[complic8d]

I don't want to be in this place- this dark, hopeless, endless depression. I don't know how to get out, I'm not sure there is a way out. I want to believe my therapist, but I just don't. I don't want to be this way for my family. They shouldn't have to have a wife and mother like this. I wish I could tell them that I will get better, but I don't want to give them false hope. I am just so tired, breathing is an effort. I don't want to do this anymore. If I could just feel some sense of hope...

[wi_fighter]

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Hun, I don't know what to say other than I've felt EXACTLY the same way. I guess I'm lucky in that due to the nature of my illness I can't stay in the pit of despair for too long. Are you on meds? If not, I think they might help. I wish I knew what magic words would take it all away.

Ry

[complic8d]

Thank you wi and Ryan. Yes, I am on meds, been on about everything. They really aren't the complete answer, there is just so much stuff to work through. I get frustrated and hopeless. Wish there was a magic wand or something. I just don't know....

so sorry..

maybe i can give u a spark of hope.. earlier this week i was hurting so bad....it was really rough.. today i feel 50% better..not sure why..but life goes through cycles..this too will pass.. hugssssssssss

[Shaylo007]

I too know how you feel. I was so bad yesterday I was sick of being me. I felt like you that it is unfair to the people I love. But today I feel some better. I am taking Lexapro after being worthless for about four months. It is really helping me. Maybe you should talk to your doc. I don't have the answers because I would not be here if I did. But these dips are temporary and we must cling to the hope of a brighter day.

[Hope4me2]

Hang in there .....we are here to talk too and we all know how your feeling ....we all at one time or another or even at this very time have been in that deep hole and just know your NOT ALONE..........
we care about you and your loved............Keep talking to your T about your feelings....journal them....get them out .....but there is HOPE....other wise I would NOT still be here hanging on to my rope either..... I am in my deep hole this week and last week and the week before...feeling the same way you are now....but I just keep talking to my T and he says we can work through this as long as I keep talking so I keep talking and I come here and keep talking and the people here have SAVED me more then once.....I LOVE PC so much
so please do not be so hard on yourself... I know I am one to speak huh guys....take care ....

[complic8d]

Thanks. I sometimes think seeing a little light makes the dark seem all the worse. It's the falling back all the time that is so discouraging, will that ever end? Do we ever get out and stay out, or is it always there? I talked to my T tonight on the phone. My analogy was that I feel like I am on a ledge and any little thing can push me over. I wanted to know if I would ever NOT feel that way. She is very hopeful for me. (I guess I should trust her, she's seen others helped). Thanks for your hope also. I'm hanging in there.

[(JD)]

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<----waving magic wand ((swish)) ((swish)) Now you can at least tell yourself you WANT TO BELIEVE what your T says.... it's a step. (Hey, I never said I was very good with wands!)

[Overcastbutclearing]

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[Overcastbutclearing]

Hey, I was going to hug you and type a message and somehow my computer took over and sent the hug before I could type.
Anyway dear friend, I know how hard it can be to hold on.
I know it takes more energy then we physically and emotionally have within.
If I can lend an ear, a sleeve to wipe your nose on, a shoulder to lean your head know I will be here.
Despair is not pretty. It is exhausting. And Despair has a brother named Feeling of Worthlessness. Right now these two are trying to get one over on you. Fight back.
Stay true. Stay strong!

[somebodyelse]

There IS HOPE and I'm living proof of it. I have been in that deep,dark pit before and thought there was no end in sight to the darkness. But with a good t and a good pdoc and the right meds, I'm doing much, much better now. That can happen for you, too.

[complic8d]

Thanks Sky!! Oh how I wish there was a magic wand for all of us! I am trying to believe her. I talked to her last night, she thinks I am making progress, it's just so frustrating to keep slipping back, it makes the forward progress so much slower. Thanks for the encouragement!

[complic8d]

((((((sj)))))) thanks for the hug! I'm fighting, it's just soooo tiring. I hope you are too. I've been thinking about you since you haven't been doing well either. I hope things are going better. I just get so discouraged and those thoughts jump right in. When will they be gone, or will they ever? Patience is also not one of my strong points, but I'm hanging in there. Take care of yourself as well! Love ya!

[complic8d]

Somebodyelse- it's so great to hear that you have gotten much better. I do have a great T an P. My t says that others have been where I am and have gotten better, but it helps to hear from those that have been there. It's so encouraging to hear! Thanks for the hope! HUGS!

[Wants2Fly]

Hello Complic8ed --

I'm feeling kinda low myself. All I can offer is

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