Blocking out the hurt?

I need Some Advice again,Im having a really terrible time With things these days, I know Im doing the right thing by giving a friend space and hes involved with his new life. I will always be here def if he needs me, no question and Im not interfering with his life now, trying to be respectful(unless I think its unsafe)
But how do I work on myself not being sad, Ive tried meditation, reading, listening to music, watching movieswith the fam or other hobbies but nothing works, Im still crying, Its not his fault , stuff goingon with him, he pushed me away and Im so sad, i fel like someone just knocked the air out of me.
Im not ok, All these books say take care of yourself fiirst and im trying but what do you do when someone you consider Fam disaapers out of your life?? How Can I not be sad?

FeelingSad You asked for advice , I don't have any .
I've tried all these things and then some. Are you sad 24/7? I'm not.
Maybe we are searching fo something that is unrealistic. I don't know.
Try getting out and just look at the trees , the sky , the birds , a waterfall, that's when I seem to be my happiest.
I really hope you find something that gives you some enjoyment in life.
For some is better than none.

Have you seen your pdoc lately? It sounds like you are doing alot of good things for yourself to stay on top of you mood but I didnt hear you mention your meds. It seems like a visit to your pdoc would be a good idea. Maybe that is where the problem lies.

Unfortunately you probably can't help but be sad. That shouldn't stop you from trying to live in the present and distract yourself as much as possible. But when you lose (or change) a relationship you care about you are going to feel hurt and sad. So give yourself time to feel your feelings, have a good cry and then get back into the present and being good to yourself. When it builds up too much, do the same thing all over again. Over time, you will heal from this hurt.

(((((((feelingsad)))))))

I think the best advice I could give you is to get a therapist (if possible).
Bouncing off your thoughts and feelings with a professional can be so helpful. It is for me. PM me and I can help you locate one in your area if you live in the US.

I am so sorry you are hurting this much. I know when my uncle cut himself off from the family it hurt like hell. It still makes me sad. But I got over the worst of it with time and by talking with my T.

Best Wishes

Berries , I just Pmed You. Thanks!

Thank you Babysteps, I am not sad 24 7, But I am sad alot, other times I think Im numb, I am doing stuff to try and distract myself, Your idea to go out and see nature stuff is a good one, Sometimes I like to go to the Park, so maybe I will do that this wknd, Dogwood, I dont have a pdoc or take meds. Im here for someone else, Worried about someone else. I cant see a thearpist, complicated, thank you for the support though! Means alot! Thanks Pomegranite, thats true, I am trying distraction methods, it just gets hard at times, but I Try, On losing the relationship, i know its not gone for good , but now its hard, I Dont want him to pulll away more, it hurts so so bad.