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Old Nov 02, 2009, 07:30 AM
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There is only one thing keeping me alive and that is my son and husband. I hate my job, hate going out of the house, hate waking up, hate feeling stupid, ugly, being fat.....I hate it.
I am looking for another job, but there is nothing that would have these benefits that are really needed for us. There isn't a whole lot of anything for work here, actually. So many layoffs from HP and other big companies around here is making it hard for those who really need work.

I am so tired of going to work...If I could just hurt myself enough so I wouldn't have to go to work (but get benefits) and could take care of my family, that would be AWESOME, but I know that isn't possible.

I want it to be clear that I am NOT going to be hurting my self in any way, I just feel like it.

*sigh*
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Old Nov 02, 2009, 08:25 AM
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Hi, Onlymedid! Correct me if I'm wrong: two of the major stressors in your working life are
  1. a certain difficult coworker, and
  2. being in sales.
Do you see any way to change or neutralize either one or both of those without actually leaving your company?

In any event, may you find a way to quarantine those feelings of hatred for your job such that they don't poison the rest of your life.
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Old Nov 02, 2009, 09:15 AM
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Hello Onlymedid!

You really have an extremely good casue to live on; your husband and the son!!!
Downsizing in the name of right sizing has become a corporate slogan these days. They know that if the supply of labour/employees would increase not matched by the corresponding demand, then people are going to get setteld even if they are paid less and would be ready to sacrifice some other perks and benefits.
But these words are not of any comfort as the reality stands right there.

As far as dear Rohag's guess is concerned, I would challenge it. It is not the sales department usually who gets fired first. Usually they start from I. T. department, and then comes finance and accoutns, followed by Adminitration and HR. Sales and Operations are usually the alst one to go, until and unless the organisation discontinues certain segment.
Also certain co-worker might not be a problem, it is actually the company itslef with a motto, pay less and get more. The modern day slavery. Employment has become a blood draining exercise, and things are very much in contrast to the old days.

So dear Onlymedid; the way things are is the way things are. Hope and try for the good times, these could be coming real soon. All the best to you and your family.

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Old Nov 02, 2009, 10:58 AM
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Old Nov 02, 2009, 04:28 PM
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There is only one thing keeping me alive and that is my son and husband. I hate my job, hate going out of the house, hate waking up, hate feeling stupid, ugly, being fat.....I hate it.
I am looking for another job, but there is nothing that would have these benefits that are really needed for us. There isn't a whole lot of anything for work here, actually. So many layoffs from HP and other big companies around here is making it hard for those who really need work.

I am so tired of going to work...If I could just hurt myself enough so I wouldn't have to go to work (but get benefits) and could take care of my family, that would be AWESOME, but I know that isn't possible.

I want it to be clear that I am NOT going to be hurting my self in any way, I just feel like it.

*sigh*
onlymedid,

I know exactly how you feel.
I to- hate going out of the house, hate waking up, hate feeling stupid, ugly and being fat.

I'm just a waste of space and a waste of life.

You're not alone.
Hugs.
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Old Nov 03, 2009, 09:44 PM
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Thanks everyone for the kind and helpful words.
I am going to see what I can do to improve my work environment, since there really isn't anything I can do about it right now.

I am going to talk to my T tomorrow about everything. I just don't want to live miserably. It sucks my energy and keeps me from having fun with my family. I just really don't want to do this anymore.
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Old Nov 04, 2009, 11:54 AM
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Thanks everyone for the kind and helpful words.
I am going to see what I can do to improve my work environment, since there really isn't anything I can do about it right now.

I am going to talk to my T tomorrow about everything. I just don't want to live miserably. It sucks my energy and keeps me from having fun with my family. I just really don't want to do this anymore.
(((onlymedid)))

I can relate to a lot of what you defined as the cause of your misery. Just curious if these feelings seem to follow you ~ no matter where or when you work? Like, you dread working, regardless?

I felt a lot like that most of my life (so far). Always assuming that if I got out of that job, that neighborhood, or whatever, I'd feel better. Truth, for me, was that those strong emotions of misery stem from myself. And there is no escaping myself. This may or may not apply to you ~ I was just hit by these thoughts as I read your initial post. If I'm wrong, please forgive me.

Take care!
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Old Nov 04, 2009, 08:41 PM
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(((onlymedid)))

I can relate to a lot of what you defined as the cause of your misery. Just curious if these feelings seem to follow you ~ no matter where or when you work? Like, you dread working, regardless?

I felt a lot like that most of my life (so far). Always assuming that if I got out of that job, that neighborhood, or whatever, I'd feel better. Truth, for me, was that those strong emotions of misery stem from myself. And there is no escaping myself. This may or may not apply to you ~ I was just hit by these thoughts as I read your initial post. If I'm wrong, please forgive me.

Take care!
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OH WOW! We JUST talked about that with T today!!! I have never truly had a job that I enjoy or even WANT to do. T said maybe I might think about going back to school to further my education (I have an Associates so far). I told her that I have no idea what I would even want to do. Something to ponder. There isn't anything I think that I would enjoy.
I dread work all the time. This job is just....like...15 times more stressful right now. I am really hoping that after a while things will chill out.
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Old Nov 05, 2009, 01:12 PM
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OH WOW! We JUST talked about that with T today!!! I have never truly had a job that I enjoy or even WANT to do. T said maybe I might think about going back to school to further my education (I have an Associates so far). I told her that I have no idea what I would even want to do. Something to ponder. There isn't anything I think that I would enjoy.
I dread work all the time. This job is just....like...15 times more stressful right now. I am really hoping that after a while things will chill out.
I know that feeling all too well Onlymedid as I live it every day. I do mostly know what I'd like to do but the path to doing it seems so hard not just for me but stress I don't need to give to my wife and son. (I have an Associates too)

I hope you find what want when you need to find it.

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Old Nov 05, 2009, 03:12 PM
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(((((Only me did))))))) have you ever tried just fantasizing wildly about what you might want to do? Or maybe what you do get some enjoyment and peace from? Maybe if you can share some of those thoughts, we can all help you think it over. Think of it as a passtime, not a big stressor. who needs those, after all?
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