How are you coping today? #6

Ugh. My neighbor is spraying perfume again. I can smell it in my apt. She's also been yelling. And its none of my business of course, it just distracted me from reading.

Yesterday I used my skills like a champion, for the win!

Speaking of champions, I want to watch the Olympics.

I tried my best but some things were a bit out of my control. My moods were ok. My anxiety was a mess. My depression was off and on. My self esteem and self worth have been very good lately after my weight loss and appetite reduction. I have not felt the best physically though.

Basically I'm just trying to control what I can.

I did really good up until 1PM maybe. Then my moods dipped and my anxiety got bad and I got pretty down in the dumps. I didn't really handle things badly though. My mom said I did pretty good.

I'm doing ok. I have lots of time on my hands now but need to move out of here. Argh! So, I need to pack and do a lot of other things. Well, I have negative symptoms so will do it tomorrow hopefully.

I’m deeply concerned about the political situation in my country. But I know I’m not alone with that.

How I’m coping is focusing on day to day life, so today I worked and that was grounding, then I went to volunteer after a 2 month wait because of infection rates being high here for a while. I was actually a bit nervous about volunteering, I notice loss of confidence even in that short time, but I still wanted to go which was good. The group was good, and I’m hopeful we can continue to meet up from now on.

Today I felt a bit tired, and my pain flared up, work was very full on too.

I visited my parents afterwards which was nice and then had to rush home to make food, eat and ready to sleep - one of those rushing about kind of days. It’s probably good that I don’t have time to overly dwell, that’s an unhealthy trait of mine. It’ll be nice to have some free time though.

Coping using distraction when I can.

I am doing well today after the med fiasco finally got fixed. I couldn't wait until it was ready after 11 though and I just went into the pharamacy when they opened at 9 and just asked them right then to fill it. Which they did. I don't think I sent any huge red flags to anyone. I did end up only get it filled 2 days early. And I think the reason I have not been hungry and am losing weight is because when I do get hungry I have been eating legit meals instead of snacking. So instead of rushing off to the doctor again I should just take a closer look at my food log.

I wish I could say that I read all the posts here, but I am quite sure I lack concentration. I have had a mixed episode today. I am very sensitive to chemicals - even smoking. I smoke a lot of ciggies and I know it messes up my mood. How have you handled the mood swings? Any help would be appreciated.

I stopped being able to cope years ago. I'm just gong on by inertia
I hate myself for what i've been when young but can't turn the page
I used to start so many projects in chaotic and childish way that it's hard to believe
I ruined life of people i was supposed to love
I dont know

I was doing bad but I am starting to move past things. I just am nauseated once again. My mom is cleaning the litter box so that might be it. I started using my fabric spray on my blankets and pillow cases the other day so I'm wondering if I am just having issues with that stuff in general.

I’m trying to figure out how to be happy with my life by trying to figure out how to heal my wounds.

I was feeling bad for being disowned. But, I will be ok. Life has its ups and downs. I am free here and nobody bothers me. I could feel sorry for myself. But, I'm actually happier being on my own. I just need to find another job again. I quit my other job since I thought my mother would help me. Oh well, never go on promises never kept by others. I will survive but it is hard to do everything on my own.

I avoided two planned things today. Maybe I should stop planning to go to yoga on Saturday, I never feel like going. The other was a volunteer thing I wasn't keen on / was kind of nervous about.

I started taking an increased dose of my ad starting yesterday. I *am* feeling better-ish, though yesterday it made me tired. It didn't make me tired today.

Its freezing here.

I'm an avoider, too. And I always feel bad about myself when I end up doing that. It's a sad decision for me.

I'm allergic to the ''meds'' I avoid too.... try not to blame yourself too much. Maybe tomorrow will be better. Paws crossed

I feel terrible after I avoid. Its not a healthy coping mechanism for me. I've gotten better at not avoiding, over the years, with hard work, but lately I have been slipping.


Hugs, Dawn.

Thanks so much for the kind words and encouragement Fuzzy. I really appreciate it. Not sure if you were posting to Dawn or me, but reading what you said was helpful.


Hugs.

God bless you, my friends! Your kind of people help me feel I'm not alone. I will keep trying. I have succeeded before, so I know it's possible. And I wish the very best for you!

I'm busy revamping my resume. But, it is tiring. I have to really work on it. I found some leads and am working on sending out my applications. It took me about three hours to find three jobs that are doable. Oh well, I am slow. I have to work on sending out my applications probably tomorrow when I can concentrate. I am so tired from going out to see my psychdoc. He told me to return in a month or sooner. I am stressed out but will survive.

@bpforever1, you are magnificent!

even worse than yesterday.... and yesterday was super bad!

apparently it gets worse..

Have been working extra so that has been something to cope with, it’s actually been okay. I’m eating too much chocolate though, and that isn’t in alignment with my aim to lose a few lbs and get fitter. But it’s February so cutting myself some slack.

Mostly I'm using distraction.

I have feelings of self-doubt. I'm wondering if I heard what the interviewer said today. I have an interview but am unconfident in my abilities. It is nerve-wracking to be so nervous. Oh well, such is my life!