I'm so stuck

I feel so stuck. I feel so lonely but I can't let anyone in. I go through my days putting on my act of being all together, confident and secure-- when inside I'm a mess. If anyone really knew...
After feeling pretty desperate I got up enough courage to call-- to set up therapy. The first 3 didn't take my insurance. My last call took my insurance and . I'm number 56 on their waiting list. I don't know what to do anymore. I 'm so tired of this I need to do something But what?

keep calling ((((((( mick ))))))) i hope there will be others that take your insurance and can get you in sooner. also remember, if you feel really badly, you can go to the ER and get help immediately.

i so understand what you talk about. i call it my "mask". i was so afraid i would forget to put it on, or someone would pull it off, and i'd be exposed. it's such an anxiety.

i found that my fears were unfounded in that ppl didn't actually know how i did as well as i did and when i would "lose it" then talk about it later, NO ONE thought i acted weird or lost respect for me. i had to learn that, though.

we're here for you as well.

KD

Mick,

You can call NAMI in your area--there should be an 800 #, or you could call #4 on your insurance list and see if they can take you sooner than #3, or maybe there's an in-person support group nearby, call the county Mental Health Association. You can also keep writing in here and we will support you too. Keep trying, don't give up. You've already done the hard part by making the first call.

Sister