How are you coping today? #4

i am feeling sad. i was depressed for so many years because of my guilt over my pets so i withdrew from the world and i lost so many friends because of that. i even lost the chance to make new friends when people reached out to me wanting to be friends and i didn't reach back. people had no idea what i was going through. i am not depressed anymore. i hope i can piece my life back together.

Games and chores. Some creativity too.

Yes they are :


I have never seen one in person. I love to hear most birds but lately there have been a group of crows in our neighborhood. The sounds they make during our daily walks are not as beautiful to me as our other birds. And the swallow tailed kites are gone but I am seeing a Mississippi kite instead:

I've been trying to get back into the habit of reading

Video games and chatting with friends

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I feel horrible because my feelings were really hurt multiple times today.

I'm coping with my game.

I’ve been strangely stable for a couple days. I don’t know if it’s just the vacation. But I’m glad to be home and stuff. But I wasn’t sad leaving my hometown. I was dwelling on stuff for months and then when I was actually in the area I didn’t think much of it. I didn’t even pay attention when we drove past my old T’s office yesterday. I didn’t feel sad in my home state. My anxiety was low for the most part and it still is. Maybe I’m just in the honeymoon stage still. Or taking 30 mil of melatonin every night really ****ed with my moods for a year.

But I also ate well but not too much. But today and yesterday I ate actual good meals and I had been eating just rice cakes, cereal, goldfish crackers, ramen and zero sugar Mountain Dew for weeks.

I didn’t take any melatonin last night. I just slept naturally for the first time in over a year.

I don’t know. Maybe it’s also because I haven’t had therapy in 12 days and it was just running me down.

I been coping with my emotions by listening to self help video and meditation as well as movies.

I'm upset this evening. So I am coping by journaling and using some CBT techniques.

I think I’m coping pretty well. My moods were under control thanks to coffee. I slept in much later then I normally would. Which I guess is to be expected. I took a couple pills last night but I’ve had an exhausting last couple days on my trip. I needed the sleep. I had an incredibly painful medical exam today that I was not prepared for until it was actually about to happen. I thought it would be a different type of exam. But I think not knowing actually saved me weeks of unbearable anxiety. So it was a good thing. The exam hurt so badly but I got through it. The rest of the day I felt fine. I’m a bit sore right now from my exam. But my teeth aren’t bothering me right now. I haven’t had teeth pain all day actually. I guess it’s better that the dentist appointment go better then the doctors since I don’t have dental insurance.

I'm coping by sleeping.

I didn’t cope well today. I woke up at 2:26 after a bad night. I did take a shower because I thought I’d feel better. I brushed my teeth with my enamel repair sensitivity toothpaste and I put on clean clothes. So I did all the ADLs. Then my mom and I got into a huge fight over something stupid. Usually I’d blame this on my roid rage or stress or PMDD or whatever. But I was a complete ****** person today. The second we got home my mom called a lawyer to set up an appointment to make a will and trust. I mean I was beyond horrible to her. I apologized through text and she responded. But we haven’t talked to each other since the incident. I wasn’t happy today but I did distract myself with my podcast and my app that I use to watch TV shows on. So I was at least occupied. And I ate throughout the day. Not like yesterday when I ate and drank poorly and then it blew up in my face at night. I’ve taken 4 Valium today. But I needed the extra one.

I'm coping with sleep and games.

Thank you, @TunedOut, for the picture & all that you said.

I'm not coping today. I don't feel like playing my games. I just want to sleep.

I been feeling so angry today especially after having a really weird nightmares. I don’t know why I’m feeling so angry. I listen to several meditation and watch a few movies today just trying to calm myself down.

I mean, I’m coping. My mom and I are basically ok now. I am still being tedious with her though. I didn’t do any of the ADLs. I ate though and I did laundry. I listened to a 2 hour and 26 minute podcast and then a 1 hour and 40 minute podcast. I also watched the second episode of a spin-off of my favorite show. Then I finished the 3rd episode of another spinoff I started months ago. I haven’t quite turned off my media for today. This particular Saturday of the month is usually the worst night of the month for me. Although I’ve had 2 other really bad nights which were not Saturdays. But anyways I’m waiting until I get super tired so I can just sleep off any bad feelings or urges I may get.

I'm coping by cleaning the house and cooking.

I’m doing ok today. I just took a 4th Valium along with a melatonin. I feel kind of nauseated right now. And I had to eat dinner quickly to avoid any strange looks or comments by my family that is coming over. I’m not sure why going to my aunts and my uncles houses causes less anxiety then seeing my sister and brother in law and my nephews. They are just as accepting of me as my aunt and uncle and their significant others are.

I’m doing ok. I’m not sure what tomorrow will look like. But today I’m doing good by just trying to keep my mind occupied with positive things.

I'm coping by doing chores, reading and playing games.

I'm better at the moment.

I been watching Halloween movies about magic to help me feel a little better. Lately I been feeling really angry or I feel down without knowing why.

I'm coping with iced coffee and an e-Cigarette.