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{{{{{{{{{Heidu}}}}}}}}}}}}} you are awesome! Of course I share things with everyone here......

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Mary Alice

But wait... I don't understand (but I want to!)... just so I know... why don't you want to make any new friends in person? Why is that worse than online friends? Do you feel that "real" friends expect too much from you? That you expect too much from them? Do they smell bad? I'm not being a wiseass (this time!) -- I really just want to understand how you feel.

Your friend who will remain only an online friend, I promise,
LMo

We are ALL going to be a-ok!

hi Lady........I will be home 2 days out of the week, gone 5. I went to Alex's school today, talked to his principal and teacher and gave them my cell and the number of the store I will be training in, just in case.

I also arranged that if Alex is upset or misses me during school, he has permission to call my cell and leave me a voice message or actually talk to me, if I am not in class.

I am taking one of his dogs with me, the original "Puppy" just like when I had surgery. He'll keep me company and I can snuggle with him at night.

I was also allowed to sit in his classroom today for about 45 mins. and watch. I was amazed when Alex saw me he came running over, threw his arms around my neck and gave me such a big kiss...........I was thrilled.....thought I would embarrass him.

Now the two of them are fighting........geez it will be a long 5 weeks for my little boy.

Mary Alice

P.S. {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} ty for caring

{{{{{{{{{Somebody}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I have done that for him.....the day I leave is circled and I will have the new one up for him when I leave. Hopefully my husband will help and circle the days each week that I will be home so that he knows - but I don't count on his support in this.

Sorry, I like land mines - I am fanatical about my privacy and my home. Maybe there's a word for that, some kind of " condition"........lol.

Take care.

Mary Alice

It's hard Heather. I see the pain in his eyes when he looks at me or when my husband is mean to him.......I feel guilty.

The initial reaction was positive, yes. I was proud of myself for doing it.

LOL.......you take that grate off and I'm going to slide in there. I hope something good happens, if it doesn't, the damage to Alex will be hard to repair.

Even my mom asked me if this job is worth it - causing Alex so much pain. Nothing like more guilt.

{{{{{{{{{{{Heather}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Mary Alice

Fuzzy, I love ya. There is never a bad time for chocolate - amazing I don't weigh a thousand pounds......lol.

xoxoxox

Mary Alice

{{{{{{{{{{Erin}}}}}}}}}}}}}} you've been quiet. Glad to see you are ok, or at least posting here.

Ty for thinking of me, and I hope you are doing ok........take care.

Mary Alice

You are very welcome.. WEll that is not as bad as it sounds. on your end. .But it does sound like dad and son need to get along better and I take it that it is the dad. not caring enough or something like that.. (asumtions) correct me if I am worng

<font color=purple>The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
- G.K. Chesterton
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His father has no patience whatsoever with him. With me being gone, it will be ten times as bad for Alex. His nerves will take over and he will snap at Alex and make him cry [sigh]. Poor Alex told me that he would have to stay away from him, but I know my son............he'll just be himself and chatter away and it will irritate my husband and he'll yell at him.

Course he thinks I will be up to no-good while I am gone - all those men, etc. What an idiot! Now that I have a job again, although I haven't started yet let alone gotten paid, he thinks I am an ATM machine again.

All night he was being a complete *******le to me, in front of Alex. I even treated them to McDonalds and put some gasoline in his car.........which I was told was not enough and he just won't take Alex to school.

Then I won't be home for my husband's birthday or mine next month. I get to spend it in a hotel room alone........wonderful.

I had to break up the arguing earlier......over a silly Xbox game where my husband loves to kill off Alex's character. When we play, we don't shoot each other - we work as a team. Not those two.........so Alex gets mad, gets hurt, then cries.

I need a vacation, really badly.

{{{{{Lady}}}}}}}}}}}

Mary Alice

Well, now that does sound worse then I thought. OH boy, that makes me so upset, that a father can even not begin to understand there own child. But then again, my dad never understood me.. To this day he still does not. I have never been a "daddies girl" i have been way to independent and wanting to be on my own. to really need either of my parents that way..
Which is some of the issues I am working on now, with my childern

<font color=purple>The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
- G.K. Chesterton
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He doesn't really try either, Lady. He loves Alex and would protect him from harm.....but there is so much more to being a parent as we all know.

At least Alex has Monday off from school, so he will spend the whole day with me, plus his father...........but he will be next to me the whole time.

I've always tried to make my parents proud of me - been trying for 27 years and still haven't done it.

Take care today.

Mary Alice

that i can fully understand about the parents thing..
My dad is upset at me for going back to school to make a better life for my childern.. He just do nto understand I willnot work in a factory like him and mom. I want more out of my life than that

<font color=purple>The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
- G.K. Chesterton
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Mary Alice,

I know you aren't looking for in real life friends, and I'm also positive that where you are going to be for your training is not near me, but I wish I could be there and pick you up from your motel room for your birthday and take you out to do something fun. When is it? We could have an on-line birthday party. I'll bring the chocolate again. No, it isn't like having Alex there with you, but you could have him there too by phone. And have another party with him when you are home.

I'm so sorry that your husband is that way. I'm really at a loss for what else to say about that.

You do need a vacation. Can the time you're away, at least when you're on your own time, be used like a vacation? That was what I was hoping your travel time would do for you - give you time away from things when you can relax. If you could go on vacation, where would you go and what would you do?

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Mary Alice}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Love from Wendy

<font color=purple>"The real problem of mental life is not why some people become insane, but rather why most avoid insanity." -Erich Fromm</font color=purple>

Wendy, you are the best. Concerned about me when you have issues as well.............ty. [kiss]

I think any day is good for chocolate......lol. But my b-day is the 13th of October and I am working 7-5 that day. When I leave Tues. I won't be back for a whole week.......that is NOT good.

I'm in the Midwest not too far from where Heidu, I think mentioned she was from.

There are no words for my husband - none pleasant. Just once in my life I would like to feel loved by the person I am married to, but I don't think it will happen, esp. not with him.

Even though I'll be in a motel, my time will definitely be for me. I am a loner, so it isn't like I will be hanging out with anyone.
I will spend my time online, reading the books/magazines I bring alone, playing cards, and watching what I want on tv......lol. Probably be cartoons anyway.

I'm not used to be alone so it won't be easy. But I need some down time for me.

xoxxoxooxoxox ty for being there.

Mary Alice

Hi Mary Alice,

Thanks for your note, things have been extremely rough here, but I'm much more concerned about you. You're in my thoughts for sure. Please take gentle care of yourself.

Take care,
ErinBear