Partial Program Delayed

I did finally get an email, it took longer than they thought and they are still waiting to hear from my insurance.

So I have no idea if I should be up again early tomorrow or not...

And right now I am a wreck. I am SOOOOOOO sleepy, I mean really really sleepy, but I'm also jittery and when I also realized my heart is beating a little hard and fast... not really racing but I guess I am full of anxiety.

This is so hard to get through, and I don't want to end up in the hospital.

I had trouble sleeping last night even with Lunesta so I don't know how I am going to get any sleep at all tonight...

Ambien?

You may be on the wrong medicine. When I was taking meds for my anxiety attacks, they put me on Paxil and I was a complete mess. I had trouble remembering things and I was more anxious then when I wasn't on it.
Zoloft had worked a lot better for me.
Do you think it could be a chemical reaction to the drug?
Mind you, I am in no way, shape or form a doctor.

I don't think it is my meds as much as the sudden stress I have been under. I've been doing well on my meds for several months now, but I do know that can change, still I feel like the stress is just pounding me.

In any case it is kind of moot because to adjust my meds, I'd have to get to the partial program (or my doctor, or the hospital).

How the heck am I going to sleep tonight

Thank you for your posts Jax and Yack... I'm going to take my nightime meds now and see what happens in the morning

I hope you are able to get some sleep tonight. I sure feel for you, I know from experience how tough all this can be.

I winced as I read of how you have had to go through a lot of waiting and not knowing, delays and frustration, no fun. Besides, it just plain sucks.

Take care,
Sarah

((((((((((((((((((((((((((Dex)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I'm up early but soooo tired...

I'm looking back at the email they sent yesterday and it does say "we will contact you" when they hear from the insurance company.

Which leads me to believe they are not coming today and I should go back to bed.

OTOH I can't imagine what is taking so long. For hospital it took them about 20 minutes (from the ER) to confirm my insurance, find a hospital, enroll me, and have me on my way in an ambulance to the facility. Maybe things don't move that fast outside of the ER but two days to find out if my insurance will cover this?

My stomach is in knots and I'm afraid if I go back to bed I still won't be able to sleep because I'll be worried about them coming for me. I am going to try though, sticking by her word of "we'll notify you".

I don't want another day as hard to get through as yesterday...

Dex ~
Hon , Have you heard anything at all today? I forgot to ask you when I saw you in chat today.

I had to go to the hospital in March and I know its not fun. I have mixed feelings I guess about how I got there lol , ( Bless your heart Down) . I ended up going in the Highway Patrol car Grrrrrrr. They came to my house after I left Down hanging in chat and the poor guy didnt know what to do. Another memmber here got my info from him and called for him. I was so scared and so unprepared to go. And being there well it just exacerbated things too. But on the other hand I am thankful that it happened cause I ended up getting the right dx on a few things because of seeing a pdoc. I got to focus on myself only and learned how to take care of me! I know now that I am important and worth the effort it took to get myself to see that. Does that make sense? Not all nights are good sleeping . NOt all days are good living. But they are better because I now have the tools I need to look back on and use should I need them to help myself.

So I guess what I am saying is try to take this experience and make it a positive one for yourself. I think it means alot that you have put forth the effort in helping plan this. And I for one am proud of you for doing that. Hang in there and know that I welcome pm's from you should you need to talk ok? Thinking of ya~!

Hugz~
Bethy

Arrrgh.

This morning the latest email I sent asking about my status in the program bounced back with a server error. This is the email that I sent out on Wednesday night.

So not only am I in limbo but they don't even know how stressed out I am about not hearing anything yet (which is no excuse for them to not have contacted me by now).

This morning I sent an email to the original evaluators (the ones who were here last week, who referred me into the diversion program) so hopefully I will hear something back from them today, maybe they can jumpstart getting me into the program or at least arrange for the hospital or SOMETHING because right now I feel cut off.

If I really felt like I urgently needed to go to the hospital I would email someone to take me there, so not to worry on that end.

Good luck with this, dexter. It would be nice if the mental health field were immune to this kind of ineffeciency -- all to common, unfortunately.

I'm still I guess hoping it is just a glitch. The evaluators were here promptly (they came in the evening, the same day my friends called them from out in Pittsburgh). And the person from the diversion program was here on schedule on Monday as I expected. Somewhere the ball was dropped right at this point it seems. Maybe they are having difficulty with my insurance or something but at least I would like to know what is going on.

The first evaluators were here last Thursday and someone else from their office even came to follow up on Friday... Thursday is his day off and he just wanted to be sure he checked on the situation himself... so I find that promising. He doesn't check his email regularly though so I am relying on the others for word.

Thank you everyone.

I just got an email confirming an appointment at the hospital outpatient program for Monday at 11:00am.

So I am no longer in limbo, just back to waiting, and waiting I can do.

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So glad you heard back, Dexter. =) Hope this helps take some of your stress away!
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(((((((((((((((((dexter)))))))))))))))))))) i am so happy for you!

you're such an expressive writer that i feel i've been sitting there waiting with you. i'm really happy!

let us know how it goes, ok?

be safe,

dexter, i'm sending you thousands and thousands of positive vibes and will wait with you this weekend for your appointment monday......much love, pat

It looks like I'm on track...

I was a little worried as it is almost 11:00 already, but I just got an email that they have someone on their way to pick me up.

I'm ready to go, and they should be here soon.

I'll let everyone know how it went tonight.

(Right now I'm jumping at every car that goes by)

I'm glad this is working out for you. Good luck.

Thank you JB

Still waiting, they should be here any minute.

Better be or I am going to jump out of my skin (they are still doing construction somewhere nearby and all the construction noises sound just like somone-here-to-pick-me-up noises)

Worse now that I've got the TV off etc ready to head out.

$20,000 pyramid...

Mexican beans,
a horror movie audience,
a stalking cat,
Dexter waiting for his partial program ride...

Hum de dum de dum... why does it feel like we've been through this before.
Give me the number to this place-they may need a talking to. Grrr.

Still waiting...

I think my friends in Pittsburgh did give them a talking to, which is why I got the two responses over the weekend and another this morning confirming they are on their way.

So I am confident. It's 11:30 now so there is either traffic or they are having trouble finding my street or something.

But at least they said they are on their way...

And I have P.C. to keep me company in the meantime

thx Jax

No problem. ::cracking knuckles::

oh, we haven't heard in 40 mins, so i think that means they've been there to get ya!

good luck, dexter! please let us know how it goes!

I hope so! Good luck, Dexter!!!!

good luck!