unloaded my fears and feelings of rejection and feeling abandoned.

So right now I am feeling better and I feel good that for the next couple of days I can be at home peaceful and getting my chores done.I am glad to be in my own company and am enjoying the solitude.I am also looking forward to christmas.The depression is still hovering and my moods do go low,but Its nothing new,I just have to get through the black clouds and wait until the light reemerges and it will that much is certain.I did feel lethargic and unmotivated today.It is now gone midnight and before I get in bed there is a massive pile of dirty dished in the kitchen sink that I want to wash and dry and put away first.So well I am coping and got through today.

Thank you. You are right, and I know it in the moment, but my emotions take over. It’s been long term and pervasive over the same issues to the point of gaslight maddening. Otherwise, I probably would be okay about non major disappointments.

Thank you for sending good thoughts, I do need to have more of those!

I seem to be doing ok today. Mainly I could use more sleep for energy.

I'm coping Okay today. I have a lot on my plate but I mainly want to relax today. So I will tell myself to work for 15 minutes, then break for an hour. And so on until I have a handle on things.

There is always time.

I had a few flight or fight moments this morning. Also one thought of “I’m going to throw up.” But I don’t think I did as badly as I feel like I did.

Chicken soup and chocolate

Today I am doing a lot better than normally do most days. I usually get the rush feeling starting from my feet working it’s way up and in my chest I get anxious and get shaky and my anxiety start to fire up and I start to over think thing in my mind which to my self are my outcomes of what I assume is happening with a person and I just lock my self and don’t talk to anyone I keep to my self because that emotion was triggered and it is one of the worst feelings I have ever felt . Working on my self and emotions. It takes a lot to admit it.

I'm having a difficult morning. I'm not sleeping well and I've been stress-eating. I tried to distract myself with a game, but I'm not really interested in it. I'm bored and vaping a lot. So I'm not coping well.

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I did good today. I didn’t go to my afternoon group because I had no idea I signed up for an afternoon group that would start 10 minutes after talking on the phone. And I was super burned out as it is. I am in a **** ton of pain right now and I wish I had some sleeping meds but I can’t take them and I need to just manage things on my own. I have tylenol that I was told I could take so I’ll probably take a couple.

I feel tired no.I went to bed early last night,early for me, 10pm.I slept until 2.30am,got up and ate toast.Was awake for an hour then slept again until 6am.Then I cleaned the carpets.It was with dry powder,you sprinkle it over the carpets,brush it in with a brush and then vacumn.The carpets are much fresher and brighter and smell good.That activity tired me out so I am going to rest until daylight before I get a bucket of soapy water and wash the walls,skirtings,doors and light switches.Then after more rest,later this afternoon the plan is for me to do some ironing.I am actually depressed,keep busy distracts me from the emotional pain,and I want to get the house spic and span for christmas.I am not going to let things slide and come across as a slob.So in a way that makes me feel better about my self.Right now as I exerted effort doing the carpets it is ok to rest up for a couple hours.Especially seeing as I can express my negativity here on the forum.

I'm struggling. I'm having a hard time sleeping and I was stress eating earlier.

I watched a really good mental health tv program this morning on KPBS. I feel encouraged.

I didn't manage to clean the walls, skirtings,doors and light switches but I will get that done tomorrow.I spent a good two hours ironing this afternoon so I am pleased to have got the bulk of the ironing done.There is a bit more to do but I am certain I will get that finished tomorrow.Also tomorrow or monday I have two boxes of old paperwork to sort through get my details erases for confidentiality and place in recycling bags.I have achieved a lot and will have got a lot done by the close of monday.There are also the usual chores to do Monday,clean the bathroom,empty bins put black bin bags out for the binmen to collect.

After the ironing today I had a rest,then I ordered a Big Mac and fries,diet coke and apple pie,Had it delivered and ate it.Just finished it.I put the heating on cos it was cold,changed into my nightie.I am wrapped in blankets and comfortable on the sofa now.Waiting for the evenings entertainment on tv to start.One of my cats,is sitting next to me the other is asleep upstairs in her basket.I texted my sister today and we had a chat.I think I coped well today,managed to distract from my depression.

Another way I coped was to make plans for next week.I am going to the food store on Tuesday to buy alcohol and also fruit to take to my mum on thursday,she likes figs.I am taking her clemintines and grapes too, a cinnamon pastry and some brandy and coke,also taking her wrapped xmas presents.I am visiting her thursday.While at the food store I will buy nuts for myself for xmas and some biscuits.I will drink tea and have a cake at the cafe there.Tuesday when I get home I have a zoom therapy session.Wedsnesday I have an appointment at the eye clinic for a glaucoma check.Thursday as I already said I am visiting my mum in her care home.Friday I have to go to my doctors surgery for a blood test,then at 4pm I am meeting my niece and we are going to see the new Wonder Woman 1984 film and having a meal at Wagamama after that.Saturday chores day.Sunday I am putting new net curtains up,new tablecloths,put up xmas tree,its a small one and sits on my pine table.Then its the run up to xmas,I am going to the cafe to hang out christmas eve,christmas day and Boxing day I am chilling out home alone with my cats.On the 27th my niece is coming to my place and we are doing a xmas day together.Meal ,drinks and desserts and open presents,watch DVDs and catch up have a laugh.

I’m not coping well today or for some time. So I decided to join this online forum. Hoping it’ll prove helpful!
Have a great day everyone!

I’ve been using TV today to distract myself and I need to ask my providers what the difference is between leisurely watching a ton of TV and watching TV to avoid things and for distraction from unhealthy thoughts and behaviors. Because I did do laundry and I took a shower. I haven’t had any unhealthy thoughts of S or SH. I’m kind of down in the dumps but I’m also super tired and in pain so I didn’t want to do anything today but watch TV. I had no other obligations either or anywhere to be.

Listening to upbeat music to try to get me to feel better emotionally.

I'm trying the best I can but doing a poor job of it. It seems like right now, I'm feeling at my lowest than I've felt in a while.

Welcome to PC, @NeedSUPPORTplease! I'm glad you decided to join. I've been helped a lot here. I wish you all the best!

I'm doing alright this morning. I've been playing my game and I had a cappuccino. I also did some meditation twice last night. I plan to meditate again when I go back to bed.

So far so good.