Just been diagnoissied

It's not bad that you don't want to celebrate or that you feel like staying in. I just know that for me, when I stay home alone on a holiday I tend to wallow in my aloneness. Last New Year's Eve I got drunk and became pretty hopeless. If I don't feel like being around friends this year, I intend to treat myself to a movie in the theater, without company. Its kind of like being alone in public, away from the isolation that can lead me to self destructive thoughts and behavior, but without forcing me to interact with anyone. It should be a good distraction, too. If you think you might spiral down by staying home, that's one idea for getting out of the house and still basically do nothing.

Happy New Year guy!!!

Right started back to work on New Years Night. What a nightmare of a shift. It's weird being back. Had my 2nd shift a sleep over and it was a nightmare. I got no support from my colleagues and even better 2 of them started online *****ing about me on facebook clear so I can see. I have had enough. I have more important things to worry about and deal with than pettieness of 2 grown women who have nothing better to do than sit and pick on a colleague and pass judgement on the colleague. I called my manager as I have printed off what they wrote on facebook and my manager says if I feel comfortable confronting them then do it if not she can speak to them. Either way she will speak to them as this is unacceptable. Pretty much 1 of the woman in this palava is a senior member and by what she has been saying shouldn't even be a support worker let a lone a seniior support worker. Two faced, back stabbing *****es come to mind (sorry if thats a bit strong) but they are. Can you tell I am quite annoyed. I am gonna confront them when I see them. I want to see them together so that they can't warn the other one about what I am gonna say etc. This is all I need eh!

My manager said that she was gonna speak to the staff about facebook as some members of staff who are that thick to use their phones in work have been clocked IDIOTS!! Why do this as they are ruining it for everyone else. We are not allowed our phoness on or carry our phones about as we are WORKING!!! This is a work's policy but we get away with carrying them in our pockets etc to check time or use calculator. But some people are using their internet on their phone while with a service user. The other colleague I am confronting even used it to state the guys tv wasn't working and wanted someone to entwetain her, Fair enough the guy is deaf but he aint stupid.

I hate my job I need out now!! This just proves it I can not come in for my shift without 2 staff members *****ing about me. I have no idea why as I went into office with my service user to get some paperwork and told him to stand just in our front door as it was snowing and the guys are not allowed in the office. They both heard me say that and both shouted no come on in @@@@@. He obviously wasnt gonna say no Laura says to stay here and then they offered him food dedspite him being on a diet as he is quite big. 1 of them asked if I was ok and I said yes and then I got my guy and left the office. That entailed a whole load of ***** comments from the 2 of them referring to me as "that" f***in *****es or what. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! Defo need a new job. Was speaking to a senior today and said I wanted a transfer and he said no wait as we are getting a new manager who worked outwith our company so knwos no-one and cant take sides. So when my boss called tonight I was telling her and she says to wait too!! She says people will be brought down a peg ior 2.

A bit anxious about confronting the 2 staff members though. When I was telling my senior he went surprise, surprise it's those 2 somethings never change. The funny thing is the senior of the 2 hates the other 1. Its a joke

Anyways 1st thoughts about work is OMG!!! I am really not coping at all esp this morning's shift. I think I may have went back to work too early. I was off for 5 wks though, but maybe it was far too early. What do you guys think??

HOn, you really have right on your side. Such people need to be confronted, and it is brave and strong for you to do it. People can have whatever feelings they want, but there are appropriate ways and places to express them and Facebook and the Coffe room are not them. If I need to vent on a colleague, I make sure it is not at work and between two pairs of eyes that i know will just let me vent and won't take it further.
It sounds good that you have the supprot you do from your manager. Huggs, and Goodluck. Imagine us being in your backpocket when you take on the "#¤%es"

I also struggle with mild depression and ocd and Iam sorry you had to suffer with that so call friend and I hope you feel better from the depression because this is a real and scarey .

Now my flatmate who is also a collaeague and the senior who in question is *****ing about me are saying I should work with one of the other guys who is "less" challenging. He is a nightmare as he is challenging physically (hits staff). They cant do it without asking me 1st and no one has said anything to me. They said it in front of my mate who stuck up for me and said " Laura has only been back 2 days and had 2 shifts with 2 different service users, give her time and support" Think I will push for my transfer though

Wise idea. I try not to be horribly judgemental (doens't always work) and I think these guys sound like a waste of effort. What a nightmare!

Thank You Lonegael,

I am struggling as it is without those "professional" words NOT!!!

Why

(((((((MissLaura))))))))) If you find the answer, then you will have solved one of the biggest mysteries of mankind: why can we be so nasty to each other, and spend so much energy being so? Huggs and hang in there.

Well,

I confronted 1 of the "girls" yesterday and got it throwen back in face. She was shouting at me in front of staff in the office.

I ahve had enough. So I was on the phone to my area manager today and she is bloody useless. She thinks I should drop it and let it all be swept under the carpet- then contradicted herself and said no I am not saying sweep it under the carpet but try not to worry about it. SHE KNOWS I HAVE DEPRESSION AND THAT I AM JUST BACK. I am really upset, angry and annoyed. Why should I bother anymore. I just want to end it all now. But I cant as I do not ahve the powers be to speak to them. The girl in question turned to a colleague and said "I am gonna get into trouble for the way I spoke to Laura" TOO RIGHT cheeky *****. I am really just wanting to leave that horrible place but there are no jobs out there. I am sick of it. Online *****ing, backstabbing, moaning about nothing, pals being *****es about eachother. I know this will happen anywhere. I think I will go abck to working in a supermarket as the *****ing there is nothing compared to my work place. What do I do???? My area manager is doing nothing so I am trying to get in touch with the guy above her. I have not had a return back to work nor my risk assessment she told me I would need before going back to work. Its a joke. I have been back a week tomorrow. Its not like I didnt see her nor speak to her. She even admitted throwing me in the deep end with my shifts and the service users I work with. She said that it was their fault since they ahve just expected me to go back in there after 5 wks off with depression. So I am "apparently" gonna see her tomorrow before I start my shift. If you believe that you believe anything as she said she would be in work yesterday but she wasn't. Its a complete joke. Now my mate is off for 4 days she is my sanity in there. She was like you will be ok- we both know i wont be ok but we both did our nervous laugh. I asked to puch for my transfer and got told we are too short staffed for me to move and then I would need to look into which service would best suit "my needs" etc.

WHAT DO I DO

I personally want to call in sick tomorrow and get another sick line as I am far too stressed out and its only been 1 wk. I was crying incontrollably last night. I think I went back far TOO early

Have you got a union where you work or in your area? This is strating to sound more of a "working environment" issue as it goes on. They would have the best idea of the rules governing such situations and what your management's responsibilities are toward you as employees. Huggs. This sound beyond bad.

Hey not really we have not really got a union at all.... for some weird reason

I actually have went above my area manager's head and went to her boss as I am sick of this. The way she was sounding on the phone was to sweep it all under the carpet. So........ I called my boss's boss. He was extremely nice and we spoke for a wee while. I told him the situation I am in and he has emailed my area manager asking why I have not had a return back to work done nor a risk assessment. I have been back nearly a week. My area manager has stated that they did throw me in at the deep end. I spoke in length about this matter and he was stating I am doing the right thing. I said to him I would like a transfer and explained my reasons. He stated I should be a senior support worker as I have 9 years experience working in my area and 2 years working in my current work. Altogther more experience than anyone in my whole work- thats a joke.

Anyways feeling a tad bit better, But still not 100% sure about what the hell to do or think or feel.

My mate said I need to speak to my counsellor. I haven't seen my counsellor since 1st week in Dec as she is off sick. I need something I think