Scared *****trigger*****

I am so afraid of what is going on around me right now darn - I don't even know what to say

I am lost, alone and afraid....so much for me trying to be strong - that blew away in the wind.

I am trying to reach out and not being here lately doesn't help.....sigh

Heather, i'm sorry that you're scared and hurt. please continue to post because there are some really good people here. what is scaring you the most? pat

Heather! I am sorry you are so scared and feeling alone I have been thinking of you and like ozzie said there are a lot of people here who care about you. I will be around to make sure you keep posting now! (I can be a real pest lolol)

(((((((((((((((((((Heather))))))))))))))))))))

xoxo
Fuzzy

(((((((((Pat Susan Fuzzy)))))))))))

Thank you for caring.

It seems like everything is building up and I don't know what to do.

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Mike tried to take his life here the other night...thankfully he didn't. I am going through *ell right now..he is gone to get help and I am left to pick up the pieces

I was able to stop him - how.. I have no idea - my 2 sons were sleeping and all I wanted to do was to protect them. I am so afraid....angry that he would try to do this around us...is this normal? Am I supposed to be angry? scared? am I afraid of how I feel? I have built a wall around me because of him....we are not together anymore - why would he do this to me?

(((Heather)))))))))New Friend, yes?

I am sad that you feel so down right now; here brings forth another day w/ the innocent sun.........I just wanted to tell you I adore your "Quote"....one of my favorites!! And, glad you're hooked back up w/ the rest of us looney-tunes here! Afterall, "Home is where the is"

Correct? Good, sun's up gotta go to (((((((((((((((DAYZEE9)))))))))))))))))

Heather,

I am so sorry you are going through this. What a terrible burden to have to deal with. I think your fear and anger are perfectly normal.

Try to think about the fact that you were able to stop him...that took some incredible strength on your part. You have such a strong soul, and I know you will make it through...just lean on the ones who love you here to help you through this.

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Heather}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Love,
Jo

I was just thinking of you the other day, hadn't seen you around and was wondering how you are.
Gee, I am sorry to hear you are going through all of this, I pray for you and the kids things will start to improve ASAP.
Always, keep in mind we are here for you, if that is any comfort for you.

Love,
DE

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((((((((Dayzee)))))))))

Thank you for your inspiring note....it means a lot to me.

Yes tomorrow is another day.....it can only get better right?

(((((((((Jo))))))))))

I find it so hard to be angry....it feels like such a waste of energy but right now? it's anger I have never felt before in my life...that bothers me but you are right - I am allowed to be angry that he would do this.

My friend told me that I showed strength talking him out of it too...I will try to see it that way...all I know is that I was so afraid of what he was going to do...my sons mean everything to me and I am sure my instinct took over.

You are such a dear friend....thank you for being there for me.

Love you xoxo

(((((((((((DE))))))))))))

I've been thinking of you as well.

This brings me so much comfort - thank you. I am trying to find the positive in all of this...mind you it is difficult.

He is entering a detox (for gambling addicts) program tomorrow morning so he won't be able to contact me for at least 2 weeks. When I think of what he has done to us this past year...oh man

Thank you sweetie and please take care of yourself too.

xoxo

Oh D.E. I am thinking bout ya

YOU BET!!!

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((((DAYZEE))))
Rest gently tonight........

i'm really glad that Mike is going into rehab...now, please take care of yourself and your children....you will feel so much better if you "pamper" yourself for awhile. you showed great strength in keeping Mike safe. i'm sorry that you had to go through it and am very relieved that you and children are okay now.

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xoxox
Fuzzy

(((((((heather)))))))

I'm sorry you're feelin' this way...I can relate.

((((((((Fayerody)))))))))))

Thank you so much. He is in rehab/detox now...you are right - now is the time to take care of me. I wish I knew where to start though sigh oh well - one day at a time right?

xoxo

((((((((((Fuzzy))))))))))))

Thank you my sweet dear sis.

Love you xoxo

((((((((Cat_eye))))))))))

Thank you so much. You have been through this too.....it is so difficult to put into words how we feel isn't it? One minute we are focused on something else completely different and then boom - this jumps right into our thoughts...what works? time?

I am finding it hard because our son is not handling things very well. He is turning 4 in a couple of weeks and I find that he is taking out some of his frustration on me and his brother. He was always a happy little guy and lately I am finding him having his angry moments.....he has been hitting his brother (my oldest), etc. I am trying so hard to keep a balance with everything...its tough.

Thank you again for understanding.

xoxo

((((((heather)))
Keep on keeping on! I know the days seem long and the nights seem dark. It is okay to feel how you feel! Our feelings are never wrong. Keep working it out, and take care of yourself and the kids.
We are here for you!

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My thoughts and prayers are with you.

How did I miss this?? {{{{{{{{{{{{{{Heather}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I'm so sorry, Hun! You know me; straight to the point. Maybe you should think of putting a restraining order on him. Your boys don't need to be witnesses to that kind of crap. Mike is an adult no matter what state of mind he's in. The boys are still forming their values, etc. Remember what Jill told us, children of suicide victims tend to be suicidal, too.

It's okay to let someone else be strong when you can't but it never crossed my mind that you wouldn't have the strength to deal with something like this. It's tougher than hell, but you can do it!

I read where you called Fuzzy "Sis." "Momma" is still here if you want her, ok? {{{{{{{{{{{{{Heather}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Heather}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Just letting you know that I'm thinking about you and praying for you and the boy's safety.

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Yes, you most certainly are! If you didn't feel anger towards him and the situation, I'd be worried about you! He's violated not only YOUR boundaries but he's horribly tried to violate the kids boudaries. He has no right to do that!

Because of his state of mind, he wasn't thinking logically. All he could think of was to "share" his pain with those he knows care about him... even his own baby. !!!??? That's how selfish and illogical people get when they get suicidal.

Hope you can get back really soon and see that all of us still care very much for you. You're not alone, Sweety.

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Heather}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} There's another hug for you.

((((((((((Sj)))))))))

Thank you sweetie. I am sorry for not responding sooner but I didn't have my internet for a few days.

Keep on keeping on....I like that ...thank you

xoxo

((((((((((Jenifer)))))))))))

Thank you for your kind thoughts and prayers...they mean so much to me.

xoxo