[justinj3x3]

I have depression real bad....I have been going through a break up, which is very hard because there is nothing wrong with the relationship. We love each other and make each other happy. I don't eat....I get real tired early but cant sleep good and wake up at all hours of the night....I have no $ to go out and no friends to keep me company....I sit in my apartment and do nothing but think.....I try to read or watch tv...but my brain just keeps going and I cant pay attention.....so I sit here on my couch..day in and day out...doing nothing....thinking.....I cant keep doing this but I don't know what to do and dont think I have the motivation to do it if I knew...

[leacon]

Do you have any way to see a doctor? You really should see a psychiatrist, but I do understand if say you do not have the money. If you can not see a psychiatrist, you may at least be able to see a regular doctor and get an anti-depressant. You should also try to get some counseling. Again you may have the restriction of money. Sometimes you can get help for low or no cost. Sounds as if you are depressed and really should try to get help before things get worse. Sitting in your apartment staring at the walls will only send you deeper into depression. Good Luck and keep posting.

[justinj3x3]

Thanks...don't know why but your post made me cry....maybe its because of how hopeless I feel...and yes $ is very tight and I don't even have insurance because of that exact reason....I'm not sure if there is anywhere I can go for help around here that would be free, but that is the only way I could seek help right now....

[leacon]

You can look for support groups in your area. Some may have a five dollar charge. Try calling a help line. They sometimes have resources they can refer you to. As I have heard before, if you have a pulse you have hope. Please check whatever you can before you say it is hopeless,

[ariellah89]

I feel your pain, justinj. Things have been really tough lately. Everything is exhausting and motivation to change is basically not an option. Also, I keep on trying to get a job but for some reason it's not happening for me. I would say try something that's been helping me: I pick tasks that aren't serious but require active thinking, like online crosswords or playing scrabble for free online. maybe you could also try channeling your energy into running or something that will physically exhaust you, to help you sleep. These are some zero cost options to maintain some semblance of normalcy. wish i could help more.

[kebsfroggy]

Originally Posted by justinj3x3

I have depression real bad....I have been going through a break up, which is very hard because there is nothing wrong with the relationship. We love each other and make each other happy. I don't eat....I get real tired early but cant sleep good and wake up at all hours of the night....I have no $ to go out and no friends to keep me company....I sit in my apartment and do nothing but think.....I try to read or watch tv...but my brain just keeps going and I cant pay attention.....so I sit here on my couch..day in and day out...doing nothing....thinking.....I cant keep doing this but I don't know what to do and dont think I have the motivation to do it if I knew...

I know these feelings all so well. Leacon was right you need to seek professional help.

As a frog of little brain, the only suggestion I can give is . . .
write it down. Every little thought, don't analyze any, just write it down.
I can even count how many of the cheap spiral note books I filled. Each day is a different page but that is the only rule. Sometimes it was only one word and other times I wrote a novel.

I've never gone back to read what I wrote. But once I wrote the thought down I didn't have to think it again. I'm sure some of those thoughts were written over and over. But once written I was able to move on. And I still write down those thoughts when things get bad.



kebs

Originally Posted by justinj3x3

I have depression real bad....I have been going through a break up, which is very hard because there is nothing wrong with the relationship. We love each other and make each other happy. I don't eat....I get real tired early but cant sleep good and wake up at all hours of the night....I have no $ to go out and no friends to keep me company....I sit in my apartment and do nothing but think.....I try to read or watch tv...but my brain just keeps going and I cant pay attention.....so I sit here on my couch..day in and day out...doing nothing....thinking.....I cant keep doing this but I don't know what to do and dont think I have the motivation to do it if I knew...

hey man, i know exactly what you goin through. we have lots of things in common. i just broke up with my girlfriend recently, we've been dating for almost 3 years and now its gone just like that. im easily get tired myself, i sleep in the morning and wake up before dark. currently jobless. my $ is very tight too, sometimes my depression just making me crazy, i cant think clearly / wisely as a man, i use the $ for unimportant things just to get me out of depression, which is very wrong but i just cant help it, and of course the depression never go away, my money does. i am very unmotivated myself to do things, i dont know what to do to myself, to support myself, to make myself better, yea i cant keep doing this but i havent find a way out. the suicidal thoughts is killing me too sometimes.

of course we want to change, to be better, but people like us find it a very hard thing to do. it takes more of something to make it happen. i am very low myself, yea dont know what to do. these are our episodes of depression. take care

[justinj3x3]

Thanks for the support everyone....it does help. I guess at this point its just one day at a time. I just hope I can snap out of it....last time this happened I ended up in a studio apartment by myself for 3 years. I'm still not sure how I did that without going completely insane....anyways thanks again everyone....and best wishes to those of you going through the same thing as myself.