How are you coping today? #7

I been forcing myself : to get out of bed

I've been playing my game to cope. It helps.

I woke up at 1PM and since then I have made way on my "leather" notebook that is line-less. I am trying to transform it into a bullet journal with calendars.

I made myself do some things. I feel kind of lost.

I'm not coping well at all. My life is falling apart around me, one bit at a time, and I about to lose it... I could lose my home soon. I am beside myself with upset and angst.

I been paying attention to my :confused my feelings and really feeling them.

I am well, but at the same time not well.

I have to get voted permission to move out in my rehab, and I am dreading it because I really don't want to be held up again like I was last month.

Today was an easy day and I rewarded myself with a Coke Zero Cherry

I am overwhelmed!
My wife got diagnosed with Parkinson’s march 1st. We have had to go to numerous doctor’s visits, for her and for myself... I am always lethargic, trying to keep up with chores, but we’re falling behind all the time, which, for my ADD brain, it means If I cannot do it perfectly I can’t do it at all... I probably should not highjack this thread with all of this...
So, I am coping to day by trying to stay positive (had my doc appointment today, and went well... she suggested to cut back on Trazodone...we’ll see how that goes...)
We will probably binge on Netflix Series, and not give a **** about the state of the household...

Anyway, thanks for the thread and thanks for letting me ramble...

I been keeping :hug myself busy

I just took it easy today.

Not too well, I guess. Plus I really don't want to see my mother tonight. I don't like her.

Having a real hard day. It's been a while since I felt this way. I am really struggling to stay awake and function.

Sad & scared but hanging in there & planning a needed trip to grocery store.

I managed to shower. That's a start. Next - some lunch. Then . . . taxes.

I made myself go up to the stairs as a way to exercise.

Hope you got your trip done okay Breaking Dawn - and that you’re doing well today. Sending hugs.

We were out of state yesterday and Thursday. Today my mom was around my sisters family and my brother in laws parents. They are all at a cub scout spaghetti dinner. Next week would be the time to get covid again. I'm not too worried. Mainly I'm just wondering how big of an interaction there is between bentyl and pepcid because my heartburn has been so bad for days I'm worried its starting to damage my throat or stomach lining.

I'm coping on this day by lazing around and being extra-genius about it. I am being so fruitful on my search of items I want to utilize 'for life'. This has been items like clothes, websites, apps, TV and movies. I guess I want to cherish these items for life. I feel like I am going to reap the rewards later because I am going to be so happy with my life.

I walked around a festival today by myself so grateful to be enjoying the day. There were countless days ruined for me with sadness, depression, emotional dysregulation caused within a bad marriage. I told myself today is my liberation.

I had to ignore my other sister

Not very well. I suppose it’s a stages of grief thing. I spent the entire weekend crying, and now I’m shifting into so angry I could bite a car in half.

I'm just not pushing myself very hard. Today I relaxed.

I was coping by writing in my therapy room. But that didn't work out. My therapist was no support and ignored me. So I am crying to cope.