My dad is horrible.

My dad is the entire reason I tried to kill myself the first time.
Screw this, I am moving out.

We're here. We're listening. Your safety is most important.

Sorry about your situation, but nothing is worth your life. Stay with us. Vent. Cry. Don't hurt yourself over it. Be safe.

I am trying to be safe. I am trying my hardest to just fight through this. It is so hard though, when it feels like everyone is against you.
:/

Oh don't I know it! I'm 36 and I wish I could say everything will just get better, but it doesn't overnight or years sometimes. I believe everything happens for a reason, and sometimes I'm not sure what the reason is, but I have to hope I will pull thru. I'm not in a good place personally right now. It seems worse than ever but some part of me keeps trying to tell myself it will get better. One day at a time. That is all we can do. Keep fighting.

@ Artie, I understand your frustration, I myself, is going thru a mental crisis right now. Leaning back and forth on go to Hospital or not... Anyways, please VENT and discuss on here. Please dont hurt yourself!

-Chandler
Hollywood, FL

I am trying not to harm myself and so far, I have been very successful with that.

Thank you all, so much.
I really could not have done it without you all.

Hi Artie,
I'm glad that you've managed not to harm yourself... I know that can be very hard at times. Here's one way of looking at it... if you did do something to hurt yourself, you would be giving the power to someone else, someone who wished you harm or treated you badly. Why give them that power, or that satisfaction? You are your own person. You don't have to believe what anyone else says about you, you have to discover yourself.

You can do this. You are still here, after all.

I am still here, though sometimes I never know if that is a good thing or bad. There is only one way to find out though. Just by living day by day, right ?

Dads are assholes. My mother spilt up from my friendly natured bio father when I was 2, and re-maried a evil, hard-*** controll freak and is kissing his *** still to this day, maybe because of the inheritance she will recieve after hes gone. But what messes me up, they had my half brother who my step-dad throws himself at his feet to, kisses his ***, plays him as the ole mighty favorite, while me & my older brother get tossed aside and bashed by him hard. My half brother for this rebels life, doesnt do anything, stepdad is also over-protective of him, in his corner 100% if I dare speak anything against him. My bio dad? Oh his daughters from a different mom, hes at their feet, I get a passive attitude from him for my trouble.

Again, dads especially steps, are just ASSHOLES.

Yeah dads suck(oops im a dad) mine has PTS from the vietnam war and never sought therapy, mother makes excuses for his behaviour ppfff
Listen try not let him get into your head, Dads usually dish out the C**p that they were given or not given. My mums like your father he had such an abusive childhood its just the way it is hes good man of morale ppffff
Hes just taking revenge on his father whos no longer on earth..
The mentality of Father & son can be a battle as they always have the upper hand "they are perfect *there mistakes are not faults * Father have 110% more life experience * Fathers need not show emotion etc etc.
Please dont hurt yourself
I have been thru a reasonably rocky childhood and in my case it was a victory if i hurt myself or lost my temper etc etc " look how unstable the boy is, get his dose upped, that will shut him up"
Im 32 now he still has the ability to pierce my soul, but where I want wrong and still do to is allow him to.
be patient they get old and fall off their thrones hehe
sending calming vibes
ortm

Hang in there Artie - wishing brighter days ahead for you

How are you doing, ArtieGallow?

I feel sorry for you with your dad. Dear SwellFella don't generalize. Not every dad is an asshole!!! Dear ArtieGalllow is it possible to go to family counseling. I kind of doubt it. Is there somebody you trust you can talk to?

sometimes its really sad but its better to get away from your family

That is sad. And to make things sadder it's not always easy in a practical sense. Running away is risky, but things like going to school etc. can be expensive and are best done with family support.

Maybe you could join the military? Just a thought. Good luck, it's not really worth it hurting yourself. That merely says, "I need help."