STUCK!!!

I feel YUCK today and generally over all - for I feel as though I am stuck with no way out, cannot get out of a certain situation............. Lord ole Lord when will my time here on earth be up?

sending soft gentle caring hugs your way, if thats ok

{{{ Rhapsody }}}


Dee

I HATE MYSELF TODAY

.... and no one seems to care enough to hear me moun from inner pain despair turmoil.

To Understand ME - READ (this section)

Why does falling in love go wrong?

http://gettingtheloveyouwant.com/art...mago_into.html


Shattered dreams, whatever form they take, are painful.

..... this my PAIN!

................................... HELP ME PLZ!!

(((((Rhapsody)))))))

((((((((((((((( Rhapsody ))))))))))))))))

(((((((Rhapsody)))))))

Thank YOU everyone....... and while I understand the why it is still hard to find the how.

I am feeling a little better today....... after a lot a soul searching the last few days.

I am going to look at this event as another opportunity to HEAL - some more.

I'm glad you're feeling more positive. Hopefully something will come out of the soul searching.

RHapsody, I read your post, because i wanted to return the favor as well as well i have also been experiencign depression. I do not know if you see a therapist nor anything of that sort, but these thoughts are definitely worht talking over. I read your profile and reserached some of the big words i didnt understand like Meinieres disesease which i belive has something to do with your inner ear, but stumbled up the fact of post-traumatic stress because of abuse. That generally can take the abused their whole entire life to get over
the problems that come with that, it seems youve had to deal with a lot and youve been weighted down by that, i had to deal with quite a bit, such as gang violence (which was strange because of the neighborhood i grew up in) which caused me to get in fights at an early age which is probably why i have the obsession for boxing/mixed martial arts. but anyways, what im trying to say is finding an outlet, such as for me, working out, always helps at least escape or focus your pain. like when im boxing, for those 10 rounds or less, i feel alive (althought it does hurt the next morning!!!!). However, you might feel pain, but what im saying is find an outlet. YOur children are getting older as well if they are 18 and 23 i belive u said, and youll need something to fill the days with when they are away at school, i dont know if you like motherly things like Knitting or whatever, (my grandmother loves quiliting so) or get involved with things that you can get involved with.

that would gigve more purpose because i remember my parents fighting about how my mom was depressed because she didnt feel she had any purpose anymore and didnt want to deal with certain situations.

find the outlet, that should help

Thanks for the help....... and yes I have seen a T (for eight long years) - and she is a great help and support in my life - I just have more to heal from, from a hellish childhood, a past that never seems to leave me be.

BTW - my outlet starting tomorrow morning will be taking care of my beautiful one year old neice and lovable two year old nephew....... I love them and they need me, and what can I say but that I need to feel needed / wanted by some one.

My Wish tonght -

I wish I could find one person in my life that did not make me CRY.

((((((((((rhapsody))))))))))) i dream of being a healer of souls. i would somehow lay my hands without touching and take away the pain of your past and your depression and such. i wish so much to be able to do that.