How are you coping today? #7

I didn’t cope too well today, I ran home and hid on the internet

I’m trying :hug to heal the :sadhug my emotional wounds from past emotional and physical abuse

Keeping super busy.

I’m reading a funny book.

Dreams

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Watching self help videos and reading self help books

Well I listened to Tara Brach, did a little bit of mantra meditation, fell asleep, ate Chinese takeaway because I'm too tired to exist and now watching a depressing documentary Ordinary Men.

I hung out with a good friend today and that helped ground me.

Glad to hear you are well - - I am having a pretty difficult day.

Realizing that my marriage is pretty broken down due to spouse emotional abuse - -

looking at next steps - which is scary.

Quite badly all things considered

The Chronic pain doesn't help much

I like Tara Branch mediation too

Ah.. at last our cave is almost free from the absolute chaos that has been almost a constant for a month. I've been surviving, barely at times. No freaking privacy, small cramped living space (but nowhere near as bad as when the parental units were ..... abusing me....) and more.

I've been ''coping'' by isolating.. never my most ''healthy'' ''coping'' mechanism. But I survived it. And my bear puts two fingers up to those judgers who loved to try to define me with their inane, mean spirited and WRONG venom. Oops. I respect my Bear, she speaks the truth. She isn't gentle because none of the abusers were gentle with her, but she is fair.



I wanted to post a bit, especially to reply to some PMs... I just didn't have the energy after ''coping'' with the .... ugh. I still am behind with emails, PMs etc. (and my pm box is almost full again. I've been thinking of (many) people here though.

Good post. I'm also trying to heal my emotional wounds from the psychological, emotional and also other abuse I've experienced

It takes time to heal. I’m working with my therapist on my anger.

I am coping well, although long term I will need more therapy to deal with recent events.


I am watching the Crappy Childhood Fairy on YouTube. I never thought of myself as having CPTSD despite intense childhood abuse from my mother, because I went for weekly counselling for a few years in my early 20s. As if a once-a-week counselling session can "cure" years of abuse!!! I am realizing I am still traumatized and certain behaviours reveal it. I'm lucky to have a good marriage.

I'm also realizing that I need to limit my social exposure to women with children. Mothers tend to judge childless women, especially those who are married but chose not to have kids. I do have one close friend who is a single mom and does not see me as selfish or somehow privileged (she also knows me well enough to know I have had to be a caretaker many times for my disabled husband). But other than her, it seems like some women may judge me and I just don't need that in my life.

Honestly it amazes me that anyone would feel like they have the right to judge anyone else's life choices. I would NEVER judge someone for having kids, and I should not be judged for not having them.

Today, I slept until 12 pm and ate a great lunch of some Mexican thing my Mom made a few days ago. I also ate dinner and I think I'm in a content place. This is great because now I know how perfect it is when I get some good sleep and eat some ****.

Doldrums today, work was just bleurgh and our fab deputy is leaving us which I’m sad about. And added to that it’s tipping down with rain and I have a headache so painkillers cup of tea and snooze on the sofa is my coping today.

I really slept well but I hope it doesn’t backfire on me. I stayed up until 2am them fell asleep quickly and deeply until 10 am.

I am doing well. I slept through the night for two nights in a row!!! First time in months this has happened. And I got at least 8-9 hours of sleep.

I’m glad that you’re almost free. You deserve it

I watch crappy childhood fairy too. People can be so cruel.

Still feeling physically bleurgh but today felt better as my favourite colleague was in. Then I volunteered after work and that is always a joy.

I am doing well. My anxiety has been lower these days. I have challenges (money, feel like I can't adult/life some days) but everything has been pretty even keel.

I sang a little and I at two breakfasts. Chicken and Wild Rice Soup and a Jimmy Dean Breakfast. We had potato soup for dinner plus grilled ham sandwiches. But I cannot even remember if I ate lunch!

I been feeling emotionally numb