[severelyunhinged]

Whenever I try to do something uplifting or slightly different from my usual depressive routine, I feel so awkward, but when I indulge in the depressive feelings it actually feels like thats what Im supposed to be doing, like thats where I belong, like thats what I was made to feel.
I keep listening to the most depressive and negative music I can find and the other songs I own, are out of rotation for now.
This is the way I always have felt and I dont know how to be different. The depression comes in waves tho and Im on one of the low parts of the cycle rigth now.

[jmo531]

Just as your depression feels right to you, you have to try and turn that around.

Force yourself to do things that you know you need to do. Put on some uplifting music. Dance around. Make yourself do it. I know its hard. Its easier to crawl into bed and sleep or watch TV. Beleive I know. Just try and force yourself to do the things you know you need to do. In the long run you will benefit from it. Hang in there. Much love to ya!!!

you're the only one that can change your routine. do dance or go for a walk.....anything to break the downs.......xoxo pat