How are you coping today? #5

I'm not nauseated today so I dont need a zofran. Therapy was pretty much uneventful. I'm drinking a lot of caffeine but I'm still on track with my meds. My moods are in check for the most part. I'm hungry but I'm not at the same time. I'm just not sure for what. I'll allow myself to eat something but I'm not going to force it although I think I really may need to eat to feel better. But I just cant push myself if I'm not hungry. I think the candy craving was the vistril since I am not craving sweets anymore and before I couldnt keep my hand out of the bag.

Clinging on by my fingertips, rough day yesterday but hopefully today will be better.

I miss being in control of my life before 2016
Can't believe I ended up this bad

I almost literally don't know what happen
Just began to stay in a bed and then darkness

My journal.

I took a nap but I had 2 bad nights in a row of sleep so I guess it was ok as long as I dont fall asleep too early tonight. But last night I didnt think was all that early compared to how Tuesday night went. These bad nights are messing with everything. My anxiety was out of control for a lot of the day but I managed to get it under control partially by taking a nap. So idk. I didnt do horribly today.

Changing my schedule to sleeping before 8 p.m. (sometimes sleeping at around 5 or 6 p.m.), so that I can get some sound sleep in, wake before everyone else, do my trash, recycling, and package pickups early in the morning, maybe go for a walk with my rec rehab therapist early mornings (between 8 and 9), and then try to have a good day from there - with or without naps. I typically don't nap as much anymore, since I want to be tired by 4 p.m. onward.

Doing okay today, coping by watching Christmas movies!

I'm drinking coffee right now.

I'm not doing all that great. I was almost in tears earlier. My day just had a rather nasty turn of events and I just hate it all. I'm trying to think positive and think there must be some better days coming, but I don't know about that.

I'm trying to revamp my entire schedule. Food, meds, and sleep. Based on the changing of current events it doesn't seem like I'll be returning to work like I had planned. So I'm trying to stay up later like 9:30 instead of 6. Which means eating my last meal around 6 instead of 4. And then the last of my meds would be taken around the time I go to bed. I'm hoping this works so I can improve my diet and not wake up starving at 2:30 because I went to bed hungry at 6. And so my anxiety is better under control so I'm not so dependent on my meds.

But I coped well. I'm not stressing too much about the news. I have been keeping my freezer well stocked and I got my haircut a bit earlier then usual in case I'm not able to in a couple weeks. But thats just being prepared not really panicking

Overall today was good mainly because I slept well and then everything else followed along.

Using DBT and CBT.

Accepting what is - the NEW NORM!

I'm sad and trying to distract myself the best way I can, just anything that would help when little seems to help how I'm feeling.

Dear @modestlychee6463, you sound the way I feel. I know how painful that is. You are not alone, not by a long ways. It hurts so much! God bless you, dear person who is our friend, because we need each other. Thank you so very much for being here!

Thank you. It made me feel better in a twisted sense to read about other people in a forum who received insulting gifts. Then I had to stop reading. I'd love to throw this past week away.

How I'm coping today:
1. Using these forums.
2. Emailing my T (which I don't think I've done yet today, but I plan to; she doesn't respond, but she will read them and get back to me at our next session).
3. Internal family systems coping for my DID/dissociation.
4. Grounding techniques to feel safe, present.
5. Social support via texting, emails, and this online group.
6. Reading affirming news that helps keep me safe, protected, informed.
7. Finding distractions such as house chores, reruns of "Good Witch", updating my spreadsheets, cleaning out my emails, playing games here and through the NYT's app.
8. Searching for a new bird that begins with "U" and then responding to one of the threads here. That involves learning something new, which helps my brain cope with brain fog.
9. Relaxing intermittently, to help me cope with mobility problems, CFS/ME, autoimmune responses, anxiety, depression, thyroid issues, prediabetes.
10. Doing exercise and fun snacks to help break up the monotony and loneliness of my days, and to give me ways to burn some calories and work towards healing my overall body.
11. Stating positive affirmations to myself to help build my self-confidence, self-esteem, and efficacy.
12. Doing small tasks and accomplishing them, so as to help me to build mastery, and then efficacy and confidence and esteem.
13. Balancing my true emotional expressions with pacing and containing coping, and imagining a safe box to put our worries in (or a safe email to express them to our therapist), until we speak with our therapist next.
14. Helping others internally and externally, and allowing others internally and externally to help me, in order to feel a sense of empathy, to receive empathy, to feel connected, to feel belonged, to feel less lonely, to feel part of community, to feel less rejection, to feel less abandonment.

I'm not coping well. I'm crying.

Today is one of my ''better'' days

Hugs and respect

I cant tell if I'm doing good and handling things well or am just so overwhelmed I've checked out and I'm heading for a breakdown.

Basically there was this shooting plus all this covid **** going on, yet I feel strangely abnormally fine and not effected by things.

I did get a decrease in my meds that seems to be helping. so idk. Maybe I'm legit doing ok. I havent had any SH thoughts in several days. These feelings are just confusing me.

With food.

I'm not coping very well right now. I hope to get myself back up on the horse really soon. God bless all of you!

Hoping you’re feeling back up on the horse soon @breakingdawn

I’m doing okay today, I’m in covid self isolation but not really unwell so just coping with being indoors all of the time as normally I go out most days. I’m spending a lot of time looking at my Christmas tree lights and it’s strangely calming and relaxing.

Today I'm coping by giving away gifts and meeting my friends outside for a little bit. It really helps to see people in person, even though we're masked. We're all boosted, too. Outdoors is safe - cold, but safer than indoors.

Awe, Breaking Dawn, I hope you feel better

I did great until I heard 5 minutes of the news. Now I've spent about $130 I didn't actually have online on groceries and hygiene stuff and I am nauseated with anxiety and fear of the unknown.

I already took a 4th valium and I am also going to take a zofran.