How are you coping today? #7

Everytime I get overwhelmed I remind myself that everyone was a beginner once. I’m just the least experienced person with the most to learn

: finally realizing why my family are the way they are by reading and almost finishing “It didn’t start with you how we inherited our trauma”

I feel like lashing out!

I’m listening to the rain pouring down and feeling calm. A lot of things going on but it seems like a lull right now. I reached out to a few people I trust today, that was helpful.

I’m doing crosswords during the slow moments at work and it’s keeping my lil brain constructively occupied.

Did quite a few chores this afternoon which makes me feel better. Cooking, ironing, laundry, husband’s appointment sorting, taxi booking.

Work has been steady busy and I don’t mind it a bit since I enjoy the tasks my job entails—their repetition is soothing me.

Not doing good today, but I did a little yard work to help steady myself.

that is great advice : agree: : goodpost:

Not doing great, i went out this morning but now i'm not motivated to do anything at all

Woke up early, but stayed in bed reading. Been crying. Combination of depression and grief. I'm visiting family. We bury my brother in a few days. I have to pull myself together. I used to love visiting family. Now I'm finding it hard to be away from home. I don't want to be a bad guest. So I have to stop this emotionalism.

I love the word "sort"! Thats how i wrote my calendar to-do list this week. It is easy to change "Sort" to "Sorted" and draw a (blank) line under it!

I am anxious... so I'm doing the 4-7-8 breathing technique.

Wow!! My above post was triple 8... guess I should buy a lotto ticket... lol

... joke...

I’m forcing myself to deal with my trauma by reading self help books

Husband had big medical appointment this afternoon, he seems to be handling it okay but there was some big stuff to handle. Staff seemed good at least and I guess I coped partly by having a good chat with a very pleasant lady in the waiting room area.

Cleaned up my house a bit today, I've been neglectful, especially to my toilet, so yeah that needed to get done, lol. Feeling pretty good although a bit concerned about my sleeping. I fear mania so much, but I must not let my fear interfere with my happiness.

Counting the minutes before my boss leaves for the day. They felt compelled to go into exhaustive detail about their weekend, even going into great detail about a documentary about Sylvester Stallone they watched. I’m thinking “Do I look like I care?” Then they asked me about my weekend and I said “It was completely boring and I loved it.” No lie. End of story!

Also, one of our customers asked me if I have OCD. That gave me pause. Good times!

I hate the weekend question at work! You have a good answer, I’ll try that.

Not doing good today, i mananged to take a shower this morning but that's it

Depressed and want to cry today. Nothing to say about it.

Doing better today.

it took me many many years to find ways to cope with my guilt over my mom's and my pets' deaths. i was only able to put the mom one on the back burner because i know she would not want me to be so miserable for so long. recently however, i made the mistake of sharing a bit of what happened to a coworker. he said 'so you killed your mom'. he was trying to make a joke. i didn't kill her, just wish i had made different choices which might have helped her live longer. with his one comment though, i was sent reeling again. i know eventually i will be able to cope again but some days it's hard. i quit my job (not because of this) so i hope i will never see that coworker again.

Up and down, I feel like I’m a terrible person and wife today, I’m probably not as bad as I feel but it’s how I feel.

I’m coping by tuning out.