[tryingtobeme]

Anyone out there have extra support to give today. A hug, a kind word. I hate asking for any of this, but I could use some feedback to let me know I am still cared for.

This year has seemed to be extremly hard for me. My son has been my inspiration this year and now that he is going through his terrible 2 stages, ugh...so tiring and exhausting. Don't get me wrong I love my son and do everything I can for him. It has just run me down to utter exhaustion.

My husband and I, well we have our ups and downs. Some days are bad but more good than bad since I talk more to him.

My emotional well being. I don't feel very confident in myself. I don't care about myself or well being yet I pack a bad to go to the gym today. Time comes to go and I don't. What is wrong with me? Why can't I just do something good for myself for a change. I even was at home one day all by myself, no kid, no husband, just me...I felt so lost and confused. I don't even know who I am anymore. I didn't know what to do with myself.

I guess I am just down tot he point that I don't care. I'm not planning anything bad to myself so now worries there. But I do feel....well nothing. Just here floating through life. Not remembering anything, just a being in the world for what???? not really sure myself.

I know this is long I'm just trying to find the right words to say but I just don't have them.

((((((((((tryingtobeme))))))))))
I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. Is there anything you enjoy doing that you can do to take your mind off things for a while? Painting, taking a walk, reading, taking a hot bath...anything! Even continuing to post on here is doing something, and I'm glad you've posted.

Please try to take things day by day. Things will not stay this way, they WILL get better. Hang in there. You're a strong person and you can get through this.

[Rohag]

((((((( Tryingtobeme! )))))))

(Consider yourself positively feedbacked!)

Originally Posted by tryingtobeme

I don't care about myself or well being yet I pack a bad to go to the gym today. Time comes to go and I don't. What is wrong with me?

I'm tempted to say you didn't go because, with a terrible-twos child, you're nearly always at the "gym," and your body-mind revolted.

I readily identify with being unable to mobilize myself even for once-pleasurable self-care activities. The apathy can be overwhelming. Traditional advice for this involves finding minimal-preparation activities with near-immediate payoffs, for example: singing, dancing, listening to music, watching cute or funny videos, etc.

Wishing you peace & joy!

[Gently1]

Sorry for your difficulties.

[Elana05]

(((Tryingtobeme)))

You are strong.
You are cared for.
We are here for you.


Sending good thoughts and wishes your way...

E

[tryingtobeme]

[quote=melissa.recovering;1455667]((((((((((tryingtobeme))))))))))
I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. Is there anything you enjoy doing that you can do to take your mind off things for a while?

Thanks Melissa. I'm trying to keep things in perspective. Also I am to a piont in my therapy that I just have to let myself feel the feelings that I have. This alone is so hard to do since there is so much feelings pent up. Slowly T and I are working on it, but it doesn't feel so good now. Thank you for thinking of me,

[tryingtobeme]

Originally Posted by Rohag

((((((( Tryingtobeme! )))))))

(Consider yourself positively feedbacked!)

I'm tempted to say you didn't go because, with a terrible-twos child, you're nearly always at the "gym," and your body-mind revolted.

I readily identify with being unable to mobilize myself even for once-pleasurable self-care activities. The apathy can be overwhelming. Traditional advice for this involves finding minimal-preparation activities with near-immediate payoffs, for example: singing, dancing, listening to music, watching cute or funny videos, etc.

Wishing you peace & joy!

Thanks Rohag,
That could be with not going to the gym. My son certainly doesn't let me sit down.

I really have to get to the gym though. I have gained so much weight after having him. I am finally realizing that I have an eating problem. I bing then I won't eat for awhile or if I depressed then I bing again and again. I am starting a group today on overeaters anonymous. We will see how that goes. I feel I am under such pressure to do something and really make a differece to myself and body. I'm babbling I know.

[tryingtobeme]

Originally Posted by Gently1

Sorry for your difficulties.

Thank you for your concern.

[tryingtobeme]

Originally Posted by Elana05

(((Tryingtobeme)))

You are strong.
You are cared for.
We are here for you.


Sending good thoughts and wishes your way...

E

Thank you Elana. Your concern is much appreciated

[JustWannaDisappear]

hang in there ((((trying))))))
My son is going through terrible twos as well. Very exhausting and my daughter, is going on 5 is hyper active. It's exhausting just thinking about it, lol.
For the gym, I force myself to go. No matter how tired I am. I set certain days/times aside each week to go. I've never regretted going but I always regret not going. It's my "me time" that I desperately need as a stay at home mom.

[Rhiannonsmoon]

(((( ((((tryingtobeme)))) ))))

Things will improve, please hold on and hold to that thought,

Rhiannon

[satisfieddone]

I am sorry to hear all that, and I feel like I am going through exactly what you are. Hopefully getting some serious rest will make us feel better.
Lots of love.