[lost_lonely]

I am such a loser. I just tried to call the crisis hotline, three times. I want help so bad, but once they answer, I feel like I'm not even worth their time and hung up. What is wrong with me? Between the severe depression and the never-ending money problems, I feel like I'm falling. Moving away from everything, my old town, all my old trouble spots, the part of my past that I just want to forget ever existed, didn't solve anything. I thought I could start over, be happy again, but it's not working. All I do is cry, and I'm so tired of it. I'm so upset right now, I can barely articulate my thoughts. I need to find help fast.

Thanks for listening, I just had to say this to someone.

Ok, first remember that you're loved here. Now that I've said that I'll type the REAL reply... I just wanted to get this one out fast.

Ry

You're far from a loser. That's the illness talking. I know that voice cause I hear it myself... sometimes several times a day with my rapid cycling. You sound like you're in need of desperate help. I think the help line would be the best thing. You ARE worth their time. You're worth the time I'm taking to write this letter to you. I do it freely and with no regret. I've not had the opportunity to get to know you well yet, but I was looking forward to it. It sounds like you're taking steps to heal, but sometimes that's not enough. Are you in therapy? On meds? If not, those would help I think. They have been my savior. The thing right now is to get you save. If you want, feel free to PM me and I'll help in whatever way I can. Please be safe. If you're in trouble, remember how cared for you are right now and please call the hotline. I'm sending my faith and prayers your way. Let us help. Be safe.

Ry

[somebodyelse]

(((((lost_lonely))))) you ARE worth the time of those people at the crisis hotline. Call them again, even if you don't know what to say.

The first time I called anyone, they asked me how they could help me and all I could do was cry, "I don't know".
Still, they managed to help me, because they are trained to help people talk about their problems. They put me in touch with my t, as a matter of fact, and told him that I needed to be seen quickly.

[jmo531]

(((((((((((((((lost and lonely)))))))))))))))

YOU ARE SO WORTH IT!! I know how it feels to call the crisis hotline. I have done it plently of times myself. It's not an easy thing to do. Reaching out for help has always been difficult for me. I read your post and want you to know how incredibly strong and courageous you are. Moving away from everything you have ever known. I couldnt do that. Only the strong could do that. Your not giving yourself enough credit for the accomplishments your have made. Dont lose sight of those. I also think that Ryan was on the right track as far as Therapy and medication also. This has helped me so much. Being able to talk about my depression and anxiety is a huge weight lifted off. However, it is a slow process. And frustrating, but we are here for you and you can always count on the love and support we have to offer you here. PM me anytime if needed. OK. Take good care of yourself. Much Love!!

[Wants2Fly]

Hello Lost_Lonely --

Of course you are "worth it." It's the disease talking that tells you differently. I suspect that all of us who use this Forum know that nasty voice.

It was very courageous to start over again. I tried to start over again in New Orleans and wound up coming back to Florida after 5 months. Not there's anything wrong with Florida, but I had wanted a fresh start away from here.

Wishing you better days.

[CedarS]

I agree with what everyone else is saying. Crisis lines can really help, and they are accustomed to a wide range of responses. Some of us maybe for now can only cry and listen to them, maybe we get out a word or two. Another time maybe we can talk and hear more.

The folks who work crisis lines want to help, they want to assist us. They are a great resource ready for us to use. They know the power of simply being with us, listening, and they know what questions to ask.

For me, it works to just go ahead and say whatever it is to the crisis worker on the other end. "I feel like %#@&#!." "I feel hopeless." "I feel worthless, like I don't even deserve your help, your time." "Help." "All I can do is cry, I am so depressed, I need help."

I've used crisis lines often in the past. My symptoms being flashbacks, fear, anxiety, grief, disassociation, and more. Occasionally the worker and I just don't click at all, yet I use what I can get. Other times, it's exactly what I need.

Often when I call I don't really fully know what is going on with me. By talking things through, getting another perspective, some light is shown, and I possibly even find some answers. I'll always recall the worker who said "I think your meds are doing this, you are having side effects." She turned out to be exactly right.

Sarah