[findingmy_self95]

I told my dad everything. My SI, my SU thoguhts and that im severly depressed. You know what happens, he yells at me telling me that I have no ****ing reason to be depressed and he was bullied worse than me BLAH BLAH ****ing BLAH. He doesn't even flinch, he doesnt feel anything, I feel so alone, he didnt even offer to get me help. I dont want to live. No one cares about me and no one wants me around.
AHHHHH NO ONE ****ING CARES!!!!!!!!
I feel so alone, I don't want to exist

What do I do now, I've done everyhting I possibly can to get help. But all ive been told is I have no reason to be depressed. THAN WHY DONT YOU TELL ME WHY IM SO DEPRESSED!!!!!!
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What now???

[thine_self_untrue]

I am so, so sorry that this happened. PLEASE, hang on. PC wants you. PC cares about you.
Is there anyone else you can talk to?
I doubt myself because I have NO REASON to be depressed. But no one can judge that for other people. If you say you are, I beleive you.
Sometimes people don't understand. They can't beleive. Doesn't mean it's not real.
Hang on.

[lynn P.]

Your Dad said all of that from an emotional perspective not a logical educated perspective. Yes there are cases of circumstantial depression where bad things are happening that contribute to depression. Then there's true chemical depression where a person could have the best life possible(cloud9) and still feel sad and depressed. He needs to understand this is medically based and needs to be treated that way.

Are you under a doctors care or on medication? If not you need to get one of your parents to take you. You can also speak with your school counselor. There doesn't have to be a 'reason' to justify depression. That has nothing to do with it. Depression in the true chemical sense is medical the same as diabetes is medical. Find another adult (perhaps your mom). Tell them this is serious and they will be negligent if they don't help you. He may have thought you were trying to blame him as a parent and perhaps that why he was defensive. Take some deep breaths and please never think you shouldn't live. You're not alone. Don't give up. Can you make your own doctors appointment?? Tell as many adults as you can until you get help.

[lindee]

Brennan I'm so sorry life sucks for you right now. You have to believe that it will get better. Keep coming to PC. You will get help here. Don't give up or give in to the pain. And don't live your life blaming your Dad. He may have his own problems.? If you need to come here and vent then do it. But also keep trying to get professional help, somehow and someway. I wish I had all the answers for you. But believe that your life is just on the wrong path right now and it will get better.

[trevorzero]

Sometimes parents are idiots. This is one of life's essential truths. Don't let your father's moronic attitude drag you down one little bit. Go out and find a decent human being who will care about you in the proper way. That person does exist and it is your challenge to discover who it is.

[amante]

Brennan,
People do care and I'm sorry that your Dad was so negative when you told him everything. Perhaps in a few days time he might have thought through his actions and how he reacted to you, and hopefully be in a much more supportive frame of mind. You do matter and you are a person with a heart and feelings. Sending gentle hugs your way, reach out to someone else that you can trust to not explode on you.

[findingmy_self95]

Well Im gonna see a psychiatrist personally im quite glad but kind of hesitant.....atm

[Mini moo]

Originally Posted by Brennan11007

My SI, my SU thoguhts and that im severly depressed.
I know what that is like. you can text, call, IM, email, private message me and I will listen and try to help. just private message me first and ask for my #
You know what happens, he yells at me telling me that I have no ****ing reason to be depressed and he was bullied worse than me BLAH BLAH ****ing BLAH.

Depression is not only caused by personal reasons. It can be a chemical imbalance in the brain and most parents don't know or don't what to admit that there is somethong wrong.

He doesn't even flinch, he doesnt feel anything, I feel so alone, he didnt even offer to get me help. I dont want to live. No one cares about me and no one wants me around.

Well for starters, if I didn't care I wouldn't be replying to your thread. 2) is you are not alone... I am here and pretty mmuch going through similar circumstances (from what I can tell)

AHHHHH NO ONE ****ING CARES!!!!!!!!
I feel so alone, I don't want to exist


I know how you feel but, I care and I want to try to help, please let me. You are not alone. You say that you don't want to exist but you know that you aren't ready to completely give up, or you would have done it already

What do I do now, I've done everyhting I possibly can to get help. But all ive been told is I have no reason to be depressed. THAN WHY DONT YOU TELL ME WHY IM SO DEPRESSED!!!!!!
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What now???

Depending on where you live and achool. you may be able to have psychologist that will come to your school to help you and they can also have a psychiatrist if needed. That's what I am doing now. Your dad or anyone of your parents or gaurdians sign and you have a pre-meeting then you will have regular sessions. (If you have insurance it's a bit easier, there are also personal clinics you could go to)

U Are NOT alone.

I will request you as a buddie. hope you will add me.

[Mini moo]

I am happy for you!!!

[findingmy_self95]

Thanks so much

[amante]

Brennan,
that is a huggggggeeeee step forward in the right direction, you'll be able to talk to the T and get everything off your chest and he'll be able to devise what is best for treatment for you. good luck with the appt. hugs to you, well done.

[Mini moo]

Originally Posted by Brennan11007

Thanks so much

No Prob but I sorta had my phone destroyed......lmao....should be back on by late friday night....

[septum]

Originally Posted by Brennan11007

I told my dad everything. My SI, my SU thoguhts and that im severly depressed. You know what happens, he yells at me telling me that I have no ****ing reason to be depressed and he was bullied worse than me BLAH BLAH ****ing BLAH. He doesn't even flinch, he doesnt feel anything, I feel so alone, he didnt even offer to get me help. I dont want to live. No one cares about me and no one wants me around.
AHHHHH NO ONE ****ING CARES!!!!!!!!
I feel so alone, I don't want to exist

What do I do now, I've done everyhting I possibly can to get help. But all ive been told is I have no reason to be depressed. THAN WHY DONT YOU TELL ME WHY IM SO DEPRESSED!!!!!!
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What now???

It is amazing that you got on here and posted that. It means you're not giving up and that is the most important thing you can do. /hug

[lonegael]

Can understand the hesitation. Maybe, just maybe, your dad's explosion was born of denial. It might just be too hard for him to believe that hiis son is sick in this way. In his version, it would be something easy to manage, much more minor. Sorry to hear that he went off on you. you did right by tellinghim, but he handled it wrong. good luck with the appointment. Huggggsss