[Psyclox]

Today I nearly got fired cause I took to many meds this morning and it looked like from the customers point of that I was either drunk or on drugs, a very dear friend of mine kept my job for and in the end I realised that I tried to OD why I don't cause me and KimmyDawn spoke about it last and she kept me going for that nite but in the end it all breaks down to the point the that I did try and OD, I took way too much serequol and all it did do was make me wanna sleep real bad and I did as soon as I got home, I passed out on my bed, the funny thing is I really don't care if I don't work or whatever, for me its just an endless horror that I must face alone, and that is LIFE.

[allthegirls6]

psyclox, please dont ever think you are alone. I know how you feel. Ive wanted to disapear and not ever have to face anything. Ive hidden under blankets, tried to run away, tried to make myself switch off and yet Im still here. It does get better. It sounds to me like you are at the bottom but you need to reach out to those around you who care and tell them. Can you say to someone who matters " can you help me please? Im in a bad way and need support?" You are not on your own, there is always someone who can help. But please dont give up, dont end your struggle. You gotta keep going and keep trying and one day you are going to be on top again and feel so proud of yourself for getting there.

Im going to be sending you warmth and hope. Its coming in a hige parcel, look out for it.

Lots of love

All the girls

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((((psyclox)))))))))))))) you kept yourself going thru the nite. you made a commitment and did just that. i'm proud of you.

you need to follow up and call your dr.

check your pm's, ok?

kd

(((((((((((Psyclox)))))))))))))
I feel so bad that you're feeling this way.
I want to give you RL hugs and look at you in the eyes and tell you everything is going to be okay.
It will be! I know it doesn't seem like it and I've totally been there where you are but I am here now and it's not like that anymore.
You WILL work through this. I promise.
Don't give up on yourself or on your life, please.

I hope you don't try to OD or anything else that will harm you. You need lots of hugs and love.
((((((((((Psyclox))))))))))))